I wish Shazam told me what the first song was...
"Britney Spears on Instagram: “you can probably tell because I’ve danced to it before 😜🙊🤫 !!!! As you all know .... 2020 was a challenging year for us all … thank you to…”
https://www.instagram.com/p/CJXIABug3ec/
Right now I am less than 5 minutes into but it is going to be on...
"Teacher’s Pet | Snap Judgment Presents: Spooked | WNYC Studios"
https://www.wnycstudios.org/podcasts/spooked/episodes/teachers-pet-spooked
Today the brain thought: "At least I am liking lichens again."
Looked up
https://www.poetrysoup.com/famous/poems/lichen
Here you can see the lichen right away. https://www.poetrysoup.com/famous/poem/ninetieth_birthday_13015
Plath's poem is very long and intense and I guess a lichen must be in it somewhere.
https://www.poetrysoup.com/famous/poem/three_women_15189
Ah, another short one.
https://www.poetrysoup.com/famous/poem/motion_23829
"The Summer of Dead Birds: A Memoir of Love and Loss" | Utne Reader
https://www.utne.com/arts/the-summer-of-dead-birds-review-zm0z19uzhoe
"The Official Center of the World, by the way, is Felicity, California (population: 3)."
~ K. Haegele
that captivated me...
A & A & A (after revision)
"What I Like" by Alice Fulton | Poetry Magazine
https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poetrymagazine/browse?contentId=35359
"The Bad Season Makes the Poet Sad" by Robert… | Poetry Foundation
https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/47283/the-bad-season-makes-the-poet-sad
"Sonnet 94: They that have power to hurt and will…" | Poetry Foundation
https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/45100/sonnet-94-they-that-have-power-to-hurt-and-will-do-none
I was making something in the kitchen when someone came within earshot and was talking on the phone about how her philandering spouse was making their home life crazy and she was afraid it was going to make their daughter take her pills. I walked around the corner and it was a young woman playing a recording from her backpack. She smiled, shut off the recording and zipped up her pack, and that was that!
a book recommendation I got in November:
The Book of Dead Birds by Gayle Brandeis
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/197999.The_Book_of_Dead_Birds
Hey, it's okay! Everything's fine.
But later, a bit of an ache. Or more than a bit.
What's a cure? More walks in nature? Find a sacred space? Get lost in a poem or a song or a piece of art?
Take a shower...take a nap and enjoy your lungs.
I might read that book about breathing by J. Nestor.
When I was a kid.
"Born To Run" - Emmylou Harris -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7PIlw22Urro
Before I developed a strange complex about running.
The universe put me in the line of the very nice pregnant woman checking out the other pregnant woman and the pregnant checker was such a lovely soul. Maybe all those ladies who had issues or sorrows about motherhood could go through her line and get mystifying "I feel better for some reason" feelings.
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A show for women about having more compassion for women when clearly the patriarchy was not adequately teaching them how to be "all [they could] be (in the army)" yet.
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I have a silver disc necklace and sometimes I put it to my mouth to bite it like the runners do when they get a medal yes I do.
They have taken turns being different kinds of mouthpieces so that new changes can come to the Earth. Depending on the circumstances, one might be more expressive or get some kind of message out sooner than the other at times, or appeal to different kinds of audiences. They take turns playing different roles because they have chosen to walk different paths on purpose. Learning about how the paths can intersect & affect relationships is part of creating new forms of expression and life on this planet.
These are really dire times...they are super short-handed because of COVID. Tried to stay 6 feet away from the tech as much as possible.
This is funny and I might show it to someone later.
Somebody’s Old Auntie on Twitter: "This is the funniest shit I have ever seen. https://t.co/pgNmSzMVPD" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/huegolden/status/1344111063055253507
It kinda reminded me of a girl employee with bright green braids who was gleefully pouring some kind of gossip into her cell phone. "So that's going all around the store now!" she said to her friend(?) Very excited and happy.
they way they (whoever's programming the music on the radio) played a piece of my childhood in a car driving in the (mountains? hills?) around West Point
The Romantics – "Talking in Your Sleep" Lyrics | Genius Lyrics
https://genius.com/The-romantics-talking-in-your-sleep-lyrics
& then slammed into being a teenager in NOVA
Rage Against the Machine –" Killing in the Name" Lyrics | Genius Lyrics
https://genius.com/Rage-against-the-machine-killing-in-the-name-lyrics
with an interesting layout and a specific focus
https://www.complex.com/sports/2013/03/a-history-of-athletes-catching-sexual-assault-charges/
"Just plain brutal"
https://www.reddit.com/r/MurderedByWords/comments/kn08ju/just_plain_brutal/
The replier to the OP could be anyone.
When you are always portraying that you were the victim and someone else stood up for you vs. you were the one who stood up for someone else.
"The Shadow Pandemic: Violence against women during COVID-19 | UN Women – Headquarters"
https://www.unwomen.org/en/news/in-focus/in-focus-gender-equality-in-covid-19-response/violence-against-women-during-covid-19
"Really unfortunate liar?"
*shaking head*
And the presidents we've already had in office need the Phil Jacksons way more than anyone
Didn't live with a rapist yesterday
(Looking at accent tables)
Don't live with one today
(Picking out a futon, too)
Not gonna live with one tomorrow either
(Your coffee table book sucks)
"What the hell is this thing?"
https://www.reddit.com/r/BetterEveryLoop/comments/kn0fo7/what_the_hell_is_this_thing/
And better for men than it is for women sometimes, too.
"Daisy and Melinda Coleman's suicides lay bare how public attention can mask ongoing trauma"
https://www.nbcnews.com/think/opinion/daisy-melinda-coleman-s-suicides-lay-bare-how-public-attention-ncna1250627
"Dead rabbits have been dumped in Paige Parkhurst's family car as fellow Maryville rape victim Daisy Coleman attempts suicide"
https://www.news.com.au/world/alleged-maryville-rape-victim-daisy-coleman-attempts-suicide-her-mother-says/news-story/92bf1dc463e0a535e8c90b0d107850df
A bit dickish
"Neil Gaiman and Tori Amos: Comic Connections - YouTube"
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=fzXU6RNeiI0
What if the deceased was someone in your family? What if such a soul decides to come back into your life?
I abandon my kid and wife during a global pandemic. Further on down the road, does the kid:
A) throw a healthy fit when we reunite
B) love and accept me unconditionally for who I am
C) keep her rage bottled up for decades
D) make awesome art not unlike myself
E) OTHER
He was certainly an interesting man. He was not a big sister or a nanny though.
"John Jenkins on Twitter: "OTD, and at this hour, 850 years ago (Tues 29 Dec 1170) Thomas Becket dresses for the cold wintry day, his hair shirt covered by white underclothes, a black tunic, two lambskin mantles with a longer one on top, a fine white tunic, and a long black cloak #Becket850 #Becket2020" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/home
Morning mourning music
"All The Songs In 'Promising Young Woman' Are Pop Bangers"
https://www.bustle.com/entertainment/all-the-songs-in-promising-young-woman-are-by-female-artists
I guess...it's mourning.
"The Baker Orange | Charlie Coleman recounts his family’s ordeal"
https://thebakerorange.com/11249/news/charlie-coleman-recounts-his-familys-ordeal/
A thing where your brain seems to compell you to feel or think you saw someone make some kind of appearance or try to get your attention in a public place once or twice (maybe just to say hey I am here) but is that a real memory or was it in a dream (but still a real message?) Maybe that will help with either going to sleep or with putting away more belongings...
Later, when it's not interfering with the hot spot / someone's work
https://www.softballcenter.com/charlie-coleman/
Maybe the internet will be better soon.
"And then we just asked the Viennese string quartet to play it like they were drunk."
First time I've heard it.
"DISNEY ON ACID" - Abbe May - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dQBkE-6-k4g
X: y'know they seem like they're kinda sexist sometimes? & I am not just talking about the guys
Y: *breathes deeply* yeah...
"Melinda Coleman, mother of Daisy Coleman, dies by suicide 4 months after daughter"
https://www.nbcnews.com/news/obituaries/melinda-coleman-mother-daisy-coleman-dies-suicide-4-months-after-n1250287
Two surviving surviving brothers, actually.
"Melinda Coleman takes her life after Daisy Coleman’s suicide"
https://www.kansascity.com/news/local/article247669465.html
I wish I could carry more up but I will wait til the stairs aren't so slippery. Someone is playing "Heart of Glass" a bit too loud outside.
I left earlier than I needed to, and drove in worse weather conditions because I feel like there's some energy driving me out, an energy symbolized by a new coffee table book about an athlete and nice old Phil Jackson is on the cover of it, but not the main feature.
SO says to me "You have already talked to them about it." So I have.
They just do not care. At all. It is clear.
I told him about the true crime story I read, the underage criminals, the tortured teenage victim, the lack of punishment, the girl being blamed by the mother of the violator and the yakuza. I said it should not have to be that extreme to be considered a problem. And that I feel I am being driven out. That's how it feels. I also thought, if I ever have a kid...well, I cannot do all the work myself, but also cannot just trust anybody to help out. Have some foresight.
And, sorry I forgot to mention Daisy Coleman as well.
I drove a car filled with things on unfamiliar freeways and roads in heavy rain and everything looked like a puddle of a 1970s disco impressionist painting nightmare but I told myself I would be able to rest in the living room that makes you want to do yoga soon plus I could open a present sent to me from WI and now this is what I see!
I need to get out a magnifying glass and read Leaves of Grass.
The first night in the new place there was a giant thunderclap that shattered sleep and now there are big drips of water and billows of smoke or steam coming off the roof.
"I was lucky enough to be asked to do the costumes on the video. It was rather a fun little experience."
~ G. Fox
waves
of faith
mild manners
waves
of "sternness" (?)
correlating
this is like a whole new way to calm down uterine muscles
angel: pls explain in yr most autonomous grammar wut this is about
angel: it's about how we don't live in a society of nudists so when women disrobe in front of heterosexual men, sometimes some of them find it rather exciting which is why yr colleagues chafed u for putting it on the exam
angel: that's not quite how I would put it but okay thats acceptable you get a passing grade
angel: oh good because I found this weird bump behind my ear and it's been distracting largely
May you be the alkaline water and the ginger tea and the heating pad and maybe even the Palma Christi (who knows???)
"Cat Puts Herself to Sleep in Tiny Human Bed" - YouTube
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=psGDf2VrvK8
(I think)
"I walked around and around in little circles"
Abbe May – Perth Girls Lyrics | Genius Lyrics
https://genius.com/Abbe-may-perth-girls-lyrics
An unpacking song as good as
ABBE MAY - DESIGN DESIRE - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=mS29NMGX2iQ
or
ABBE MAY - PERTH GIRLS - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Iq0yBgHlW6s
And how much fun it is for me that I got to learn about her since I moved out to CA to live with a guy.
FEEL the FREEDOM.
One has to shower the other has to go to the bathroom.
Yoga stretches! This place wants you to get more limberrrrr...
Are ppl supposed to watch T. Lasso? Maybe. I am definitely going to watch A Promising Young Woman and Fantastic Fungi sometime soon...
Sitting in a big empty space surrounded by unpacked cardboard boxes sipping champagne out of a yogurt glass is my kind of thing...
And, it's time to set up the internet. Another terrible thing that happened this summer was a young lady (well she's young to me...) lost her father early when, in the throes of a fatal disease, he drove himself to the ER and shot himself. This seemed so horrifically unfair. She had to go to work later and tell coworkers not to make jokes about people wanting to shoot themselves. I was young once and I was traumatized when cavalier people made such jokes at a job I had in college when some people close to me were experiencing frightening times. I also still can't believe I managed to write about Hedda Gabler and get an "A." That was in college. I always had such poor grades in high school.
This new place has A LOT of space!!!!
Life is cool.
If you want to move into an apartment, you can find one where the management leaves a little surprise bottle of champagne (like here!!!)
It's of course not perfect (popcorn ceiling, sigh...) but YES it is awesome this evening! I think I like moving into new places more than I realized, and I forgot, but now I I remember and 2021 looks better and better.
People are still racing though. I might have to move out of state to get away from that.
One of the shocking fatal accidents that happened in the summer was a result of stupid drag racing.
That will be interesting to maneuver into a small parking lot. I think I will say some prayers.
neighbor here gave me a bunch a limons from his yard and said to let him know if we need anything
neighbor there said it's a good quiet place (yeah for southern CA it might be I guess) wanted to know if we need any help and offered to move his truck for the moving van
all these people are older now
George Michael - Freedom! ’90 (Official Video) - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=diYAc7gB-0A
if they're still
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ALIVE
for the slowness but also
the world should be more accommodating to those of us with health issues
if it was a different time of the month I would be 3x faster and if this slowness slows down the move, ppl are going to have go deal with it
Lara Briden on Twitter: ""We're talking about an additional 10 million child brides." https://t.co/oO5GyvYqbu" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/LaraBriden/status/1340737816561520640
Sometimes life is like a staircase of obligations...
the Westron wind is going to be playing around sometimes
Also it's not always a nap, but a need to rest and wonder why it feels like I took a bite out of a bookshelf
The shelves are already dismantled and most of the books are packed
I can imagine a calm person reciting liturgy
Those beaches are on the other side of the country close to where more family lives
I am sorry there was another accident this summer besides two that immediately showed themselves to me
when you're on a break do not read about how e. fennel breaks down "the twist" before watching the film, please don't
Might watch this sometime, too
https://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/fantastic_fungi
It was a library book I got to keep for 6 months because of the pandemic and it introduced me to Retsina. And in way, pine chicken.
The High Sierra of California
https://heydaybooks.com/the-high-sierra-of-california/
"Get V-shape Face in 2 Months - Face Massage Tutorial & Challenge"- YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5_0HhBOKylg
"Put Yourself First"- "Crazy Ex-Girlfriend" - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=H2lmojePnA0
typey little fingers
Watch "Sober (Tool) but it's All I Want for Christmas is You" on YouTube
https://youtu.be/OjigNOKF4t8
"Anatomy model"
https://www.reddit.com/r/Catswithjobs/comments/kjn04q/anatomy_model/
"Ashes Ashes"
Fundraiser by Ashley Oleviri : Safe bathrooms for my family
https://www.gofundme.com/f/safe-bathrooms-for-my-family
Neil Gaiman on Twitter: "Sure. Good luck!" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/neilhimself/status/1342572978752643073
Re-watched "Dream Fortress" for the first time in a while.
https://actuallygrimes.tumblr.com/post/142488246554/holy-shit-this-has-like-15-mil-views-technically
And now looking at the golf episode transcript.
https://blog.simonsays.ai/a-good-walk-spoiled-with-malcolm-gladwell-bf204294a1e8
Certainly I have probably eaten too much and not gotten enough accomplished with packing, but I also took pictures of some nice views.
"Evangelical churches believe men should control women. That's why they breed domestic violence"
https://theconversation.com/evangelical-churches-believe-men-should-control-women-thats-why-they-breed-domestic-violence-127437
because in the morning, I had a self-indulgent PMS meltdown and then i ate the deli food i haven't eaten since i lived in annandale (thank you steely dan) and then i texted stubborn ppl to try to convince them not to go to an indoor Xmas service because sometimes that is just what i do (thank you daisy adair) and now i'm going to listen to a podcast so I can fill boxes and be productive and think more interesting thoughts in the future :-)
sure this one looks good
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/11-a-good-walk-spoiled
golf
Take this film back to graduate school...
Emerald Fennel & Carey Mulligan
"'Promising Young Woman' demands to know why we protect so-called promising young men"
STOP MENSTRUAL CRAMPS - "Luna's Touch" - Relaxation & Stress Relief Music Therapy - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?index=49&list=LLil2gYpye_x6j9wRtO4juhg&v=zi8GWfU4Rk0
"99.9% Instant Menstrual Cramp Relief Sound Therapy - Ovaries Healing Binaural Beats Frequency #SG21" - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=T6AlXkwx2kI
(& IT MIGHT MAKE YOUR SKIN CRAWL)
Oh, I believe I deserve better and so (nicely) do all the guys who will be reincarnated in different bodies someday. Thank Edgar Cayce for his Palma Christi, which is not an instant cure, but I do believe it helps! Teach me new ways and habits which I was not taught but which I still apparently need to learn to have a better and healthier life, and to not be woken up by this intense pain early in the morning. Already feeling better and much more grateful. Thank You...
They'd be good in a film too (brief review)
GRANDES HORIZONTALES | Kirkus Reviews
https://www.kirkusreviews.com/book-reviews/virginia-rounding/grandes-horizontales/
"Where's the Bathroom?"| Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Wiki | Fandom
https://cxg.fandom.com/wiki/Where%27s_the_Bathroom%3F
"Couvade syndrome" How exciting!!!!
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Couvade_syndrome
Sorry.
"Remember That We Suffered" | Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Wiki | Fandom
https://cxg.fandom.com/wiki/Remember_That_We_Suffered
"Fascinate | Origin and meaning of fascinate" Online Etymology Dictionary
https://www.etymonline.com/word/fascinate
intriguing & musical
"Walk On The Wild Side - The story behind the classic bass intro featuring Herbie Flowers." - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=XBXUP5GqYJs&t=39s
E's can be very insecure. Like, I feel like Jesus is way more accepting of me talking about the "Mother of God" and saying things like "jesus is my heating pad" than a lot of humans are.
Interesting development though.
Right Wing Watch on Twitter: "Televangelist Pat Robertson declares that Biden will be president and that Trump "lives in an alternate reality," "is very erratic," and should not run again in 2024: "You've had your day and it's time to move on." https://t.co/2WYCZOSNTO" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/rightwingwatch/status/1341122230026178561/video/1
The coconut sugar version of whipped coffee does not stay very fluffy but it tastes quite nice and adding cinnamon to it is like meditation. Now I am going to get more of the A2 milk. Thank you, Dr. L Briden.
THE NEW APARTMENT COMETH.
"Cat, I'm a Kitty Cat and I Dance, Dance, Dance, Dance" :-)
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dpxIZstD_bI
I said no to the business card. I said no to the business card. I said no to the business card.
I said no to the business card.
ll: I am not Telling You what I learned about Taiji Poles because you're gonna AAAAA everything you already know and I am not mature enough yet to maneuver that conversation
Death metal version of Baby One More Time
L: well now you're just showing me you're A Very Insecure Person
ll: good EYE
I have to take breaks from packing.
Great Depression Cooking - Peppers and Eggs (part 1) - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=P4IjNV3lZkQ
emmyinjapan: Clara's Great Depression DANDELION SALAD | HARD TIMES - recipes from times of food scarcity - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=E6QRNSCH9JU
M. Kavita ~ west covina but it's the song rebecca bunch plays in the finale - original song - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=U0R-vnH4r3E
nethan on Twitter: "@MsRebeccaBlack realizing Rebecca black gets sad sum times https://t.co/EPz5OynPr5" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/244Dooley/status/1340514749583421440
Scott Kerr on Twitter: "Enormous xylophone in the woods of Kyushu, Japan plays a Bach tune when a wooden ball rolls down each "key." An impressive piece of engineering. https://t.co/fE0VocHGAy" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/scott_kerr/status/1340399932893782019/video/1
I think learning about Integrated Healing types of things can help people get to the next step in the process (might be fast, but might be slow, depends on the person) and maybe learn about other kinds of interesting things like Taiji Poles.
Have you ever sat next to the businessman guy whose wife is breaking down on the phone with him about raising their kids or maybe just one kid or maybe she's got PPD and since nothing he says is seeming to help he gets off the call because the plane "is going to leave" but in reality it hasn't left yet and won't for another 45 minutes well anyways he just gets to enjoy his "legitimate excuse" relief. What's she going to do now? Pull herself together, call another relative, hopefully, I guess? So disturbing.
"I just knew that the paper-towel roll I threw in the recycling bin was uncomfortable" ~ F. Apple
"Your cramps are like a war between Dogen and the yakuza."
That is a really, really, really skin-crawly string of words.
Theater has theatrical souls. May they be healthy and prosper (I think they were prospering already) and if being prosperous wasn't altogether enough, then what else was wanted and why, that might be what people want to know more about.
NEW If the universe sends me any more images of a scholar pulling a long face because I didn't say he brought up Beatrice and he was more respectful than a guy who wanted me to impressed by his Very Important Writer status I will not resume that clothes chewing habit. I stopped doing that recently. YORK
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| Saw the two planets at 6 o'clock |
Song of the Stars - GMEA All-State 2012 Senior Women Chorus
Sufjan Stevens, Bryce Dessner, Nico Muhly, James McAlister - Jupiter
Sufjan Stevens, Bryce Dessner, Nico Muhly, James McAlister - Saturn (Official Video)
Song Of The Stars * Dead Can Dance
Etc., etc.
I see...special words.
https://www.theatlantic.com/science/archive/2020/12/jupiter-saturn-great-conjunction/617407/
Canadian Space Agency on Twitter: "What do you get when you cross two gas giants? A cosmic kiss! Jupiter and Saturn will meet in the southwestern sky after sunset on December 21. The two planets haven’t appeared to be this close since 1623. Photo: Pete Lawrence https://t.co/44qgtTBIIP" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/csa_asc/status/1340733842873856000
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The Jupiter Saturn Great Conjunction of 2020 | CCNY Planetarium
https://ccnyplanetarium.org/posts/2020/12/09/jupiter-saturn-conjunction-2020.html
so that I may unload a dishwasher with dignity.
Sufjan Stevens, "Should Have Known Better" (Official Audio) - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=lJJT00wqlOo
and does eatoats & I'm gonna use up the rest of my herbs to make an infusion and it probably won't be a simple one either 🎶
Intense Time of the Month.
One time this year I think it was better when I stayed away from all wheat/white sugar types of processed things.
Maybe I will try the CBD oil.
Twinges tell me that it's not actually a compliment if you become more important to people when you...
But on the other hand, I hope all the single moms have more time and fun and good babysitters.
"Well, I just hope you realize..."
That's great because they all have more agency than they did in the Renaissance.
I feel like a spirit of healing exists.
It was probably one of the worst true crime stories I ever read. I wondered if I would be up all night.
But now I feel like I have hot chocolate inside of my body.
Thank you for reading my story, the spirit might be saying.
~~~~~~~
only because the healing spirit is being so nice right now...
https://www.cnn.com/2015/09/15/asia/yakuza-yamaguchi-gumi-explainer/index.html
Reading tabloids...read a horrible, horrible story and I might need to wipe my brain before I can sleep or feel at peace in my body again. Maybe a Wonder Woman spirit made me do it. Whew. Literacy. It can burn sometimes.
So I was thinking
https://cxg.fandom.com/wiki/I%27m_So_Good_At_Yoga
When it comes to "crazy" behaviors
Why does it sometimes seem like there's a different standard for dads / grandpas than for daughters/mothers
If a previous incarnation had stretched out longer, some of us would be a lot older.
with her robe and empty stocking
Saturday Night Live - SNL on Twitter: "...and I got a robe https://t.co/JFUTnmHDyT" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/nbcsnl/status/1340535583102431233
on a meditation retreat. That would be so Leonard Cohen.
Attached to the room and don't want to move. Oooh. But the new place. The plans. Oh. Nap. Why did I make the whipped coffee. I let the habits of the young people put me in limbo. How can I rest and pack later when I just put that caffeine and sugar in my system. But it's so light & airy. Oh well. Usually something sorts itself out in the end.
Although I kind of want to just watch the most recent interview in it's entirety...still interesting to watch.
"Tori Amos being extra INFJ for 5 minutes straight"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dXJu0kAQ1Ns
Oh, found it, it's long...like, soooooo long.
It's very simple.
Back to whatever I need to do to balance my off-kilter body today.
U better sleep and drink tea and sleep some more now. It's really apparent this is needed now.
she's so tired she's so not needing excitement she wants sleep and needs to repair her sad exhausted body maybe later will need more entertainment or maybe never that's a possibility too
Floating Features, Cicada, etc.
La Luz Returns with Bewitching New Single “Cicada” – Girl Underground Music
https://girlundergroundmusic.com/2018/02/25/la-luz-returns-with-bewitching-new-single-cicada/
"The Radical Strength And Calm Rage Of Fiona Apple — Vinyl Me, Please"
http://www.vinylmeplease.com/magazine/fiona-apple-liner-notes/
If you saw some younger B. Franklin sort of figure suffering in the mist underneath a bridge is that because he was guilty about a rendezvous with an married woman or sad he said 'bye to the maid who had his child?
Singer of songs at Christmas
Fiona Apple - "Paper Bag" live @ TheToday Show [with lyrics] - YouTube
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3LqKXV1-6R4
plus exuberant video version.
I went to two different stores I don't normally visit, which is my way of having an exciting evening before I retreat to my room as bad the food was good but I have a twinge in a tooth and I hope it doesn't get too exasperating. Or painful. Or need a doctor's immediate attention. So please, take care of this tooth.
"If you seek a pleasant peninsula..."
https://thehill.com/opinion/campaign/530421-what-is-the-matter-with-michigan
Fiona Apple - "Sleep To Dream Live" [1996] - YouTube
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RuiDMQll7gw
Because almost bleeding to death was so far from fun, it's practically indec
Better doctors who have better training and better attitudes and actual compassion . Not being one of those jerks is a karmic gift to self and to the world, too.
But the gynecologist who came with the new insurance just gives you a condescending attitude and asks if you ever heard of ibuprofen.
I know you will send me make me feel more normal tomorrow. And also, soon I probably won't hear so much drag-racing after midnight.
Getting away for a vacation. Or they are working but still having fun.
"The Art Girls Posting The Best Artsta-Gram Stories - TheArtGorgeous"
https://theartgorgeous.com/art-girls-posting-best-artsta-gram-stories/
Ouch.
Again.
https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/fiona-apple-grammys-hypocrisy-dr-luke-kesha-1105653/
Now I just need to find a singer who can rep. for those of us with life-destroying menstrual cramps...
haha
"Animal Confession" - Saturday Night Live
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ptlqXIhkrvM
Some on Earth could refine their curiosity to become less intrusive but more caring through the help of our Lord and Savior and the Mother of God.
The terrible knot of upper left shoulder pain could be dissolving. Thank God. Thank heating pads. Thank a menthol patch. Thank love in the universe. One stays in the room because it feels like there is too much noise and not enough social distancing and a friend has just told us she has the virus and this is getting pretty tiring.
"Fiona Apple 'Criminal' on the Stern Show (1997)"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7caGP0P1_l0
"In Her Own Words: Fiona Apple on New Album 'Fetch the Bolt Cutters' & Acknowledging Indigenous Lands" (in 2020)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7caGP0P1_l0
"Fiona Apple - 'Sleep To Dream' live on Howard Stern Show, May 1997"
Apparently, sleazy Howard can paint a decent picture of a kitten in a shoe and other things.
What can one do in these extraordinary times?
Perhaps it is a good time to pray
& appreciate
https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/47339/upon-julias-clothes
the witchery
https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/47283/the-bad-season-makes-the-poet-sad
of Robert Herrick
The first 7 minutes of what they're doing to those foods could make your skin crawl!!!!
R & J: "What we eat in a day" - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=AZMkv3V2Bus
Eeeeeek...
Boring and overly intense pain in the lower pelvis.
Many months of experience have passed.
Still challenging to be on this planet sometimes.
"Instead of having sons and daughters or a husband, I’ve got my hus-band: Sebastian’s my hus-band because he’s always playing with me no matter who I’m playing with."
~ F. Apple
"Fiona Apple on How She Broke Free and Made the Album of the Year"
https://pitchfork.com/features/cover-story/fiona-apple-interview/
That's a different "hidden" issue that people got tired of getting swept under the carpet.
Maybe the nannies should have MeTooToo.
"In Hollywood, the employ of nannies is a more closely guarded secret than homosexuality or net box office receipts. Even the paparazzi, who normally can be counted on to catch celebrities in their most unguarded moments, seem to be in cahoots with them."
~ K. Blakely
"Hollywood's Dirtiest Little Secret: Nannies"
https://www.forbes.com/2010/08/05/celebrity-babies-nanny-angelina-jolie-julia-roberts-forbes-woman-time-mother.html
Cooking organic Italian sausages for now and later. And also, tomatoes with red wine and garlic and basil. It makes for some really yeasty smells.
Not tokophobia again.
"T. Amos - Do It Again (studio version)"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YQhd9yQt4i0
Because there's already so much else to occupy your thoughts!!!
https://www.glamour.com/story/sheryl-crow-woman-in-the-white-house
"Listen to Britney Spears & the Backstreet Boys New Song 'Matches'"
"Britney Spears Threatens to Stop Performing After Losing Conservatorship Case" | Consequence of Sound
https://consequenceofsound.net/2020/11/britney-spears-conservatorship-never-perform-again/
"Excuse me..."
https://www.newyorker.com/science/maria-konnikova/science-misheard-lyrics-mondegreens
"If you feel so sorry for me, then why..."
https://genius.com/Sheryl-crow-my-favorite-mistake-lyrics
This one is good for being in one's 30s and working in a bar. OR finally quitting that job when the state got snowed in.
"Sheryl Crow - My Favorite Mistake (Official Video)"
for relaxing cranial muscles. I do not want to get a headache.
Or like, where is the chillllll out music. I am going to look for some.
Paragraphs in the dark.
Is this what makes me feel creative.
I guess so.
XXX timepasses
Oh. My. God. I needed periods at the end of the sentences
"amazing and positive vision of the future,"
"Grimes and Janelle Monáe unveil ridiculously epic ‘Venus Fly’ video"
https://www.factmag.com/2017/02/03/watch-grimes-janelle-monae-venus-fly-video/
also, I see fonts
https://www.yahoo.com/lifestyle/90s-kids-rejoice-britney-spears-115410499.html
Or maybe glyphs.
until a noisy freeway is at least a little farther away but at least it can be interesting to learn new things...
"Refraction of Sound Waves & Acoustic Shadows Explained"
http://www.thermaxxjackets.com/sound-wave-refraction-acoustic-shadows/
Doesn't mean everyone has to act like spaceships are more important than dolphins
https://www.reddit.com/r/ksi/comments/kbnsdi/deji_getting_yelled_at_for_customizing_a_penis_on/
"‘Every Little Pine Needle’ | Harvard Divinity Bulletin"
https://bulletin.hds.harvard.edu/every-little-pine-needle/
If you ever thought a tale about giving a car dealership owner some advice to listen a musician you thought was more feminist was turning out disappointingly, you could go read some Luce Irigary and make some more revisions.
Some people are truly saved by good old petulance ;-) and in an alternate reality this episode was discussed with several religious relatives...but it would be much better to watch the episode because the review leaves out a lot.
"'Call the Midwife' Reminds Us What It’s Like When Abortion is Illegal | by Cristina Escobar | LatinaMedia.co | Medium"
https://medium.com/latina-media/call-the-midwife-reminds-us-what-its-like-when-abortion-is-illegal-5a5cb606190c
Red Cloud! And that other character!
"Montana Historical Society Press - Autobiography of Red Cloud: War Leader of the Oglalas"
https://web.archive.org/web/20140328160726/http://mhs.mt.gov/pub/press/redcloudex.asp
Poor Pine Leaf. The culture was still very patriarchal. It would have been so much better if she could have been elaborately demonstrative in a less self destructive way.
It's like you have got a lot of boxes already packed, the insides are filled with brown rectangles and now you remove some and decide which other shapes, like blue bottles, or green glass balls, you would like to pack into the boxes.
create a menstrual metaphor but then this article beckoned:
"Red Cloud’s Prized Katana Sword - True West Magazine"
https://truewestmagazine.com/red-clouds-prized-katana-sword/
why don't you go off the diving board first
then maybe I will try one
which may be why
https://narratively.com/how-the-fiercest-warrior-in-wonder-woman-kicked-her-way-into-hollywood/
a strong interest in soup and hot tea is kicking in right now
What a wonderful way to process (synonym for humiliation but more subtle, like something from the fairies) that was so much to forget. What if the best word isn't even in English?
Be healthy wealthy.
People can add and edit and change what they make and it can become something more.
And sometimes you can see something good in the third or fourth attempts at revisions.
And that's a good thing that can happen here sometimes.
I just know it, because we have this whole pandemic thing happening, and that's just one reason, but I just feel it inside, that I want to make better choices and choose things that are aligned with...soul agreements! That's maybe one way of looking at it?
Sometimes I have had an ego and sometimes I have felt really in love with getting closer to what we need to be accomplishing on the planet. I am sure it can be spread across more than one lifetime, but I am in this one now, and others are in their lifetimes. Maybe we can get closer to accomplishing what we want to accomplish. (Synonym search).
And it can be a journey, too...like when they say getting there is part of the accomplishment. I want to get better at seeing how good that can be, too.
Actually, they sound like they were amazing neighbors.
https://abc30.com/fresno-city-college-professor-student-arrest-held-hostage-attacked/8669650/
Grimes - "Oblivion"
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=JtH68PJIQLE
And I showed it to a student from Peru who reminded me of a friend from grad school who later passed away.
"The MarÃas - Baby One More Time - YouTube"
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=YPHn4xSvjNM
Who hangs out in the countryside driving a white classic car while dressed in all black singing a Britney Spears song? Unique people, that's who.
believe that they are running this article right now.
"Best Christmas Train Rides - Holiday Train Rides Near Me"
https://www.countryliving.com/life/travel/a40582/holiday-train-rides/
from
"Pretty Owl (Lakota) Red Cloud (1835-1940) | WikiTree FREE Family Tree"
https://www.wikitree.com/wiki/Lakota-16
in bold:
" She also an influence on her husband in political matters, Jeffrey Ostler reports that in 1888 Pine Ridge Gallagher, believing that Red Cloud did not want to sign the Sioux bill because Pretty Owl did not want him to. [6]"
are you available?
I am tired of the L. & B. story sometimes.
B., would you like to be a barnacle and attach to him and stab another woman with a tiny red pitchfork if he even looks at them? Does this bizarre imagery help? It's So Weird to be haunted by a story like this! Oh well. Until the next tine...Tine. Ha ha
in the suburbs!
Just now!
Don't hear that around here, ever.
There it went again.
Nature will do that.
Repeating itself!!!
Over & over...
Now it is done and I have heard all the episodes of Season One. Well, what if someone did a "Deportee" cover that made "talking shop" sound like fun. And, plans to move, so not sure if another puzzle will be started before that happens. Has language made life easier yet?
♪ To the tune of "Silver Bells"
It was actually more like 12:30
"Why did we stop making videos on our main channel? | Q&A - YouTube" (R & J's Adventures)
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=b7S_LNi0Xrc
"What does the line 'So long and thanks for all the fish!' mean? - English Language Learners Stack Exchange"
https://ell.stackexchange.com/questions/115782/what-does-the-line-so-long-and-thanks-for-all-the-fish-mean
"Heartbroken Olivia Colman Learns Of Indian Orphan Heritage | Who Do You Think You Are - YouTube"
So far we don't have any power issues.
And, this person looks very happy.
"Hi, I’m Gooch. See that truck and trailer? I drive it to different communities to give books to children in need. Oh and I bring my horse with me. RT so I can get the word out. I’m in N.C. https://t.co/ZMSHB5dzJW" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/zachbraff?prefetchtimestamp=1607466808855
Whereas this one...
"“So long, and thanks for the orifice!” - Alien message decrypted" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/elonmusk/status/1336351038106869760
Fish? Would rather be fishing? Reading?
They might shut off the power. Something about fires. So I am going to do just one Zoom thing today.
Emergency alerts about COVID and curfews in the midst of music videos
What if one person's self-indulgent cupcake could be another person's nourishing hit (hot) cereal.
"Britney Spears: 'Baby One More Time' oral history | EW.com"
https://ew.com/music/2018/10/23/baby-one-more-time-britney-spears-oral-history/
"Tori Amos Gives Britney Spears A Sign - Idolator
https://www.idolator.com/5253772/tori-amos-gives-britney-spears-a-sign
The videos with covers by A. Palmer and Travis (who is he?) still worked.
How about this info coming up
"Cpl. Mitchell Red Cloud Jr."
https://www.army.mil/article/138736/cpl_mitchell_red_cloud_jr_
"End of an era: Camp Red Cloud is finally closing — for real this time - News - Stripes"
after listening to
creativity vs sleep
Someone needs the sleep b/c the world is going to be more noisy pretty soon.
with careful consideration.
"‘The Great British Baking Show’/’Derry Girls’ Crossover was the First and Last Good Thing to Happen in 2020 | Decider"
https://decider.com/2020/12/06/great-british-baking-show-derry-girls-2020-episode/
Looks up the old kitschy music from much younger days for fun when she can't sleep?
"Backstreet Boys - Everybody (Backstreet's Back) (Official Video) - YouTube"
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=6M6samPEMpM
Meeee.
Hmmm, that one had vampires. Don't remember knowing about that when it was always playing on the radio!
This recipe is so different...
http://livingwhilelivingwithout.blogspot.com/2013/05/vegan-deviled-eggs-egg-dairy-soy.html?m=1
I might try it.
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/07-hallelujah
Still haven't finished the puzzle, but better try and sleep because there's going to be landscaping activities and other things.
Some recreational listening...
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/03-the-big-man-cant-shoot
Soccer, basketball...
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/06-my-little-hundred-million
But this was a work thing
"Mr. Happy Man (Kid Friendly) | Global Oneness Project"
https://www.globalonenessproject.org/library/films/mr-happy-man-kid-friendly
I really need water this morning (late night pie, that's the culprit) and I need to explain all the things, why I could not flourish in the system in the way that you flourished, but life is about more than flourishing in one kind of system. I think it's not hard to seethat for some people, and I need to explain why those interferences were a part of my path too.
puzzle progress was made...
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/04-carlos-doesnt-remember
I am grateful!
Fires are far away and the only smoke I smell is the pleasant stuff that comes from other people's chimneys.
You know how it is when in the 21st century women will listen to some of your ideas as long as they come from some other source!?
Why is this still a thing.
I don't know why this one would not leave me alone for DAYS.
https://genius.com/Paula-cole-where-have-all-the-cowboys-gone-lyrics
Maybe this will kick it out.
https://genius.com/Rachel-bloom-santa-ana-winds-1-5-lyrics
But what if it doesn't need to be kicked out, necessarily?
I understand the launches are never going to be enough.
And?
Kate Manne on Twitter: ""In “Mediocre: The Dangerous Legacy of White Male America,” Ijeoma Oluo punches up rather than down, reckoning culturally, politically and historically with white men. These are the people, she writes, who do most of the dirty work and decision-making." https://t.co/NYyFc6GnUJ" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/kate_manne/status/1333967766685175812
And????
Christine Nangle on Twitter: "I work at Four Seasons Total Landscaping in PA https://t.co/cX6bIMkag8" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/nanglish/status/1325242917519233024
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/21-divide-and-conquer
&&&&
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/23-a-polite-word-for-liar-memory-part-1
I tore myself away from obsessing about sinuses to appreciate this:
"Elizabeth Warren on Twitter: "I’ve known @RepKatiePorter since she was a law student in my bankruptcy class 20 years ago. To answer your snotty question, Sec. Mnuchin: not only is Rep. Porter a lawyer, she can run circles around you and any of your legally questionable and morally bankrupt policy failures." / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/SenWarren/status/1334245261363843072
I really want to read more books in print in the future. Phone screen is cracking. Nevertheless...
first
https://www.shondaland.com/inspire/a34703707/just-dont-call-rachel-bloom-normal/
second
https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/news/holy-bejaysus-wild-mountain-thymes-trailer-mocked-mercilessly-in-ireland
third
https://acatabookandacupoftea.wordpress.com/2018/07/03/review-my-ladys-choosing/
I talked to 2 friends from grad school for several hours. Midwestern women in their cold states keeping in touch during these trying times!
sometimes I am here to show you how differently the system treats ppl...are you prepared for this?
And that's just one square on my rubric cube, ha ha ha ha
I love that I can find ways of being better to myself and I can believe in the healing the inner child stuff and my different books and a comforter and an inward 8 year old wants to nap on a fluffy cloud and why not accept sometimes you are not even wanting to be a rational being? That's life on the planet. Heal the headache.
I really need the healing process to unfold.
It is okay. Mistakes happen. Headaches happen.
We have suffered. We have different paths and sometimes they intersect.
We can learn things when we have different experiences. Sometimes it must be nice to learn from people who walked a path more similar to yours, but sometimes it's useful to learn from those who had different life experiences. And if there's overlap, maybe that can be interesting as well.
I think I'll not worry about perfect wording so much.
Some people are very busy raising families during the pandemic, but that's for some reason not how it is at the moment in this household. There are a variety of things to do on this planet, that's one thing...
Save the little communications.
why not work with the universe to be a creator of something...what if it's a decent warm-up for the next life, anyway?
Online.
"Rachel & Jun on Twitter: "Good boy Nagi social distancing https://t.co/Xbn6iUesCw" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/rachelandjun
Again...
"How I Made 10 Vegan Gluten-Free Meals For 2 On $25 — Budget Eats"
https://www.delish.com/cooking/recipe-ideas/a34519995/cheap-vegan-meals/
But
Miss Margo Adler on Twitter: "I made the mistake of reading the comments on this article: https://t.co/FlCj5nVHev" / Twitter
If you want to feel angry just a few paragraphs into a piece...
Opinion | The Children of Pornhub - The New York Times
https://www.nytimes.com/2020/12/04/opinion/sunday/pornhub-rape-trafficking.html#click=https://t.co/FlCj5nVHev
Here's the headache
vegan chocolate pie with berries and wholesome ingredients was not the best breakfast choice
Respect
SOME OF YOU and I want to say more than one or two or three...sometimes, some of you are like the missing pieces in my puzzle, and since death is closer in these pandemic times I want to say you might have more to give and you might even have fun and we're here to grow and make things and sometimes we do it quickly and sometimes slowly so let's keep questioning, and great job, even when you led me astray, sometimes you also got me back on the right track, and I am grateful for more than your minds. By which I mean, there's energy. There's stuff in the universe. I am struggling with words but I am alright with it. Maybe there's a method behind my imperfections, but the attempts to express are what's going to help some of us get to the next fun projects, perhaps!!!
What if your soul is grateful for the learning that comes as a result of those experiences.
Slowness...that's another avenue...sometimes that's more than you knew it could be, too...
We can get in touch with ourselves even when there's tragedy and pain.
Some old teachers I wouldn't mind seeing again someday, and it's not the only time I thought so, only months of isolation have ways of bringing some things into focus. Yay?
I got a roof over my head and we get to work on a puzzle tonight.
Breaking news...the ICUs in CA have gone below 13% so the rules are going to tighten.
It's cold out there now. I saw people who seemed to be without homes when I went to the grocery store last night. The store was not crowded. But if only everyone had a warm place to stay.
We're going to move, but once again, it's crisis time. In March, we delayed til April. Now December...will it happen this month, or will it be in January?
I'm going to take good care of my teeth. My dental insurance should cover stuff again next year.
This is the time to be a survivor.
"With the Pfizer COVID-19 Vaccine, Dry Ice Is Hot - The Atlantic"
https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2020/11/pfizer-covid-vaccine-dry-ice-hot/617233/
creative energy
creative energy
creative energy
creative energy
Wouldn't it be better if we had more of that
Instead of a stupid pandemic
Warmed up the last of the left over mash pot
1/2 can tuna in olive oil
"super" greens
lemon juice
red pepper flakes
"...despite the film’s cautionary nature, you will crave doughnuts. Lots and lots of doughnuts. Although the king has fallen, the kingdom still stands."
~ K. Crust
https://www.latimes.com/entertainment-arts/movies/story/2020-10-29/review-the-donut-king-documentary
Can it change...
"MSNBC on Twitter: ".@ahylton26 reports from rural Kansas, where Covid-19 cases are rising, along with some threats and animosity towards health professionals. “People want to blame something, and they can’t blame a virus that is too small to be seen, so they blame people like me,” one doctor says. https://t.co/SC6KZ2f2QY" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/home
People who like poetry. Sometimes.
"He called three nonprofits specializing in housing for the elderly. All of them said that they had a waiting list of between five and ten years. The news gave him insomnia. In the middle of the night, he wrote:
~ F. Mari and A. Evans
