I like night...and light...and people...

She:  (appearing by a car) You scared me!
Me: I'm sorry...
She: (laughing) No, that's okay...'cause I was focused!
She carried a box with the word PEACE painted on it.
How about that.

Not a panacea for sure...

The ones who might have been different acted out and just wanted everybody to go along with them. Maybe they are more sheltered and don't see the harm. Maybe they say they are too tough to care. Maybe they say, just return a sexist volley with a sexist volley. Maybe tbey are in denial about the sexism or how they enable sexism.
Maybe they say this is what the real world is like. Maybe they have lower standards. Why couldn't you just go along with their behavior? Because. Because. Because. It degraded the quality of the experience and turned it into one in which some people are treated as less than. It was a bad feeling. Worse things were around the corner. Worse things happened, too. Sometimes the consequence is painful isolation, and maybe the thoughtless ones just get a little slap on the wrist. They were capable of being better and they weren't all bad, but they were thoughtless and tolerant of poor behavior. Sometimes it seems like the whole country became like that when the current president was elected.

Oh Pocahontas

From Lauire Gwen Shapiro:

"At first sight of the bride, the smartphones came out. Wendy Taylor, with her rich brown hair glimmering in the sun and a smashing Disney hourglass figure, was undeniably the embodiment of all little-girl and grown-man fantasies of Pocahontas. The Pocahontas fangirls around me gasped and grabbed their parents’ hands to steady themselves at her arrival.

I was secretly ashamed that I shared their excitement.

Yet Pocahontas had but one line: 'I will.'

Couldn’t the writing staff have added to this? Maybe they were purists."

www.slate.com/articles/health_and_science/science/2014/06/pocahontas_wedding_re_enactment_john_rolfe_john_smith_and_native_americans.html

Blueberry art

Sunday is for long, long ago ancestors, so it's good for revisiting a little info on the historical status of Cherokee women... My spirit needs something. Why not search for blueberry art? Blueberry art.

Okay body and stuff

Temperature time... My body says sexy is part of nature's cycle and sexy can be healing and sexy is not what the problem really is. For instance maybe a man can be a healer and have multiple girlfriends if he really is wise and truly respectful of all of them. But such a man is also a threat to society because he'd listen to those women more than he would listen to adherents of an old fashioned patriarchal system which wants him to acquire a wife like a piece of property and run the household under his last name. The health challenges I have are showing me that I need to listen to this body. I need a higher healing power from the universe for both the physical symptoms I experience and for the feelings. It's a challenge when I see how people who squelch their feminine sides treat women, so what is to be done? The intellect is limited when it comes to healing trauma and there is no message in any financial guru's book about how to recover from rape culture. If I can't get this knowledge from a book, then I want to become a better listener, especially to my body and to my inner healer. I have to believe in an inner healer and I have to believe there are benevolent energies in the universe...

Shift

Breathe in your inner healer ~ Be relaxed ~ Breathe ~ Continue to organize (when not in bed trying to fall asleep) but also be more relaxed ~ BREATHE ~ Good~~~~ go to sleep...

Silliness

Handshake & hovering spouses

I guess one of them was enjoying himself!

This is worth seeing!!!

Jennifer Lee ~ Feminist: Stories from Women's Liberation

Hmmm, Kill Bill? (Again?) Interesting...
http://www.feministstories.com/about-jennifer-lee/

The swimming pool

was a very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very nice place to be today!!!!

Someday 2018 will come...

So many can do better than this "long exercise in desensitization..."

~ Anthony Scaramucci’s vulgar New Yorker interview is beyond words
By Aaron Blake

Looong...

https://www.reddit.com/r/politics/comments/6q57ux/mark_this_date_donald_trump_is_now_a_lameduck/

How the West...

~ern senators....

www.washingtonpost.com/politics/murkowski-not-swayed-by-intense-pressure-from-trump-administration-on-health-care/2017/07/28/eb6c9d16-73d8-11e7-8839-ec48ec4cae25_story.html

In a place

I have paid money to healers and actually cried like a child for a mother and asked the universe to please heal my grief. Sexism that was perhaps unintentional but is still infecting work and school environments is not only infuriating, it is actually heartbreaking. Was it just bad communication? Didn't that woman know better? Why didn't that man know better? Were they raised to be so blind?

You're not made of stone. This type of subtle yet devastating discrimination hurts beyond words. If the hurt hasn't gone away, you have to acknowledge how it felt and feels, to honor the wounds and the disappointment of betrayal. You have to forgive yourself for allowing your heart to get broken. You will get your faith back in people and remind yourself of the ones you met who gave you hope.

~ also ~

Mazie Hirono

www.glamour.com/story/mazie-hirono-health-care-speech

Be better, you can do it

My right side ovary (?) is still being kinda mean, even after a nap, so off I go to swallow ibuprofen and hopefully go on an errand if it feels better.

Yes

Cleaning inspiration hit.  After about an hour and a half of particularly grimy scrubbing in the kitchen, felt unwell, but it's only a sign of needing to listen to the body. Stopped and washed feet and the rest. Kept feeling attracted to blue / gray  images of water and clouds. And then, found this!

www.spin.com/2017/07/tori-amos-cloud-riders-stream/

A Shell!

Mr. Rogers on the Rosie O'Donnell Show in the '90s

Reading about moments recorded....

www.pbs.org/newshour/amp/updates/inside-dramatic-90-minutes-recent-senate-history

Hmmm.

www.slate.com/blogs/the_slatest/2017/07/28/mccain_got_the_credit_but_murkowski_and_collins_did_more_to_defeat_trumpcare.html

History.

www.theatlantic.com/politics/archive/2017/07/john-mccain-please-think-about-clair-engle/534768/

How far does it have to go

www.adn.com/politics/2017/07/26/trump-administration-signals-that-murkowskis-health-care-vote-could-have-energy-repercussions-for-alaska/

Bully, abuser, blackmailer.

Spark pairings

One time "Spark" and "Sailing" made sense...

(I got insecure about whatever is happening on the side with the right ovary so I want it to be nice to me)

Another time it was "Spark" and Something the Lord Made...

Happier butterfly thoughts

Go back here when it is cold:

www.monarchbutterfly.org/butterfly-grove/

Or to any of the other places listed!!!

Verdict

He is a BIGOT.

http://thehill.com/homenews/administration/343847-trump-calls-for-ban-on-transgender-individuals-in-military?amp

Horrible.

"We're so lucky we can be proud of our son or daughter serving in military because by god there's no transgender people in our family! Nosireee..." Ugh. Awful.

Wanted some better news

Here it is:

https://www.positive.news/2017/perspective/28307/the-gardener-redefining-what-it-is-to-be-gangsta/

Sleepy

time

Yea

A little girl and her mom stay up to watch television and drink celestial seasonings orange herbal tea.

Listen~

If your father or mother or grandparents taught you to be sexist, you don't need to be like that anymore.

Be blessed and healed

Healthy bodies and backs for humans and cats...cry to a river...get healed...love the universe...

It worries not

Really.

Today's that day

I am just a human.
With a back injury.
Not gonna fix it all right now.
But gonna clean the house soon.

Ok, I'll listen better

I strained my back in yoga and now the cat is sick. Poor cat. I would rather be at home in my too messy apartment resting my back or cleaning than be tortured by my back pain in yoga class and then watch two dudes talking about themselves afterwards. Wow, it is really time for a change.

But it can be a great Caturday

Yes....

http://i.stuff.co.nz/life-style/four-legs-good/94949388/furry-friday-cats-that-love-to-perch-and-peer

In other words

If I am ever reincarnated, I do not want to be like them. Hope you and your friends are as ethical as you seem to think they are because based on what I experienced, I really do not have the same impression of them that you have.

The earnest dreaming mind

The dream was like a musical, in which the character who releases his bitterness is most free and frees others.

Another dream surprise:

A younger woman in a window called out to me and told me I looked like a character in a show. Who? She couldn't say, but on her TV she showed me a clip of woman who looked like a 40 or 50ish version of Katherine Hepburn having a conversation with a younger woman.

Just dance

I like this so much sometimes:

http://pitchfork.com/features/directors-cut/8783-grimes-oblivion/

Maybe I will start this

TONIGHT

https://www.theguardian.com/tv-and-radio/2017/may/18/the-keepers-netflix-nun-murder-baltimore-true-crime-documentary

Today's accomplishments

I cleaned up after the cat and finished a rough draft.

AND ALSO WENT SWIMMING

piiinknesss

Sticky Bun - SNL

justlettheweekgo

I hope the sensitivity training is rigourous and enlightening.

On the way to B.J.'s

Where haven't we been yet?


Olive Garden - SNL

"Noooo" ~ MM

Women's Group- Saturday Night Live

Well, I have to stay in and write

Or maybe not.

Maybe just take a few swigs of the less than stellar wine...
(nooo, cheap / arsenic, nooo...)

"At last, some healing for the victims' families will be possible."
http://www.theonion.com/americanvoices/quentin-tarantino-making-film-about-manson-murders-56411

"Could your baby be crying for a better mommy?"
http://www.theonion.com/features/sunday-magazine

Dance happy

http://www.womenshealthmag.com/life/viral-ballet-video-lizzy-howell


Jumping into the Pool

Get happy...

Andy Murray Hit Back at a Reporter’s Casual Sexism and His Mum Couldn’t Be More Proud  by Nidhi Kinhal

Oops, I fell asleep

instead of watching The Big Short and there's too many alarming news stories / reminders of the ways that tolerance of sexism ruins things HOWEVER yesterday a woman at the pool yelled "YOU GO GIRL!" at me as I finished swimming laps and sometimes its best to remember to focus on the positive...

Why still up

Oh just $ & sexism again

https://noisey.vice.com/en_us/article/mbaa4q/war-on-women-on-the-dickies-warped-tour-rant?utm_source=noiseyfbgus

You will watch this

"It was definitely the most uncomfortable I’ve been in my film-making career.” -- Ryan White

https://www.theguardian.com/tv-and-radio/2017/jul/15/keepers-church-response-netflix-baltimore-abuse

Maybe not today or tomorrow, but soon...

...and for the rest of your over (or is it really under??) privileged, sexist life...

Hello again

music

http://www.audiofemme.com/interview-tunde-olaniran/

I should go to the

Hollywood Forever Cemetery

http://pitchfork.com/news/73055-sufjan-stevens-the-nationals-bryce-dessner-nico-muhly-announce-planetarium-tour/

Musical reminder:

Sufjan Stevens, Bryce Dessner, Nico Muhly: NPR Music Field Recordings

AND....

Sufjan's
Drawn to the Blood...
again

Y esta tambien

All of Me.... (Sufjan Stevens)

I am repetitive

https://www.americamagazine.org/arts-culture/2017/06/28/what-theologians-and-environmentalists-can-learn-sufjan-stevens

I feel like saying this is genius again

Should have known better... (Sufjan Stevens)

Swimming thoughts

The pool should have an Iron Man lane. Yesterday I shared a lap lane with an intense swimmer and then he was chatting with another guy about Iron Man...do not compare yourself to an Iron Man...that is futile...also the pool chemicals were making me stuffy...so some remedies are nose plugs and Vaseline, but then elsewhere they said Aquaphor...are there any salt water pools nearby...

Lower minds adulting

What was I looking for before I found this...
It's dumb. But it's funny? Like this part:

"As I babbled about the trend to my nail artist, the man receiving a manicure to my left butted into the conversation. 'It’s not lumbersexual anymore,' he said with a twang. 'I’m metrosexual, and we now call them ‘fauxjacks.’ I can’t believe it’s even still a thing. They’re just fake lumberjacks.' This revelation surprised me. How could he reject one of his own?"

https://lasvegasweekly.com/news/2016/feb/11/lumbersexual-healing-instagram-creature-love-sex/

I am sorry it's hard to be a man.

Let's get manicured, HA HA!

Even more specifically

I spontaneously want to be who I was when I was a kid and visited a babysitter' s house. She taught me to swim and near the pool were some big trees and a garden. There was also a chipmunk to quietly coax out to feed.

Hello again, that version of me.
WELCOME BACK!!!!

A little forgiveness

Release the old and breathe in the new.
That's what we need more of sometimes.
In this life and this body and this experience, there was pain and suffering but it can still get better again.

Ima try~~~

All 7 Chakras Healing Meditation Music

& OM

Hi again

Little Earthquakes ~ Venus Live
Because of brothers and sisters
Heartbreak Hotel
Almost

This is a day

http://www.popularmechanics.com/home/tools/a27303/national-tape-measure-day/

Mountains!

When you get back from a yoga class and look at the mountains as if you're really seeing them for the first time and you feel like "they love us!" then you know it was good. Also, if tears came out while you were doing meditation.

Open something to healing

A throat, a throat. Even if I think you should have opened something instead off closing off, you had the potential to be better, why did you choose to do that... I can imagine a wise grandmother singing a lullaby...

We need peace healing stuff

THIS SEEMS LIKE THE BEST WAY TO PUT IT. We need peace healing stuff. I woke up with a sore throat and thirsty. I, in this body, need... PEACE HEALING STUFF.

Vamos a la playa

Morcheeba ~ The Sea (acoustic)

This thing that people say....

And it could be a man or a woman saying it.

‘Is There a Man I Can Talk To?’: Stories of Sexism in the Workplace 

“If anyone wants to proclaim that this type of behavior does not exist, I have my life, lived in two genders, to refute this.”

 — Christienne Frank

1926 and "the life of the bee"

"In a 1926 interview with Collier’s magazine reproduced by Twenty-First Century Books — titled, amazingly, 'When Woman Is Boss' — Tesla basically predicted the smartphone."

~ Nikola Tesla Predicted Smartphones In 1926 By Damon Beres

(The end of that 1926 interview gets scary)

Now that is interesting

I have a destination in mind. 

Haven't I driven by this diner about a zillion times...

http://www.iamnotastalker.com/2012/11/07/rods-grill-from-mad-men/

I had no idea I was so close to the place where the orange sherbet scene was filmed.

Pretty nice Saturday

Wild foods talk given by this guy.

I think I might have swum 1 1/4 mile on this super hot day.

It's nice to get back to more regular  exercise that also is calming. It makes me feel like a better person on multiple levels. Not as mad about stuff, too.

Onward...

I KNOW I can work with and have fun with really helpful men and women who listen to me and take my viewpoint into consideration because I found them. I had that experience, and it was great, even as I got pushed out of another environment where I had thought it could be otherwise.

I really don't think that a system of men being in charge and only rewarding certain women who tolerate or go along with some (not all) people's unhealthy immaturity and sexism is "empowering women" because it is rewarding those who act like they don't care about how other women are treated or if other women are excluded, just so long as they get personal benefit.

But as a result of being in the place where I felt more depreciated by some than I had expected to feel, I also met a nice energetic girl who encouraged me, invited me to yoga, and talked with me about cool stuff we're both interested in. She didn't make me feel sad by ignoring what I have to say or choosing a boys club over me. That was a better experience for me.

My realization

I want a brother so we can crash the cigar smoking room of men champing on fat stogies in front of the big flat screen TV.

Candidates on funny twitter.

Plan

Learn to play an instrument so you can busk next to a cannister with a sign that says " My Retirement  Nest Egg."

More CHI-aligning

Yoga, walk to street fair, violinist street musician, juice and fruit cup samples....

Freshly juiced kiwi is a very tart juice!

Ice cream donuts???

They never stop making weird new desserts.

http://www.abcactionnews.com/simplemost/ice-cream-stuffed-donut-ultimate-summer-treat

He can say he's in an interesting place

Also, this story has a provocative photo of women (and men?) dressed as "handmaids" outside his office...

http://www.npr.org/2017/07/07/535962077/nevada-voters-divided-over-health-care-put-moderate-republican-in-tough-spot

Maybe drink less

From "Giving up alcohol opened my eyes..." by Kristi Coulter:

"Of course they do, I think but don’t say. It’s called camouflage."

~ https://qz.com/762868/giving-up-alcohol-opened-my-eyes-to-the-infuriating-truth-about-why-women-drink/

glowshow

GLOW trailer
&
https://qz.com/1015778/the-true-story-behind-netflixs-superb-glow-is-just-as-wild-as-the-show/ 
&
http://www.indystar.com/story/entertainment/2017/07/03/netflix-glow-has-indianapolis-roots/412011001/

Man switches e-mail with woman...

And suddenly...

https://www.attn.com/stories/15518/creative-sexism-experiment-female-co-worker

A certain culture...

https://medium.com/@nickyknacks/working-while-female-59a5de3ad266

Emerges...

http://hellogiggles.com/male-female-coworker-switched-emails-two-weeks-learned-pretty-depressing-truths-sexism-work/

More beneficial...

Healing for your physical form...
An energy called reiki?

Time and distance

Waking up after you swam a half mile the night before is different from waking up after swimming a full mile but it's good.

I was thinking about a dude who really wanted to get off work. I am not unsympathetic to this. It came down to me and one other guy in the pool. The guy got out.

The dude started ordering a girl around about trying to close down early. There were five minutes left. I got out. The girl was chill. He was not chill. He was pressure-y. He wasn't doing that to other dudes. I said goodnight to him and he was surprised. He left the parking lot before I did. I suppose the girl was still back there.

Next time I think I will stay my full five minutes, dude.

I know...

In my next life, if I am a guy, I wanna be a feminist guy.

Also in this life it's nice to be around people who...

o, yah

Darkest Hour
"it looks like you're serenading the cat with..."
Daisy Dead Petals
Native Invader
Home on the Range

piannissississimooooo

quiet  

SUGAR  

HURT / CAUGHT A LITE SNEEZE

Because I searched "sexism is a spiritual wound"

"So here I am in an airport gate lounge reading Daisy Cousens telling me the time for feminist rage is over, while all my sisters in ministry are tweeting a volcanic flow of disparagements and put-downs."

~ http://mikefrost.net/thingsonlychristianwomenhear-shows-sexism-not-hermeneutics/

A store and more

Friends are traveling and I wonder if I could revisit this place sometime...

www.seahagsoaps.com

Hmmm...they recommend a movie...

EMBRACE

Temperatures...

I think I need a swim. I have been taking temperatures...aren't all of mine rather low? Then we see stuff about metabolism and thyroid and low temperatures...more reason to see an endocrinologist, in addition to PCOS? And it's an awful thing to have to tell some people that you think they were not trustworthy and their behavior is discriminatory and not healthy....So I need a swim....

Buzz

https://www.reddit.com/r/pics/comments/6l89rt/buzz_aldrin_on_his_favorite_day_of_the_year/

For future reference

http://winejudging.com/medal-winners/
all price ranges 
http://winejudging.com/medal-winners/2016-medal-winners/2016-boc/

Holiday fruit item (what you will be bringing)

The "red blend" you tried a few weeks ago is not carried by any local stores.
The big watermelons are.

For a girl diving in on the side in a good way

"Hang ten honey"

 ~ http://www.yessaid.com/lyrics/1999tovenusandback/thewaitress.html

"Ballerinas that have fins that you'll never find"

~ http://www.yessaid.com/lyrics/1998fromthechoirgirlhotel/01spark.html

~~~~~

We can also use the pool to practice little ballet movements and chat with nice people in locker rooms. Everybody loves the pool...

http://www.yessaid.com/lyrics/1992littleearthquakes/thepool.html

Short films/sentiments (and songs)

Poignant...
The Stutterer

Preposterous...
Here Boy

~~~

Oh

Little Earthquakes ~ Venus Live: Still Orbiting

to play

The Waitress ~ Venus Live : Still Orbiting

Happy Holiday morning

I swam over a mile yesterday evening and it still feels good!

Well maybe

Maybe I'll go back up to Washington State soon.
It's weird to have a place be such a formative part of your life and then not set foot in it for decades.
DECADES.
Unreal.

All the scenes in pools

Well, it's something to think about.
IN the meantime here's a Rami Maleck movie trailer!
Buster's Mal Heart

Ode to night lifeguards

Thank yooooooou
Splash

Half & Half

Policy of Truth  

(external radio)

& 

Luna Lovers 

(internal radio)

Beautiful night swim under the moon

In silky lovely water

And the lights in the pool

And the moon and the mountains