Some thoughts

Shock does not look like what you think it might. It is not always some great screaming obvious performance, although it is sometimes. Something as small as a drop of water hitting a leaflet, that can shock a person. And that is even more shocking, because, what? It's just that? Shock is never forever. But it can last a long time. Shock can be gentle but persistent. That is very possible.

And it's weird that life can = shock, sometimes. I think I am a little bit shocked. I don't exactly know why. A personality that is still in control is in shock. Perhaps I/it will be unshocked soon. Maybe I'm not as shocked as I think I am. But still. It's not gone. Yet. Also, this is ridiculous. But that's how shock can work on a person. I am going to get out of it, though. And it is possible that shock is too strong of a word. However, it probably is accurate.