"The Emotion Code - SO FAR SO GOOD !"
http://www.sofarsogoodtherapy.com/the-emotion-code.html
It's got a chart. That's a tool that can be utilized.
Monday, February 16, 2026
Also a happy thought.
People can get better at crying. When they're better at crying, it helps. Anyways, that's how it seems to me right now.
Maybe it'll be fun for them to learn more about what they're supposed to learn about.
You can't really take away other people's childhood experiences. They have those experiences. They have to figure out what they're supposed to learn from them and how to heal whatever they're supposed to be healing.
This also sounds good to me at the moment.
People can make good things but like consider refining the energy and then it will be experienced differently and probably much betterly.
Kind of happier now. Thanks, lemon water!
I feel like foot reflexology could be a really good thing. Foot reflexology! ππππ»πΉ
I'm going to get better.
I'm going to get better at being more balance so I don't have such intense, horrible experiences.
It's as if God has spoken to me herself.
It's too bad some assholes aren't more motivated to learn how to help themselves. That can change!!!!!!!
Lemon water is nice.
Later.... It's been REAL. A real life. Auuuugh, oh my goodness, surely I will feel much better very soon. I need to be by myself now.
Just let old ways go.
I cried at "Why can't I ease your mind and melt your cold, cold, heart" recently.
I gotta get through this.
This too shall pass...
Try to be much nicer to yourself. You really need it. I also really need it. Amen. Help me survive.
Auuuugh.
My body is detoxing. Please God let me feel better soon. Good luck humanity. Prayers for all humans having to deal with these physical bodies on this this incredibly challenging planet.
Sunday, February 15, 2026
This could be sort of like an era of cultural deprogramming for some people. π
All kinds of peoples from all kinds of different backgrounds are beginning to realize they can't repeat the old ways that they were taught.
Good with spices but also good without spices.
Endives, olive oil, walnut, pomegranate seeds, spices.
Stitchery.
I did the wrong thing at the top of this hat but I kind of think it looks interesting. Reminds me of the underpinnings of a skirt.
Stitchery, stitchery, stitchery.
I wonder if other people have been having more vivid dreams.
I had a dream about being very pulled towards learning more about somebody (perhaps I was even getting fascinated???) but then he disappeared. A guy who lived across the hall in my apartment building in the dream was very specific about wanting me to know he had gotten deported. He got deported? Nooo! I needed to find out more. I asked where he was and the guy said he was back in his hometown. I went out on the street and a young person told me I had said a little too much and now I was in a gossip column story. But the story was in an obscure Spanish language publication. The guy opened a suitcase and a bunch of different kinds of books and magazines were in it. But I really couldn't find the publication he was talking about. When the dream ended, people were saying nice things about the guy who got deported, that he was a good person and such.
Want to get overly fascinated? Maybe not.
But sometimes I am quite fascinated by the kinds of messaging people got inside of their brains, both in previous centuries and in more recent times. And these messages have impacted a lot of people at very young ages. And the messages have influenced their ways of perceiving the world later on in life, too. Because, after all, the same kinds of situations can different affect people so differently.
It's kind of cool that an unwell society's collapsing.
I'm sure a lot of different kinds of people can sit for a while and think about better ways to move forward.
Enjoying another morning scroll!
Earth is such a weird place sometimes.
What happens if a girl drives the car and drops off the guy.
"You need a boyfriend!"
shephard.caught
Saturday, February 14, 2026
"Ghost riders in the sky..."
People in the parking lot are pointing at the elaborate contrail(?) decorations up there.
This song came on the radio just as I posted this.
Peggy Lee – "Ghost Riders in the Sky (A Cowboy Legend) Lyrics" | Genius Lyrics
https://genius.com/Peggy-lee-ghost-riders-in-the-sky-a-cowboy-legend-lyrics
This kind of πΌ stuff just amuses me sometimes.
"If Stayin' Alive Had Been Written in 16th Century"
Jonasquin-g15p
The beginning of this reminded me of another recipe for sauce.
"ways to save time in the kitchen"
Obdulia Ag
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThxtRjMH/
"Marcella Hazan's Tomato Sauce with Onion & Butter"
@food52
https://youtube.com/watch?v=oxyWAuEMWfw&si=pqexBMMIVmqX8Fws
But then she added plenty more ingredients in there. And there the resemblance ended.
pequeΓ±o grito
"landscape, hills, mountains..."
Obdulia Ag
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThxtdmWT/
If I posted videos on Tiktok, I'd cut it off right after the little scream.
Practically nobody reads this thing, you know.
I just watched someone freak out because her cat got a million views and her cat really didn't care at all.
On the other hand, some people are really happy because soon they get to buy discount candies.
refashionedhippie
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUvxYfuEasl/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Perhaps this is a life mission thing πΌπͺ©π?
The Moody Blues - "I'm Just A Singer (In A Rock And Roll Band)"
so ridiculous! and yet the world goes on as usual
Me and my sacroiliac joint sitting in a tree, working out deep issues and cry - eye - ing! Maybe something fun will come out of it...Probably.
She sounds like a nice girl to have on the floor of your dorm.
"Lesley Gore's snick snack hamburgers"
The hand of God, between cats.
πͺ·ππΉππ»π
"Never been touched before clearly!"
britneyspears
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DRWHu8LAJ0N/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Anyways, you know the year you were born matters and stuff I guess.
My inner child probably needed a lot more feminist content, you know!
Take care of thyself.
Anyway I just ate some really red carrots with labneh dip and I didn't choke but I was laughing and I was afraid I was going to, be careful.
Every day can be happy feminism dayπ!
πππππππ
"Do you get what I am throwing down?"
toninagy
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUuKyr_jlvf/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Have some self-love, book. I've never even read
"Ethan Frome - can someone explain..."
https://www.reddit.com/r/books/s/aqDV45uhdf
A Cult called Slaves to Z.
Predawn hours; freedom hours.
I believe the reason why I had some weird experiences is because a higher power is at work. That's why there was plane trouble when I was on the plane with that one rich guy and he got scared and he talked to the pilot and the pilot landed the plane in Memphis. He just talks a lot of s*** when he's in front of the public. If he figured out how to help himself more could do more good for the planet before his next life. And I think some people understand that. Thank you for your help. π
That's an enriching thought.
"I feel like more of the rich people need to see the self and self-entrusted side of being good to the not - so - opulent."
Holy holy holy...
It seems the universe is giving some enchanting "living inside of a church pipe organ" feelings.
Such tutorial dreams.
I already had cheese and eggs so bringing on drills. Just kidding. I whispered into my phone:
I already had chaste and sobering dreams.
One dream was about a woman who lived like a maid even though she said she was a wife. She ran a household and took care of her sick husband, but something about her situation was setting it up so that when her husband died she was going to be impoverished. She wouldn't talk to anyone about this. She just accepted her situation as good enough. The combination of the illusion of security and wealth with the reality of what was actually happening was truly sad to behold.
Another dream was about two people getting into a fight then making up, but unfortunately the fight was the part that got in the public eye and then the man started to get threats from strangers in his e-mails. I feel very chastened by this sobering little dream. I guess fame and money are stern teachers sometimes.
Friday, February 13, 2026
This is such a cute share...
"Will need to expand my edicts..."
taylorparra
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DTDWJ0yDck5/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I believe in two things.
People deserve to have their inner children loved and cared for deeply, and yet they should not be babied too much as adults.
So this doesn't look very good to me:
"forever my baby brother!!!!!!"
lydkerr
https://youtube.com/shorts/VYxDJErbhDc?si=6tupN2VMFIZ-CGXh
Brother can get healing and love and nurturing and massages and whatever helps, but I think the emotional babying is Patriarchal programming.
The reason I am opposed to this is because there's been too many instances in which excuses were made for bad behavior from the "baby" (in a now grown up body) and it was just not a good scene.
Peace.
Optimistic POV
I think the Universe might like for people to work out what they need to work out and things will be much better in the future.
They don't want to realize they've been programmed to be overly servile to an unwell Patriarchal Cult.
People don't realize that some of the "normal" stuff they're doing now is going to look incredibly unhealthy.
Like, maybe not as bad as the old Love's Baby Soft commercials, but still not great.
However, I feel like it's useful to try to talk about things like this.
I am so glad things are changing.
I have never lived in a building with a doorman, but the comment about a doorman leaving a picture of an ultrasound of a baby had by a woman in the apartment building on his desk after years pass and people who watched this show act like that's really cute is completely creeping me out so badly.
"Modern Love Episode 1"
The Cosmos is my employer.
People doing good:
"Cake for adopted girl π #cute #cake #decor #asmr"
@Samriizz
This is interesting.
"Your jaw doesn’t relax until your nervous system feels safe"
@Jules_horn
https://youtube.com/shorts/kAIevS16sgE?si=c7UdlZ5qE2XRBSGq
I tried it. I looked at the map of the top of the mouth again. I moved my thumbs back further, I thought, Oh no, I don't want a gag reflux. I did feel more relaxed. It's also a little bit mouth watering.
I know not what I do?
I was feeling kind of bad but then I realized I just really, really enjoy being annoying and it gives me this deep joy that I don't want to admit. And it's like the laughter that comes up from the bottom of my belly is in the driver's seat sometimes. And I don't even know that unless I start thinking about it. I guess maybe things will just be that way for a while. I don't know. I am not going to make predictions right now.
This was pretty nice to watch during the pandemic, huh? It's still kind of fun to watch it now.
"The Wellerman (Sea Shanty) - From TikTok to Epic Remix"
TheKiffness
Tarot is inspiring, too!
"The Fool"
Qveen Herby
https://youtube.com/watch?v=1Qzn6JH2PfA&si=oKKuBjdpWU8w3Wdt
Qveen Herby - "Sugar Daddy"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=J3RCss03v1k&si=kvetDWOO2eC1xYgk
I think I figured something out.
Part of me feels like if I eat more, I'm being less of a servant to the patriarchy. Isn't that interesting?
"On male-centred women..."
nktgill
I thought she said "paisley" for some reason.
Such a complicated pattern...
Classic - "The Catherine Tate Show, Our John's a Gay Man Now"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=8i6xQf8ZNQ0&si=wkSE6aWGV5b_2n4y
"HISTORY OF PAISLEY | ORIGIN OF PAISLEY SYMBOL & PATTERN"
https://www.paisleypower.com/history-of-paisley
What's that thing they set on top of the piano called?
π️ππͺ΅πͺΊπͺ»
"So much more feel without it"
deviin
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTh9VtuxS/
Sacroiliac joint seems better today. I think that's good!
It's out of my hands.ππ»
Just a dash of silent pensivity.
"Kent State’s May 4 Visitors Center Celebrates Life With 'Bill: An All-American Boy' Exhibition" | Kent Campus, Kent State Today, May 4 Visitors Center
Oh, I suppose that is true.
"How the Kent State Shooting Changed American Music" - Belt Magazine
https://beltmag.com/kent-state-shooting-american-music-punk-new-wave/
Auuuuuu.....men.....πΆπ↕️ππ
Pissed Jeans - "The Bar Is Low [OFFICIAL VIDEO]"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=9i7aBnoaYPQ&si=f9T0e6WeRvQ4AIdF
"Mini Oreo cakes but soak em!! π₯πͺ #cakedecorating"
MessyBaker
https://youtube.com/shorts/rtSSW1Q41Nk?si=QeKXFR-z37zVthnD
The Breeders - "No Aloha (Official Visualiser)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=lt4um_Yl3r8&si=CK7W3ZOUtKHthtpm
"Amen by Orlando Gibbons - Pipe Organ"
I think I almost felt some mirthful qualities!
"π©π¦³πͺπ΅ Ladies, have you considered that it may be hard to be a gal..."
trademoviespodcast
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTh9CNXeH/
It almost reminded me of when I was in my 20s & started laughing uncontrollably just because somebody was describing the plot of Ethan Frome.
It won't be this particular era forever, will it?
"I came across this old perfume ad"
Rhea Reacts π
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTh99pKqW/
"Like it really all makes sense now"
Avra & Josh
Pairing artistically. π¨π©π»π¨
"When Robert Downey Jr visited Wall Street π° #wealth"
Wealthtrion
https://youtube.com/shorts/wXShySPXNrY?si=Tb3Z8FCIWF5HO58g
"Idk maybe I was in the wrong"
modernday_oracle
I'm embarrassed for her, but I also really appreciate it.
"Mister said speak to me in my special voice, peasant ππ€·π»♀️"
The Cat Nip Lady
This kind of seems to fit nicely with a whole theme that life's got going on recently.
Golly...
"#privateequity #swork #substack
#womeninfinance"
chickenpotpielover69
Scrolling is a great way to find new desserts.
I do think it's a stretch to call this a Valentine's Day dessert but I guess I would try it? I mean, of course I would because it has lemon in it.
"Lemon green tea possets"
One Organic LLC
Maybe surrender is transformation.
"Surrender is not submission."
kristina. kyser. phd
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUrMX4jjxIC/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Dreams were sort of interesting.
Well, I had a dream about a guy walking through a house that had lots of shadows in it and it seemed he was keeping the rooms very shadowy because that's how he grew up, in rooms that were filled with shadows, but maybe he could turn on the lights but that would be too bright and then I actually of couldn't tell if the dream was about that one anymore as it turned into something where I was expected to visit some people except I couldn't participate in a lot of their preferred plans and activities on account of some health issues. Why am I even here? I began asking myself.
Looking up some stuff about a problem again.
My lower left sacroiliac joint needs prayers and good energy. May the internet provide the help that is needed! (If that's where it will come from.)
Thursday, February 12, 2026
It's because...
"Artist Shoji Yamasaki: Why is he doing this?"
@RoseinHistory
https://youtube.com/shorts/mr6mJV_d5ZQ?si=xsw61NRPquQcB6PS
A very silly era has come around again.
"Fruit Desserts for Valentine's Day from the Better Homes & Gardens..."
@HomeEcTeacherPet
https://youtube.com/shorts/MREFPR18cOA?si=KvpBgRNfrl_Ekq5m
And a very silly era is a silly, silly era.
"The story behind all this"
@itsthecedlife
https://youtube.com/shorts/9IYpbmSfdng?si=7MeZy83xhRQU7oD2
But maybe some very good things can come out of it. Finally!
I'm seeking help though.
Have some issues right now and I think it's has to do with the fascia and the sacroiliac joint.
Extra thoughtfully on some good quality leashes, too.
"very demure... very mindful..."
dashandpearl
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DSNze-DErjy/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
These birds seem like they're really enjoying their winter.
"Wild Birds Feeding ASMR | Backyard Bird Charcuterie"
Instant Birds
https://youtube.com/shorts/ncbMEULp2wI?si=ptExWS9kWF-Wukc1
Alas, the humans have had a harder time of it, and sometimes I have wondered why...
Ruth Stone's "Winter" – Poetry Daily
https://poems.com/poem/winter/
But maybe they get another opportunity to express themselves better.
Never really knew much about her.
Now I can learn more! Oh, but I fear that the voice on this video does sound a bit robotic...
"The Life & Death of LESLEY GORE"
@HarmonyHeartsLifestyle-ul5yv
It's good to remember to still read the analog things.
I found out that Quincy Jones really liked "You Don't Own Me." And that song was a collaboration between a teenage girl (young woman? They used to say that a lot more. And I do believe it was meant as a term of respect, usually) and two men in the music industry who were tired of all the songs on the radio being about girls wishing for a guy to validate them by paying attention to them.
"12 Notes: On Life and Creativity by Quincy Jones" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/56969503-12-notes
Actually it's kind of weird though, because when you go on the internet, there seem to be slightly differing versions about how and why that song came about.
I'm going on more searches. I can't stop; it feels like a mission!
Groupies of the Divine Feminine doing it better than Deepak Chopra did! He can just retire and take a rest now. And focus on his inner work.
Now what?
https://www.reddit.com/r/mtg/s/75LoYUxbre
The universe is gonna make me check out a website called CrackerMilk?
You know, the '90s were a different time. This is a very recent article!
"Christine de Pizan, Chansons et Ballades"
https://www.gramophone.co.uk/reviews/christine-de-pizan-chansons-et-ballades
I guess rescue kitties need playtime too!
Nice to see Harold looking happier!
"only took him 25 days..."
lucilletherescuecat
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUqqWJWkQZQ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Watery and breathing.
I have had a recurring dream (it's sort of good but I hate it) of being so far underwater it's black and the feeling is that you're going to drown. But then I looked up and there was some sunlight, so I had to keep swimming upwards. It takes a while but you have to keep on swimming.
The twist at the end of it was that I was in the consciousness of a famous blond actress by the time I reached the surface. Boy, was she tired. And then, at the top, it turned into a swimming pool with concrete ledges around the water. She was exhausted but she still had to get herself out of the pool without a ladder so she could rest and breathe better.
"Everything fun was tainted and poisoned" feelings.
"It's hard to come to terms with how widespread their influence was."
ileana.justine
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUowL-BkyNY/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Pairing, again.
Silent Model Karen Mulder and Sorrowful Songwriter Adele
"Karen Mulder - the original EPSTElN whistle blower"
Karine Alourde
https://youtube.com/watch?v=kQLfHT92PZQ&si=iAYqmD9dYH5r8X5v
Adele - "Rolling in the Deep (Official Music Video)"
As my headphones would say, "Pairing!"
I thought "Oooo, I kinda feel like pairing that 'You put me in mind of winter' poem with something very snowy from 'Black Robe'" (an older film).
The poem is "Close."
It is in "Felt" by Alice Fulton.
"Alice Fulton | Reviews of Felt"
https://alicefulton.com/books/f.html
"Review: Carson, Fulton, Rankine - Boston Review"
https://www.bostonreview.net/articles/bk-fischer-review-carson-fulton-rankine/
Today I also saw this line in it:
"While seeing parts of the whole,
she let the indigenous breathe
and leave a note."
And I couldn't really find the clip I wanted but this one is kind of interesting. It's not like I feel like a film clip should rule an entire life. But I could not find the one I wanted, so I'm going to put this one in this post and go to sleep soon.
"A dream is real. It must be obeyed. We will do as she asks. What can we say to people who..." - Black Robe | Clip.Cafe
Grit. But try not to grind too much. Thank you.
Thank you sincerely for paying attention to harsh, abrasive, feminist texts.
Still more bonding words.
It's not the unnecessary midnight snack talking. Because I feel better after the unnecessary midnight snack. But before dinner, many hours ago:
"I stayed in all day. I kind of wish I was dead... Maybe I could go to a monastery? Become a rich thin blond anorexic girl. I need money and lasers..."
And I don't feel that's really me. I feel like it's some horrible messaging that got inside of me, and it's toxic. And that's what they wanted, isn't it.
Wednesday, February 11, 2026
It's very revolutionary.
When special people pushed into being like this and special people pushed into being like that can shake hands.
Just a boring thought, but anyways.
I feel like when I was watching the "My Brilliant Friend" show it was more interesting to see the gender dynamics when the characters were younger. But by the time they got older and were parents and had the skinniest actresses play them I didn't care about watching the show anymore. And also why did their characters have to end up being so shallow as they got older? Eeeesh. And so very tiresome their taste in men was as they got older as well.
Such a work in progress, as ever.
Probably have to do Pilates for just health reasons. Not getting skinny reasons. And also practice patience with certain people's propensities when it comes to perceiving what is going on with others. Everyone has different gifts!
I celebrate peppers and mushrooms!
This, not so much, although the people caring about the lower wage workers and the journalism is a good thing.
"Why Regulators Haven’t Stopped Rampant Abuse of Farmworkers With H-2A Visas" — ProPublica
https://www.propublica.org/article/h-2a-visa-farmworker-exploitation-regulators
Kind of makes me feel better about Philly Cheesesteak coming to the Maiden.
M.I.A. - "Paper Planes"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=ewRjZoRtu0Y&si=SajTAxDkt2etPlHM
Italian Beef Sandwich is too far away for the Archbishop to drive towards at the moment.
Sacrifices have been made.
Honestly, sometimes I wish I was a rich girl who could get sick and have people bring me tea and something to knit with and we could have boring conversation, but I guess that's not as creative. And it's sort of like something out of another era, too. Nowadays when you get sick, people just text you funny videos.
Aw. I think Isabella Clara Eugenia really liked him.
"How Religion Shaped Rubens Into One Of History's Best Painters"
Perspective
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WO4OSukQBb0
"Isabella Clara Eugenia" - Wikipedia
Don't even need to go out to a fancy restaurant now.
"Cedric & Edith try Muttchelin Paw fine dining"
@itsthecedlife
I can appreciate that people who are different from me have a rough time of it too sometimes.
"They Are Basically Wearing a Disguise"
@RyanLongcomedy
This is a really cute dog video!!!
"These treats are made with carob, not cocoaπ₯°"
itsthecedlife
https://youtube.com/shorts/D0Rhew7lzaw?si=jSNEG0JWqOSyfEcm
I don't know. I just find it really heartwarming.
Humanity has health issues.
Now I am sure there are times when I can open up to more kinds of experiences without automatically assuming that opening up to such experiences is going to lead to bad or devastating consequences. However, what can other people do to make it look less like opening up to their experiences is not too much like pointlessly holding up some old ways that are too careless of others or are just not very sustainable and will soon be gone?
Cultural things.
How weird that all the farm workers who are so easily ignored by the mainstream Society but are supporting everybody have mostly a lot more of the indigenous peoples heritage, too.
I mean, I'm sure there's information that I don't have at the moment that might help.
Sometimes I feel like the practical people aren't being spiritual enough and the spiritual people aren't being practical enough and it's like, when will the twain meet?
Isn't having access to food nice?
Okay, so the mesmerized ones in society kept ignoring that a bunch of girls and children were getting sexually abused on an island and now suddenly lots of people act like they care and that's progress. What else is going to happen?
Wake up; things are not supposed to be like this.
Or maybe it's better to say things are supposed to get better now.
"Wisconsin farmer worries immigration enforcement could impact nation’s food supply"
https://spectrumnews1.com/wi/milwaukee/news/2026/02/11/wisconsin-farmer-ice-food-grocery
Didn't there used to be guilds of men for needle work too
"A History of Lace in New York City"
elenakanagy-loux
Chase that carrot; success is just around the corner.
Society of Insensitives! Elon on two planes less than ten years ago and it gets stressful but people act like you're making it up and also they're kinda jealous? What? No they didn't? Yes they f****** did. Sensitivity was not their forte, huh? But things have changed now!
Actually, it's kind of a good thing to know that.
It's not so annoying to know that you couldn't be successful when the parameters of *success* weren't really conducive to what you were supposed to be doing.
I just realized I genetically resemble a grandparent who really liked soap operas.
Good to know. Working through the layers...
"Billionaires Self Snitching in Emails to Epstein"
@RyanLongcomedy
Healing in unconventional ways?
Anyway, what's convention now? What's going to be convention in the future huh? Well, who knows that? Things will be calmer in the future. That's cool.
"Healing era but make it chaotic #shorts"
@MarinaSimone
Horses were American first?
"Paarden kwamen het eerst voor op het Amerikaanse continent. Een miljoen jaar voor het ontstaan van de mens begraasden zij de uitgestrekte grasvlakten en staken ze over naar andere werelddelen via smalle landtongen die al spoedig daarna vernietigd raakten door schuivende ijskappen."
Page 85, Chapter 6 of De Paardenfluisteraar
Een Emotionele Reis
by Nicholas Evans
❄️❄️❄️❄️❄️❄️
"It was in America that horses first roamed. A million years before the birth of man, they grazed the vast plains of wiry grass and crossed to other continents over bridges of rock soon severed by retreating ice."
Page 75, Chapter 6, of The Horse Whisperer, a novel by Nicholas Evans
Bullocks.
"Bolek Szpilberg Is another curious personality. He comes to school in a different suit every day. He is the son of wealthy parents, and is quite talented. He seems older than his eighteen years, is of medium height and is very distinguished looking. Bolek was born in Palestine, although he is really a British subject, and as such, was obliged periodically to report to the Gestapo. But he procured an Italian birth certificate for a considerable sum of money, and registered with the Gestapo under his own name, but as an Italian citizen, and struts around the school without an armband. Yet one day when the Germans came to inspect our school, he quickly dawned an armband. His face was flushed and he trembled all over. I realized then what a coward he is."
Mary Berg
July 4th 1941
Page 71 in "The Diary of Mary Berg: Growing up in the Warsaw Ghetto by Mary Berg"
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/556980.The_Diary_of_Mary_Berg
Auuuugh.
Fare well!
I am about to believe that I am going to have to magically manifest enough money to go to a spa all by myself for an entire year. And when I come back things have got to be better!
I didn't watch it, but this sounds pathetic.
"This Republican Called To Investigate Bad Bunny's Halftime Show Over 'Gay Pornography,' And Everyone Is Like 'Did We Watch The Same Show???'"
Auuugh!
It's like living on a different planet.
I cannot believe how many excuses people would have made for me if I were an immature man in the early part of the 21st century.
I don't think I have to have any words right now.
But I honestly just feel sick and grossed out by the abusive horrendous patriarchal nonsense of the first part of the 21st century.
Jesus weeps!
"Exclusive: I Was the Child in R. Kelly’s Infamous Sex Abuse Video"
https://www.oprahdaily.com/entertainment/books/a70248817/whos-watching-shorty-r-kelly-memoir/
"Hailey Bieber Says 'Following Jesus Together' With Husband Justin Is Everything"
Things really need to change A LOT.
There has been so much entitlement. I can remember going to The Theosophical Society in Illinois and watching a talk because there was a special technique that was supposed to help people recover from trauma, including trauma from rape and things like that. And I was desperate to find out more about something that could save people's lives, and I was hopeful that maybe this would be something to help traumatized people.
And while I was at the talk, some tall suit guy who knew the people in charge put his hands on my hips and moved me out of the way to talk to them. Like I was a vase or an object. I could not believe it. It was shockingly enraging. It was like when somebody breaks a mirror. I really wish bad things on him right now. I'm like, I would not be surprised if he was on a plane to the bad island at some point.
This life has been filled with some lethal B.S. And it was laughed off and thought of as just, oh that's nothing. That's no big deal. We're done with that version of dealing with things. There's no going back; absolutely not, absolutely not.
Finally, confirmation that things were not okay!
Honestly, I sort of thank God for the current situation.
I woke up and now I'm going back to sleep.
What a life. Extra people for extra times. Chill out. Stretch your muscles. It's good for you. You can be like, Wow, how amazing; that is such an amazing muscle.
I have a theory that certain people who caused you pain love you deeply on a spiritual level. What do I know? I guess I know something.
Tuesday, February 10, 2026
I think I should just go read a book now. That would be fun.
There was something on another video I saw where a person was talking about Jesus healing the paralytic and forgiving sins, and part of me was like, this is a beautiful insight.
And a part of me was like, "Allll riiiight..."
"David Tennant and Lauren Cooper" | Comic Relief
Here's my inner child in sight of the evening.
There should be various words for the happy sad feelings like there's various words for snowflakes in other languages.
Things could be progressing in some good ways.
People are just going to have to change for the better and help themselves transform as they learn from their past. And it's probably not going to be easy all the time, but it's what people have the opportunity to do. And perhaps that's their crowning achievement. Maybe there will be more moments of ease than unease as time goes on. Like more moments of ease psychologically, especially.
Some islands are better than others!
This one sounds more interesting to me when the woman finally starts singing.
"1940 HITS ARCHIVE: Make-Believe Island - Mitchell Ayres (Mary Ann Mercer, vocal)"
The culture is changing. Ads are changing.
I noticed people are starting to market overnight spa experiences like they are a "go by yourself" experience. This is February and it's Valentine's month and I feel like in the past they always made a big deal about that. But now it's like "You deserve this" and you just see a woman by herself and it almost seems like maybe you're just marrying yourself on your solo spa vacation, according to the advertisement.
A very spoiled cat, some might say.
I think my cat doesn't care and she's completely impervious to suffering. I mean, it's not that she's not capable of suffering. It's just that she's not very interested in thinking about it.
Maybe if I hear more stories it will help.
I still don't understand why I had to have such a difficult time in a feminine body in this life, and it's not fair, and I'm not exactly over it yet. One suffers and then one feels the need to make something of it I suppose.
Isn't it interesting how humans are at all different stages?
People's parents have probably reincarnated and become babies or little kids or older kids or young adults by now. And I like to think about that sometimes because if I go grocery shopping and I start noticing male couples more and then I'm like, I wonder if this is because I was, like, a repressed man in a previous existence, then I know, well, this is a different existence now.
I'm so excited for the upward trajectory of humanity. I think I'm going to go buy chocolate.
"Focus on social systems to get to the root"
hilaryagro
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUk5Q_jDj_C/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I feel like it's kind of paid off, actually.
I figured the best way to get the satisfaction of feeling like you're being listened to is to just put some information out there sometimes.
I love knowledge!
All my brothers are going to be even more feminist than I am when they reincarnate. I'm excited for them!!!!!
Good Lord, what century is this. The 21st?
Sometimes, it's like you get a nudge from Big Feminist that it's good to take a break from the dream of a Musical Universe, and then you're just like, Good God. People in human bodies with brains did what? What were people thinking?
"#maga #trump #health"
epistemic crisis
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUlzZzyj1MK/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
In the name of various things that people like to sing about and listen to on their radio stations and play in the background at their picnics...
I see you are intrigued by the bottle may I pour you a glass of feminism from this fine and well-aged vintage.
Do you put the vintage first or do you put the bottle first?
Hmmm....
Think I'm going to read "The Horse Whisperer" finally.
I never read it before but a local library actually has a copy of it in Dutch. Crazy! (No, I will not just read it in Dutch. I am not educated enough. I will read it in English, and then I will compare it with the Dutch version!)
"Why Doesn't The US Make Farmers Like We Used To?"
@FarmToTaber
Here's an article from 10 years ago. Well, in between 9 and 10 years ago.
"You won't believe this unique approach to therapy"
https://www.shreveporttimes.com/story/life/2016/12/22/therapy-found-playing-sand/95328658/
I thought there'd be a whole article to go along with this!
But as of now, I guess it's just a picture?
"Bangkok's RAKxa wellness resort introduces Sand Tray Therapy"
https://globetrender.com/2025/01/21/bangkoks-rakxa-wellness-resort-introduces-sand-tray-therapy/
It sounds like he has a nervous system to tend to, maybe.
'Why Gotye DISAPPEARED.. #shorts"
@britishbizguy
https://youtube.com/shorts/ch4_p8oj74A?si=2-pnRrlETHtygP7b
Gotye - "Somebody That I Used To Know (feat. Kimbra)"
You could be a famous knitter soon.
Auuuugh....go drink tea....
Nessa Barrett - "la di die (feat. jxdn) [official music video]"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=e0MuToADnt8&si=lTObV0T1zBrrMGqD
Also there's so many people making stuff and putting it online that everyone's becoming famous and finding fans of their content. Being appreciated on a wider scale getting normalized. Still scary for some reason!!!
That's why people have kids.
You were a little kid once, and just for fun, they were going to buy you some soda pop.
Serenity. Vanity. Compassion.π§π»♀️ππ»πͺ·
It feels like a part of me could be a very serene person meditating next to a brook, or "a crick" as they would say in the country.
It's not 6 a.m. here yet, but it's lunch time somewhere else!
“'No artist, agent or employee should ever be expected to defend or overlook actions that conflict so deeply with our own moral values,' the 'Pink Pony Club' superstar posted online today. 'I refuse to passively stand by.'
The exit of the Kiely Mosiman, Jackie Nalpant and Anna Bewers-represented Roan is the biggest and perhaps harshest blow against the increasingly besieged grandson of legendary agent Lew Wasserman. Contacted by Deadline, reps for Wasserman, who has been in Italy for the Olympic Winter Games, had no comment on Roan’s bombshell."
~ Dominic Patten
"Chappell Roan Exits Casey Wasserman Agency Amid Epstein Files Heat"
https://deadline.com/2026/02/chappell-roan-leaves-casey-wasserman-agency-epstein-files-1236713852/
Lol.
It's a rich liminal space, you know.
Run away with me to The Mundane.
And then, maybe we can have a party?
Aaaaaaaaah!
To (mis)quote a character in an Ibsen play, "By George, fancy that."
The only one in jail over The Epstein Files is a Very Unwell Woman who probably got coerced into and rewarded for catering to Rich Men since she was a small child. Probably from infancy, practically. Groomed by her very own Bad Rich Dad.
Kind of mad about some money stuff right now, too.
In addition to knowing I need to go back to an office and ask for a refund on dental work that I had to get redone, I'm also getting tax forms that make it look like they took out of my paycheck for health insurance when they weren't supposed to do that because I was not supposed to be eligible for health insurance as a part-time worker. So what is all this negligence and robbery about? It kind of feels like it's about selfishness and misogyny. That's what it kind of feels like it's about.
They're here for a reason, right?
I think talking about acknowledging the existence of lots of kinds of girls and women is something I am supposed to be doing.
Monday, February 09, 2026
Very oppressive times were also had this time around.
Some of the arts have been associated with some very controlling behavior in this lifetime.
I've had these very intense moments that nobody but me knows.
Maybe more people have those than we know.
For some reason I want to mention that sometimes I feel like Anne Frank and her dad and others who were in hiding or who helped make it a hiding place are kind of like some of my spirit guides. Even the dentist she didn't get along with and shared a room with could be one of them, too. But sometimes you don't listen to the spirit guides because there's all this stuff going on in the outside world that's really distracting.
Keats knew about pitiformis syndrome?
"La Belle Dame sans Merci: A Ballad" | The Poetry Foundation
https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/44475/la-belle-dame-sans-merci-a-ballad
Yes, I'm just self-absorbed that way.
I will do a lot to relax a muscle that's pressing on a nerve.
Hoarse, smoky voice: "Did you get any work today, son?"
Catherine Tate - "Gay Son"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=ifUQq5p5i2g&si=Cq18wKAYxc4akY57
Entertaining alternate realities is not out of the question at all...
Well, we'll see about that in 100 years, won't we?
Do you ever feel like some people don't properly appreciate your brave stances.
Ha! The cat does, though. How about some selenite?
Considering an alternative cult π
Your muscles deserve to relax. You've survived a lot. The Lord has spoken. And blessed thee! Try some CBD cream, too.
At least the cat is comfortable.
Back to the floor to figure out whatever the screaming muscle wants.
It's a good thing there was ice cream!
But the people in conservative churches were really against girls and women taking any kind of leadership roles. Cult leaders, us? Ha! Punishment for even daring to think of such a thing.
Maybe we are becoming more of a take - better - care - of - your - inner - child Society!
My inner child's remembering that it was really annoying how all the Smurfs were boys and there was just one girl - blond Smurfette - God, that show was very patriarchal. I mean, I guess Papa Smurf was nice and all, but you know. There are other shows! It's a good thing.
Maybe we are becoming a more caring Society.
A "You create beautiful things, but you should also take better care of your health" kind of Society.
Some things you can't ignore, right?
I believe in people's missions but have to learn how to take better care of my health. It's my constant task. I do the thing that makes me feel better. I feel better, and then this other thing comes up. So then I have to do something else, apparently.
Maybe people should start considering the use of music as medicine for the nervous system.
For example, I wonder if she could do something like play a very soft sound bath for a little while before she gives him the medicine?
"coming to you this afternoon feeling quite discouraged"
lucilletherescuecat
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUgxQvYks3L/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
It seems like the approach that was being used in the video was not really optimal for the situation.
Bodies are creative. Inherently.
In the next life this is just about trying to do simple reclining yoga poses the day after some Pilates.
"Jimi Hendrix – Killing floor"
https://genius.com/Jimi-hendrix-killing-floor-live-at-monterey-lyrics
Sunday, February 08, 2026
Looks good. I never saw this channel before. I think I'll watch it.
"Why the Past Feels More Elegant Than It Really Was"
TheGlambassador
I really like this tea.
It has chamomile and lavender and valerian root.
https://numitea.com/products/sweet-slumber
It's fragrant. It tastes good. It's calming, too. It was worth buying.
I listen to this often. I find it therapeutic.
Kawehi - "Somebody That I Used To Know Mashup (live)"
On the other side...
If some moms have to blast the machismo music throughout the whole picnic as a way to placate men or possibly keep them from beating women and children during the Super Bowl, that's really sad.
On the happier side...π±ππ
I get to enjoy shaved fennel, blood oranges, roasted salmon, and micro greens tonight!
Thank you for providing me with this bounty!
So, on the grouchy side...
I do wish some people would show more empathy for what others are going through, but at least I never bought the "I want to be where the people aren't" shirt in the thrift store.
My one good knife broke on a bulb of fennel!
Well, at least I have the mandolin, and now I can eat shaved fennel with blood oranges, which is not anything I ever contemplated eating when I was younger.
There's so many shows to watch now.
"Making life as enjoyable as possible when you cook"
@fromscratch.withbob
https://youtube.com/shorts/eg0cOosSwM8?si=owDnCkDZTU_3BgjI
It's like, he's almost smug, but also good.
We are but ciphers.
"Psychology of People Who Don't Care About The Superbowl"
@PsychologyIsSimplified
I feel like this could be a possibility...
"It’s so delicious! This roasted Cabbage Melts Like Butter!"
@DeliciousVeganVictor
This eventually turns into something that looks like a giant green Kit Kat bar.
"ζΉθΆγθ΄ ζ²’γ«δ½Ώγ£γζΏεγͺγγ©γ·γ§γ³γ©#ε ΅εΊ«γ°γ«γ‘#Japanesefood"
@YUJI_gourmet
You never know, do you?
There could be a small subset of people who rate fits of grouchiness for fun like watching old episodes of the kitten bowl and it'll be good times.
God gave humans grouchiness for good reasons.
I'm just so grateful that grouchiness can be such a safe space!
Well, maybe he'll be better next time.
"Epstein Isn’t an Aberration. He’s an Inevitable Outcome"
Barry's Economics
Badly parenting?
It feels like we can't even have the abusive guys in the Epstein Files if somebody's not giving birth to or parenting the guys who become the guys in the Epstein Files.
#jeffreyepstein #keirstarmer
Anouska de Georgiou
Oops, more information...
"After the Grammys my already high anxiety for the Super Bowl is now peaked even more"
Ribbon
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThaUCQLJ/
Speaking of musical preferences...
She's talking about the problem of domestic violence. Why does it peak during musical awards or especially during sporting events that are greatly beloved by the patriarchal culture?
Wow! Is this for real?
Hiding this video from my cat.
"Tiny Cat Won’t Let Drum Practice Happen Without Him"
@CuddleBuddiesChannel
Sometimes I think it's fun to read reviews before I've even heard any songs off of an album.
"Review: U.S. Girls – 'In a Poem Unlimited'"
https://www.spin.com/2018/02/us-girls-in-a-poem-unlimited-review/
Hey, if the mommies wanna play their matcha music loudly for their children and for everyone else in the entire park while I'm trying to just quietly eat a veggie sandwich and a salad, I'm going to post!
Sorry, gotta wake up more.
People are actual people and they're also like characters in dreams and films now.
Such vivid dreams.
First, people were going to ceremonies and it was just interesting. Next, going to restaurants and sometimes the wait staff were kind of obnoxious men but later they kept giving extra food. And being extremely generous. It was very healthy and had lots of interesting textures.
I don't even feel like describing the dreams, but they were very very very vivid.
Not really being a great writer since I'm not describing them, but I don't care.
Vivid dreams are very vivid. That's why people call them vivid dreams!
I think I say ceremonies because it was like people were going to something to be entertained, but it got way deeper than that.
Energies were moving. People were, too.
Good Morning, Sunday, End of Our Patriarchal Era.
So I guess there's ICE protests in Milan at the Olympics and the Superbowl and some other stuff is happening.
Saturday, February 07, 2026
New version (to me.) Could be picnic music someday...
"Liquid Diamonds (Live In Philadelphia 10/15/07)"
Tori Amos
Hahaha.
"There's a Vulture Outside (Peanuts Classics) by Charles M. Schulz | Goodreads"
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/2454276.There_s_a_Vulture_Outside
Plenty more to scroll through at the bottom.
Too bad; that was a missed opportunity.
I should have said more stuff like this to people when I used to go out salsa dancing when I was younger.
Actually, I think I did sometimes manage to sneak in a little comment here and there.
A-ha!
Maybe you feel that way because you witnessed a lot of people who care about making money were also great at making excuses for sexual predators and putting down girls and women. Is that a fact? Yeah, maybe it is.
Oh, and here's another thing I was thinking about.
Why do a bunch of women and children feel the need to play and listen to machismo music that's sung from the POV of young horny heterosexual men at their picnics in parks? For the entire duration of the time that they're there.
Today the picnic I observed was mostly made up of women and girls and just some men and boys. But machismo was the soundtrack to their life.
Why don't the men ever want to play feminist music for the girls and women?
Do the girls and women they think that they can't get their husbands or brothers or male relatives to spend time with them in a park otherwise?
I mean it would be okay if they would mix it up with some other kinds of music, too, but no, that was all it was, the whole time. So that's all the kids are hearing when they're running around and I guess having fun. And then they grow up thinking music that promotes machismo is normal and other kinds of music is "weird."
And then they end up making excuses for sexual predators who become celebrities.
Well, I ate a veggie wrap and a salad in a park and felt bothered almost the whole entire time because all they were listening to was this music that seemed like it promoted machismo.
All these little kids are still growing up thinking machismo is normal.
It's oppressive.
Let's contemplate a line.
"The false incompetence is dominance under a guise." ~ Paris Paloma
"Paris Paloma's Labour: Behind the viral soundtrack to 'female rage' - Big Issue"
Apparently, I can't say this enough.
I am tired of people acting like men are more important than everybody else! Even this evening I had a weird eye contact thing happen where I went up to order but the guy was, like can I help you, while making eye contact with another person and then there was this big awkward silence because I was at the bar first and the other people were behind me, and so I said, who are you talking to and he said oh you, but he wasn't making eye contact with me. He totally looked like he was talking to them, not me! He wanted to talk to a guy or perhaps to a group with more money that happened to have a guy at the head of it. Anyways, after that I guess he was trying to be nice. And so I gave him a tip because I'm so nice in real life, but oh my God. I'm tired.
So, now we're back to the glory of failure, of course!
My food was too spicy. My back tooth hurts too much when I chew on it, and maybe the dental work on it is still too high.
And now I'm thinking about how snobby some people seem when they're so into proving how great they are.
And then an article about Kevin Smith having a mental breakdown was brought up.
So now I have the hurt tooth, the overly spicy lips, and the not so stellar feelings.
GAH.
I think I should just go to bed now. I've been up for a while anyways.
Needles and bread and creators and music...
"It is fun to sew sourdough! Unique ways to decorate..."
sourdough_enzo
https://youtube.com/shorts/59_twGh1oEU?si=1ljDNcGls7BQNUhe
"HUMANITY THE ALBUM..."
fefe__inferno
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTh5EuhF8/
"Ave Maria" - Paul Schwartz
https://youtube.com/watch?v=xS_Nq_dBdLo&si=KN6E66bymlalb4ap
I remember how I liked that music when I was younger, and it's still good.
Surely this is tongue-in-cheek, no?
"In one photo, Pugh’s injector smiles while the actress, by contrast, sticks out her tongue as the needle hovers mid-forehead. As a text overlay, she wrote, 'Just mama Pugh freezing her forehead like a responsible adult.'”
~ Jessica Fields
"Florence Pugh Talks Botox and Fillers With Disarming Honesty
'I wasn’t stung by a bee. I repeat: I wasn’t stung by a bee.'"