a "great male skirt rebellion!"

https://www.nytimes.com/2017/06/26/fashion/men-skirts-shorts-dress-code.html

Is it really

How can this movie be so old already.
~~~

 Oh...double feature....
~~~~

https://www.theguardian.com/film/2016/oct/11/christopher-guest-on-life-as-a-baron-and-how-wife-jamie-lee-curtis-picked-him-out-of-a-magazine

What if...good night.

What if you found people who annoyed and disappointed but it was only because there was something in the universe pushing you to think, maybe we were almost like brothers in another life. And what if you wanted them to push the boundaries of their world. They're already good enough for their world. What if you wanted them to be ahead of their time.
It's kinda weird...

When you're happy and you know it

You get to be around the people that are respectful of you and are open to you. It's really nice. Geez, after hanging around these people it feels like you just emerged from a mineral bath of support!

GOOD STUFF
GOOD STUFF
GOOD STUFF

Hum...
Hum...
Hum...

Happy Night :-)

Who does this

From Kiera Butler: "But it is shit like this—behavior and comments that just barely stay on the right side of the harassment line—that we let slide. And that makes the people who do this kind of thing believe that they can get away with it."

~ http://www.motherjones.com/politics/2014/04/open-letter-my-sexist-dentist/

Things that make me want to go to the woods

A distant but beautiful relative suffered a sudden loss...and she loves to feed a chipmunk...

A nice young man stood with a wounded bird that has also tried to nestle under my briefcase and said he would wait for help...

Healing is best.

This body needs healing vibes...Om.

Solar power is complicated

California invested heavily in solar power. Now there's so much that other states are sometimes paid to take it By IVAN PENN

Now I know about

"Senator Dean Heller of Nevada, a Republican facing reelection next year, stated, 'I cannot support a piece of legislation that takes insurance away from tens of millions of Americans and tens of thousands of Nevadans.'”

 ~ http://www.cosmopolitan.com/politics/a10209656/senate-health-care-bill-bcra-heartless-republicans/

AND ALSO

Stephanie Woodward because of Taking on the Frat Boys

Another nature-y/show discovery

Jarbidge wilderness?

http://www.littonweekendadventure.com/rock-the-park/

Only saw part of it, but I guess it was a good one.

http://www.atlasobscura.com/places/jarbidge-wilderness

Time to go to Nevada...

DD in the shower...

Come Undone
A Come Undone video
Another Come Undone video
Sometimes I think those storylines are more interesting if you think in terms of the masculine and feminine sides of a person, or of a society.

New-to-me Irish music

Saint Sister ~ Blood Moon

https://www.irishtimes.com/culture/music/irish-female-musicians-strike-a-note-for-equality-1.2560209?mode=amp

Loah ~ The Bailey

https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/bailey

Waiting...

I have to stay up and wait to finish a show.

In the meantime, this is interesting:

oh Lorde, deliver me from Fucking Joan (a blog).

But what about Lisa Hannigan?

Possibilities

Curious about this one.
http://thenewbev.com/blog/2017/06/smile/
Maybe?

And this sounds interesting, but it's very late, so probably not...
http://thenewbev.com/program/june-24-barbarella-midnight-show/

However, it reminds me...
Duran Duran ~ Electric Barbarella

That video is so much like being a young girl with an older friend who made you jump off a balcony (the bully) and educated you with her love of  Michael Jackson and Duran Duran and stole money out of cars and had scary abusive uncles and a mom with clothes strewn all over a waterbed but still don't all little kids love swimming and McDonalds happy meals?

Save A Prayer is more appropriate to the time period. (These are the boys you dreamed of, third grader.)

That first grader was too young for that third grader.
That third grader was too young to be smoking and acting like a teenager.

Summer's good

I am not an arm ornament. I...am...a...human being.

Just in case I get too pleased about swimming and healthier eating habits, I would go here and buy the cheap concessions sometime.

http://www.latimes.com/entertainment/movies/la-ca-mn-moviegoing-new-beverly-quentin-tarantino-movie-theater-20170602-story.html

*****

Hmmm~missing out now, maybe?

http://thenewbev.com/program/june-21-22-no-small-affair-dandy-the-all-american-girl/

~~~~~

"Brenda J. Perla brought a fierce amount of hard-earned experience to her screenplay about a car thief: she had served two years in L.A.’s infamous Sybil Brand Institute for that crime. During her sentence and after her release, she taught herself writing. 'I had read a lot. It was all I had to do in jail.'"

~ http://thenewbev.com/blog/2017/06/no-small-affair-dandy-the-all-american-girl/

SWIMSUITS thought

SWIMSUITS thought: whoever decided to send them some is smart.
www.instagram.com/willitlookgoodonmetho/

Good places

Away, away...

Some places are like being around people who drink too much and their unhealthy behaviors feel really bad to you.

Two environments

I feel like I have been in two environments. One was a more imbalanced,  corrupt environment and the other was a more balanced one.

In the more balanced one, there was a difference because people were fair and they had a sense of ethics. Both men and women in this environment treated me really well.

The one that felt imbalanced was more like a boys club where some women might succeed...women who put the boys club culture first and don't want to critique it or rock the boat can do better there.

Why does an environment that is not so bad for them feel so awful to me?

It could be like

A blow.

Some guys have more anger than you thought they had. Nice guys turning mean when they get in packs. Or even in pairs. What reason do they have? So nice? Not really. "Who taught you to..." be like that???

Always makes me think of a guy whose dad was mean. Mean to his mom. Mean to his son. Mean.

Maybe, maybe

Some people have a kind of amnesia.

Why, why

Tell me that it's human nature... (M. J.)
That "I wish some things had gone better" feeling.
The cat licks the hand that types the keys.

Humanity and swimming pools

I felt bad for my neighbor's kid. The guy told a small pool full of people his son is not good at swimming, then told his kid to put on his floaties, but the kid hung back and didn't want to go in.

Yesterday when I went to "lapswim" a kind of shy older guy who hadn't been there before accidentally bumped into a serious and fit older guy who was mad. The shy guy apologized and the fit guy didn't seem to care. A woman offered to trade places and they made nice conversation, but shortly thereafter the shy guy left. For some reason, a couple of times I felt like I almost bumped into the fit older guy (who seemed like a jerk) too, even though I had my own lane. (He got there before me, so I don't know why he didn't claim the lane. Oh wait. Maybe it was because he didn't want to share a lane. )

An older woman seemed hesitant as she stood by the lanes. I was swimming towards her and needed to get out to fix my suit. I asked, "Do you want to share a lane?" She was very nice. I didn't realize that she would, but she helped me fix the bathing suit strap. She swam for a while and waved at me when she left and then I enjoyed a lane to myself for two more laps before it was time to go. I loved that swim.

Nature on the list~

To discover (if it is possible?) ~
http://www.laweekly.com/best-of/2016/sports-and-recreation/best-secret-garden-7434804

To revisit ~
http://www.laweekly.com/best-of/2015/sports-and-recreation/best-public-garden-6044450

Goodbye to one of the five

Apparently this problem was fixed, but it was still too noisy and pressure-y.
I kept feeling irritated when I used it, so I deleted it.
However, this woman loved it.
Different strokes...

Last one for now

https://www.engadget.com/2017/06/21/uber-future-travis-kalanick-resignation/

Sometimes the "I can't believe that even though we've come so far still this B.S. happens" is a thing to think about, but sometimes you have to move on because while you are letting the sexism make you miserable they are off being happily clueless...quite happily clueless, in fact.

THEM: Aren't we great, just wonderful. No problems here! What, us worry?

It's notthesame It's notthesame It's different It's nothesame of course not. 

ELSEWHERE:  Do you think they're going to change? They are not going to change! Do you think you're the only women who has ever had to go through this crap? Do you know what I went through? Do you really want to be around these people? You need to focus on what you want to do...

This was not the most fun discussion, but there was a point.

This sounds good

http://time.com/4822302/yoga-meditation-genes-stress/

To read with coffee in an airport

Another life

http://www.latimes.com/business/technology/la-fi-tn-uber-travis-kalanick-resignation-20170620-story.html

Why do they happen?

Cultural

http://www.marketwatch.com/story/uber-report-only-addresses-symptoms-of-a-rampant-silicon-valley-disease-2017-06-13

Changes

http://www.bbc.com/news/technology-40352868

Wonder if I should buy a coffee maker

Coffee keeps looking better.

Uh oh

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-3646349/Most-fertility-apps-WRONG-Women-using-pregnancy-tools-given-bad-advice-best-time-conceive.html

A show...

"Mexican Jesus. Surprised they didn't have the Virgin Mary." Small offhand comment overheard.

Story sharing

How can we share our stories if you're always expecting me to tell you how great you are?

Popping ginger tablets

My body gave me headache and nausea but I am out and surviving. I learned about Celtx and Final Draft. I downloaded 5 fertility apps for health reasons. I can't wait to go to bed. But I am glad to be here. I just wish my body felt better. It was wonderful after the swim.

O I found this...

I wanted to see it again.



Grimes ~ Dream Fortress (video by Anastasia Shulepova)

I love swimming

I LOVE IT

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Lit flowers and fruit

Light flowers and fruit

Figs and roses

She looks up...

Roses & figs...

Lessons

Staying away from some people who are irresponsible and dont want to change is better, especially when you found another group that made you feel happy and respected.

You don't need to be around people who:

Apply arbitrary superficial standards to judge people.

Mock infertility / health problems in men or women for any reason.

"Protect" themselves by being cold, cruel, flaky, or fake-nice.

Do not care how many unhealthy chemicals they use so long as they fill their bank accounts.

Sign of

IMBALANCE: you wake up feeling sick and wanting to cry because you know you spent a lot of time (and money) in a certain field but even though you excelled at making good marks the culture was too biased against your type of person to be a good place for you.

Father/Felines/Funny

https://www.reddit.com/r/funny/comments/6i07om/happy_fathers_day/

&&&&

https://www.reddit.com/r/funny/comments/6i9y86/okay_ill_move_it/

What do you do...

Do you want to continue to try to talk about it? I can't shake the feeling that there is bias and discriminatory practices that are still harming some people. Most don't seem to want to talk about it, but some do. I have been encouraged by some to try to keep this conversation going...

Night is nicer...

I can't believe I spent the day off suffering from immense back ache and something that seemed suspiciously like a "hot flash" but now I guess there is a late night TV indulgence ahead of me.

I will not preview the episodes.

I might look for a  restaurant called Side Chick.

REALLY

https://la.eater.com/2016/12/6/13848624/side-chick-johnny-lee-hainan-chicken-los-angeles

Do you live in that culture

Stranger

where you're not allowed to be sad
since you're a man
and you just get mean?

Hmmm, some history stuff

http://www.mtv.com/news/3019514/in-her-shoes-finding-feminism-cynicism-and-geena-davis-at-a-walmart-soda-counter-in-arkansas/

&&&

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lois_Weber

Sometimes I am amazed

How many different times I have heard the story of "Let's give money to the son but not so much to the daughter." And "Your brother needs it but you don't."

Behestish

May your brother run into more women who don't put up with his bullshit.

For the next life

He can pray to have a nice body that doesn't give monstrous painful cramps and she can pray not to become a self-entitled misogynist just because the culture encourages or lets it be so.

Heal the back

Heal the back
Heal the back
Heal the back
Heal the back
I see green
I see light
I see life
I see sky
Maybe my back hurts because of all the women in offices putting up with crap to bring home a paycheck
All the single moms
Not just the thin ones you like the best
ALL the single moms
The ones you ignore
The ones you push away
The ones you make invisible
The ones that talk
And the ones that don't.

This looks more fun tho

https://www.instagram.com/willitlookgoodonmetho/

LOL!!!

https://www.instagram.com/p/BR9E0h0gKV2/?taken-by=willitlookgoodonmetho

Is not okay

"When Trump took his oath of office, it was the American Dream made manifest..."

~ http://www.refinery29.com/2017/06/156668/trump-female-standard-of-beauty-diversity-issue

"Blond women weren’t judged nearly as harshly for using this dominant tone—even when it was just a photo of the same woman with different color hair."

~ http://www.avclub.com/article/read-female-leaders-are-disproportionately-blond-241856

IS NOT OKAY 

"While only 2 percent of the world’s population and 5 percent of white people in the U.S. have blond hair, '35 percent of female U.S. senators and 48 percent of female CEOs at S&P 500 companies are blond.' Some of this is because white people take up a disproportionate amount of space in the highest ranks of business and politics, and white people are more likely to be blond. But even taking that into consideration, there’s something else at work. After all, blond men make up 'just over 2 percent of male Fortune 500 CEOs,' close to the national average, even though white men are very overrepresented in leadership positions."

~ http://www.avclub.com/article/read-female-leaders-are-disproportionately-blond-241856

Warmth?

My temperature is normal. My face and arms are covered with hot prickly feelings. I stayed in. The back ache. I have the heating pad but it's not on since I got that feeling. IT FEELS SO WEIRD.

Amazing

Emel Mathlouthi - Stranger

Good print

"We are all Wonder Woman" http://sarahsatrun.blogspot.com/2013/04/we-are-all-wonder-women.html?m=1

Herbs are available

I am happy I can use them. I am happy there are people who want to share their healing knowledge about herbs. I am happy I can access information about how to use the herbs. Sometimes I am still sad about communication problems with other people who I thought would have been more open to a variety of of ideas. That which other people have mocked or belittled is what I suffer from and need to treat. Treatments that others make fun of seem to help me. What do you do when this happens....

Cool & thrifty

I had such a great experience donating and shopping this week...and when I looked up the organization's statement on their values, I liked it even more:

https://www.savers.com/careers/our-culture

Silly a.m. convo

XY:  What are you doing up? It's too early to be up.

XX:  Actually I am really happy now because I am not in pain. Earlier I was up and in pain.

XY:  I see. No pain, no gain.

I just like to see

The positive change.
Bless twitter for showing me:

Jeff Stanley, MD @JeffStanleyMD:

"'Hunger' by @rgay should be required reading in medical school. A powerful glimpse into the struggles of those dealing w trauma and weight."

And of course bless the writers. It is not easy to articulate difficult topics so well. As much as it had made me frustrated and low to feel like so many are so needlessly uncaring about important issues, it also makes me happy to know there are good people who care enough to also want to see change happen.

Up and not in pain, but aware....

Pain is something that pushed me in a certain direction.

Up with the pain...again

I love it when pain gets better
I love it when pain gets better
I love it when pain gets better
Come on....(heating pad, ginger, BODY)
Show me some love

I saw this

Dental demo

I have a weird way of amusing myself sometimes

"But ah buhleeve in sharin' mah feelin's..."
~  Southern Accent Voice Over

Doing dishes on a Friday night.

Fun Tour of American Accents

Some people ask this question

Do you want to change things

https://genius.com/Hurray-for-the-riff-raff-palante-lyrics

Do you want to change

http://ladygunn.com/music/ladygunn-ss17-preview-alynda-segarra

Oh wow

First Native American woman doctor:

http://www.smithsonianmag.com/history/incredible-legacy-susan-la-flesche-first-native-american-earn-medical-degree-180962332/

Thanks, Google doodle.

https://www.google.com/doodles/susan-la-flesche-picottes-152nd-birthday

Now I remember it can be a summer of healing...

I am grateful I feel this way.
I know everyone has a different path.
Mine is a certain way because of my body and experiences.
I am about healing internal things.

Swimming is lovely and also

this is

https://www.reddit.com/r/mildlyinteresting/comments/6hohr6/the_whirlpool_in_this_stream_collected_foam_and/

Avocado plus

"Two anthropomorphic avocado halves are in a fight."

https://beta.theglobeandmail.com/arts/books-and-media/book-reviews/review-roxane-gays-hunger-is-a-profoundly-honest-account-of-what-its-like-to-be-a-woman-of-size/article35325873/

Plus

http://news.nationalpost.com/entertainment/books/book-reviews/in-her-searing-new-memoir-hunger-roxane-gay-asks-when-as-a-society-will-we-see-the-fat-body-as-a-valued-body

$olutions

* Have time to go swimming and will do...

* Will also use the hot showers in the locker room...

Good to listen to for now

Radio shows make life better
http://snapjudgment.org/patient

"raising daughters to be riot girls" yay!!!!

Huh!

United States Navy Band ~ Bring Me Little Water, Sylvie

Good hot water...

Short story

Illustrative of some peoples' values...

http://www.flashfictiononline.com/f20090501-descent-bryan-wang.html

Some babyish men felt they didn't get supported enough for all that they do and boy they showed you didn't they.

Hot water...

IT'S LATE. LET'S FIND SOMETHING TO LAUGH AT:

https://www.newscientist.com/article/2131665-flushing-fallopian-tubes-with-poppy-seed-oil-boosts-fertility/

I should go back to bed. I wanted a hot shower.

It was supposed to be fixed. The hot water is not working AT ALL.  Now I love hot water. If I slather castor oil to get through painful cramps or if the cat throws up, it's a wonderful thing to have and I want it back. Can we move to a better place yet? I feel like these health problems are sabotaging me.

I had a nap and a bad dream about trying to get a girl to listen about feminism. I don't want to meet more of these women in the future who are untrustworthy but it's going to happen.  The world would be better for women if more women cared. If you treated people badly and were selfish, do the world a favor. Quit lying to yourself. Then try to do better in the future. Even if it's apparently a hardship for you to actually be good at thinking about how to do that. Is it because you need to be better to yourself, too? Then get better. In being better to other women, you might even be helping yourself more than you realize.

Time for bed. May the hot water gods be kinder tomorrow.

Shareable moment

LIKE A ROLLING STONE (Jimi)  

musical

http://radio.garden/live/carmel-by-the-sea-ca/krml/ 

moment

http://www.krml.com/listen-now

She talked about a musical library

And

http://www.library.unt.edu/service-desks/music/music-library-service-desk

Then

https://www.cruisecult.com/blogs/news/grl-pwr-hour

Well

http://www.yessaid.com/lyrics/1998fromthechoirgirlhotel/purplepeople.html

~~
~~~
~~~~
~~~~~
Hmmm...

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Purple_People

Come back...

Body of pain relief
Waiting / Awaiting
Good, good, good...
Good Body.

The quick version of castor oil pack
The ibuprofen tablet with water
The flower essence droplets

Life is great in a female body

In fact, it is.

All the men are gonna get reincarnated.

I am so happy about some things--in general, the direction I am heading, notwithstanding extreme fatigue, wanting to cry, headache, nausea, cramps...then it hit me...this is what is for some of us. "You are PMSing." I didn't even mind. It was a relief to self diagnose. I took a lot of ibuprofen.

And now life is great again!

HmmmHmmmHmmm....

Hello...

colorful summer garments

Bye pretty clothing

Tombigbee (with pretty clothing!)
I think I will finally be going to take some stuff to donate this a.m.
Sugar (with pretty clothing!)

Then I will get some other pretty clothing.

Sometimes I see it this way

I really don't blame people for finding it hard to change. It can feel really scary to make transitions.

Oh dear

Dear, dear higher power.
Let my mind be focused.
Thank you.

Just shocked it's not higher

http://thehill.com/homenews/administration/337608-poll-trump-disapproval-hits-record-60-percent

It's cool to learn

About people and nature.
And all the things...

Just get it out

Some people: Thank you so much, it was so fun and a privilege to work with you! I hope we can do it again.

Other people: I don't understand why you seemed nice at first and now we are like aliens...did your dad treat your mother like his emotional packhorse, nevermind...

Can this help with focus

Acknowledging it was wonderful to find a place where people are open to you and encourage you, but still sad to be shut out of a place that had possibilities but people were not willing to be open to change.

I keep running into places and signs and things with the word "Ethical"

Madam Secretary

WHAT DO WE DO WHEN WE WAKE UP SO EARLY

“'Last week was a great week, it was Infrastructure Week. Thank you so much for coming over to the Department of Transportation,' said that department’s head, Elaine Chao. She continued, seemingly aware of Trump’s obsession with crowd sizes: 'Hundreds and hundreds were just so thrilled, hanging out, watching the whole ceremony.'”

~ http://www.newsweek.com/trump-cabinet-meeting-weirdest-fdr-accomplished-more-twitter-sessions-russia-624683

*****

"It was an unexpectedly raw moment with Chao that so many women can relate to."

~ http://www.cnn.com/2017/06/06/politics/elaine-chao-badass-women-of-washington/index.html

*****

"Whoops."

~ http://www.cnn.com/2017/03/22/politics/elaine-chao-donald-trump-tweet-sue/index.html

Breathe

Going to check out some Reiki types of things.
 
Reiki Self Healing: Before Bedtime...

Also, it's great to look at kittens underneath headlines like these...

Donald Trump just held the weirdest Cabinet meeting ever

DONALD TRUMP'S CABINET MEETING WAS SOVIET AND SURREAL

Time to learn

https://genius.com/Air-cherry-blossom-girl-lyrics

More

http://www.airfrenchband.org/talkie/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=248

About

http://thecherryblossomgirl.com

Circulating

"And find a little in you find a little in me"

~ https://genius.com/Tori-amos-a-sorta-fairytale-lyrics

"Was it possible, I wondered, to become a persona that would defy the misconceptions of the masses? If so, it could change the world"

~ http://elitedaily.com/life/surfing-taught-accept-myself/1097744/

Sounds better

I am sort of getting really tired of going into a warrior mode about the world's injustices. I know it's not totally bad and it's there for a reason (survival!) But I am still tired of it. This can be the summer of healing and retraining.

Beholding...

Beautiful tree art!!!

It would fix a lot of things

Some people should get better about opening up a little instead of getting harder and more defensive.

How to find something to watch

The Keepers
https://www.vox.com/2017/5/20/15643380/the-keepers-netflix-sister-cathy-cesnik-murder-mystery-review

~~~~~

https://genius.com/Tori-amos-amber-waves-lyrics

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carter_Cruise

https://twitter.com/CarterCruise/status/874065675341316097

Urban Birds

This is very interesting and you tap the screen to advance (on a phone anyway.)

https://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2017/06/09/nyregion/raising-pigeons-new-york-city.html

Sometimes I like this age of revelation

Wow.

"Between 1998 and last week, I’ve been to the emergency room over 50 times with endometriosis-related pain..."

~ https://www.nytimes.com/2017/06/09/opinion/lena-dunham-losing-birth-control-could-mean-a-life-of-pain.html?_r=0

50 times is a lot. And I thought I had it bad... (Never been officially dx'd with endometriosis, I will admit, but because of whatever pain I've experienced, I feel a lot of empathy for endometriosis sufferers.) I know all the hard science people would scoff, but sometimes I wonder if my sporadic use of flower essences has helped me more than I realize.

In the morning, in the evening

Ain't we got fun... http://collider.com/salma-hayek-beatriz-at-dinner-interview/

Ambiance

Good job

“'Beatriz' had the most successful opening at the box office, grossing $150,160 from just five theaters" ~ http://www.thewrap.com/beatriz-at-dinner-indie-box-office/

My heart says

People who are your critics can also be your fans....

And...

http://movieweb.com/beatriz-at-dinner-john-lithgow-interview/

Scene...

What a silly article

http://www.delish.com/food/g4244/personality-traits-eat-cake/

I seem to be in the world of women

I wanted a hotdog. Why? They are good sometimes. I ordered one and a water.

Sat across from two older women. They were eating the same things. HOTDOGS. WATERS.

A young woman came around to check on customers and she was really nice to all of us!

World of...

Weight discrimination
https://www.livescience.com/59402-overweight-kids-more-likely-to-be-ostracized.html

Even against women within a "normal" BMI range
https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2016/09/160908084149.htm

This has a map
http://www.mybariatriclife.org/shame-on-weight-discrimination-at-work/

And WowMan

Thanks For Sharing.

"He suggested that Kelly is a 'sociopath' or 'psychopath,' and also said Kelly is 'not feminine' but instead is 'cold, robotic, dead.' He added, 'I felt zero attraction to Megyn Kelly.'”

~ http://www.salon.com/2017/06/10/alex-jones-melts-down-after-being-interviewed-by-megyn-kelly_partner/

"Jones asked her whether she would sit in Trump’s lap, to which Kelly responded, 'Move on.' Jones also said, 'I got to say, she’s prettier in person.' Kelly responded, 'I never know whether that’s a compliment or not in my line of work.'”

~ http://www.salon.com/2017/06/10/alex-jones-melts-down-after-being-interviewed-by-megyn-kelly_partner/

Wow, man

This quote: "I've told my parents many times that I'm as over being raped as I'll ever be. But I don't know if I'll ever overcome the ways in which I was treated for daring to be fat."

~ https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/roxane-gay-tells-us-about-daring-to-be-fat

The first of many days...

http://www.thesimpledollar.com/debt-snowball-vs-debt-snowflake-which-method-works-best-to-pay-off-debt/

Not the last article I will read on this topic.

Fabric appreciation

Needs more care

https://www.alternativenation.net/rock-legend-angry-pharmaceutical-industry-chris-cornell-death/

Sigh.

https://www.thefix.com/assigning-blame-chris-cornell-ativan-and-suicide

Sometimes I wake up

And Just Read.

“'It wasn’t just me. It was the entire school’s culture,' Trav said, the new awareness making his voice wooden."

https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2013/08/on-marrying-a-survivor-of-childhood-sexual-abuse/278967/

~~~

https://www.friendsjournal.org/quaker-indian-boarding-schools/

~~~

http://www.phillytrib.com/commentary/trail-of-tears-white-america-s-indian-holocaust/article_aa3f244f-491a-5dc8-b0d8-6a39fa0e708b.html

Nice~~~

"Instead, she told the department head: 'I believe that you’re great. You’re the head, and I believe that you can come out with a great result with a different crew, and make them great, too.'”

http://www.hollywoodreporter.com/amp/news/produced-by-oprah-winfrey-ava-duvernay-discuss-how-create-a-culture-inclusion-1012259

Might see this too

http://www.rollingstone.com/movies/reviews/peter-travers-megan-leavey-earns-your-tears-w486311

Up & above...

What have I learned

I think it's important to be in balance and respectful and to know that sometimes the currents push us off course but still we can strive to get back on track and go a better way in the future and no one's perfect but we can get better at it.

Never heard them before, but...

What a great name for a band!

http://razorcake.org/eden-kittiver-photo-column-problem-daughter/#more-4839

Well I get to go study some more

Part of me is Happy.
Part of me is Blue Bayou.

What's happening in Eau Claire???

This site is really cool.

RADIO GARDEN 

YOU CAN HOVER ALL AROUND THE WORLD!

I think it really is fun.

In the Southwest, I keep tuning into Mexican music.

It's pretty nice to learn things

I didn't know it, but one of the people I was working with has an MBA. He's perfectly open and capable of listening to me and my ideas. Also can speak and translate several languages. Wish I could do that!

Cuckoo. Cuckoo? Cuckoo!

VOCO ~ Cuckoo

They are soooo....cool.

A certain perspective

I am happy to say that I have had the pleasure of being in an environment where diverse viewpoints seemed more welcome, and where it seemed very possible that one could bring up different point of views (even leaning towards critique) without fear of retribution or subtle bullying on the part of some men with easily bruised egos. And it certainly felt different and more welcoming for me to be in that environment than it did to be in the other one. It felt like I got more appreciation for my abilities there. Also no one in that environment made me feel like I would have done much better there if I'd been "just one of the guys" or else thin, blond and constantly had a smile on my face to reassure people of what a great job they're always doing. Well, I guess I know where to go to find people who are more open to working with "people like me."

Horses rabbits chickens goats white German Shepherds???

I just got into a 20-minute-long conversation with a guy about his farm animals and therapy for epileptics.

Unenlightened-thoughts-in-process

Hopefully your grouchy brother will chill with some more women, since it makes him seem a little nicer, although it's the level of feminism that is sometimes a question...

How marvelous would it be

If certain people could just appreciate the kvetchy feminists.

This could be their preparation to reach out into wider arenas and audiences.

Anyway I get to celebrate

Coffee....
Hashbrowns...
Studying....

Cool waiter who doesn't seem to at all resent I am a cheap one-top, YES.

Dream, really

I had a dream I tried to talk to a grown man and I very earnestly said I didn't want him to be afraid of our conversation but he still turned into a surly adolescent whining about champagne, like either that I gave him some or he expected some.

Well, cyclically

The dudes you almost might've trusted but once again they just had to start acting out unnecessarily.

Saddest song and video:
CHERRY BLOSSOM GIRL by AIR

Some people's education needs to continue because they are still living in a bubble, apparently.

The guys I worked on my funny script with made me think of...

https://genius.com/The-young-rascals-groovin-lyrics

Because they were cool.

Oh again

More Buñuelian!

~~~

https://www.theguardian.com/music/2017/apr/01/thomas-ades-opera-exterminating-angel-bunuel-jonathan-romney

A thought

I know there are some boys and men who have very interesting and intense capabilities to deeply empathize with other people but there seems to be an impetus for them to shut down those abilities...and there seems to be less...I don't know...direction for them in the way of masculine role models? Sometimes...

Oh, Friday

Listening (Beatriz...)

and liking

living here...

~~~~

And

http://www.latina.com/entertainment/celebrity/salma-hayek-secret-talent

Oh...

http://www.billboard.com/articles/columns/pop/7825656/ariana-grande-uk-star-manchester-one-love-concert

Sometime it is easy

To choose calm things, like the beauty of the sunrise coming over a field on a farm (or maybe just the memory of it, real or imagined.) People were quiet and worked hard. They prayed to become better.

What is it?

Honestly, they are like two loves??? Some people: You tested me and I still don't really trust you or your way of doing things, but I feel in my heart your souls are beautiful and that's why I can't just write you off. Its painful, but I guess that you help me to grow? Other people: You are the people who gave me more sanctuary than you even know. You helped me have faith in myself and in my abilities as well as in other people. You point me in the direction my soul wants me to go and it brings me happiness. Thank you.

Keyboard gargoyle

I can't believe how many times cat just licked my hand with her sandpaper tongue.

More to read...

http://www.npr.org/2017/06/08/532075871/beatriz-at-dinner-skewers-a-house-full-of-well-off-guests

~~~

https://www.nytimes.com/2017/06/08/movies/beatriz-at-dinner-review-salma-hayek.html?_r=0

What's "Buñuelian."

Positive cleansing thoughts

Let's be friends as soon as possible.
Let's look at clouds and not care if we're friends.

"Happy Night!"

Fun surprise...
People laughed...
Got compliments...
(Even on the acting!)
What's not to love?

Oh god...

http://www.npr.org/sections/thesalt/2017/06/07/531859819/the-trump-10-packing-on-the-pounds-in-an-age-of-stressful-politics

find songs that seem to get in my head

We Belong plus Hold Me Now

They are from the 80s.

I will just...

http://muthamagazine.com/2013/09/s-lynn-aldermans-ugliest-beautiful-moment-or-fuck-ina-may/

Or, actually

"AM: I want people walking out of the theater to not to take their fertility for granted, to realize that upwards of one in six couples worldwide are faced with an infertility diagnosis and to rethink any preconceived notions they might have had about these people and the challenges they face."

http://www.indiewire.com/2016/04/tribeca-2016-women-directors-meet-amanda-micheli-haveababy-288400/

This one, too

"It was a lot easier to come out as a lesbian than it is to come out as having infertility issues."

"Me being able to be public about this gives meaning and purpose to the pain that I've gone through."

~ Vegas Baby trailer

So interesting

And daunting (because even though the main actress is a huge star, they had trouble getting support for their film).

http://www.scpr.org/programs/the-frame/2017/06/07/57253/beatriz-at-dinner-like-get-out-invites-an-examinat/

~~~

https://parade.com/575305/samuelmurrian/beatriz-at-dinner-screenwriter-reveals-his-inspiration-and-how-trumps-election-helped-the-movie/

Mmmhmm

Yoga, swimming, a scriptwriting class...

I want to see this

https://www.nytimes.com/2017/06/02/movies/salma-hayek-on-an-epically-bad-dinner-party.html

~~~

http://www.vulture.com/2017/06/beatriz-at-dinner-movie-review.html

I like coffee more now

I don't mind being nice to wounded veterans. But I think being nice should be a two-way street.

Some people's note

May you improve yourself speedily, or at the very least before you suddenly age into someone like that sad dude with a bad reputation that I had to stressily work under in my 20s. OH haven't you heard that story yet? Well, let me tell you...

Nice, so nice...

That special, almost balmy wonderful feeling of being in an environment where people seem respectful and trustworthy. You can just feel the calm descending. This is the upside.

I have considered other realms

Honestly it is just really depressing when people who had so much potential to be more helpful let you down.

("Leadership" doesn't care about women's health? Oh, that's because other people already didn't care, and let it be known, in many ways.)

What's new though?

What's new, what's new, what's new, what's new, what's new, what's new...

If some women had higher standards

we'd have better leadership right now.

"For those already concerned about the state of reproductive rights under the current administration, the Religious Liberty Order that Donald Trump recently signed provides yet another threat to accessible health care for women. "

https://www.bustle.com/p/how-trump-exploits-religious-liberty-to-target-women-61754

How about

Less tolerance of these in the future???

1) Girl making fun of a military veteran for having fertility and pain problems.

2) Girl making fun of a girl for "being naive" with a guy and getting health problems.

3) Girl making fun of another girl for getting roofies slipped into her drink.

GIRL.

Probably

Yoga, plus, swimming, plus,,,,,,,,,

Lord, I pray sometimes

Even though your religion has a lot of good in it, when your minions came and colonized the continent, I think it did a great deal of psychic damage....

Why not?

Because it's hard for them to examine their biases and it's scary and people get defensive. I guess its like being around an angry wounded veteran sometimes. Maybe you think he's mean to you. But he doesn't care because he's seen worse things....

I am gonna look for another article

Why are people in some environments more sexist than people in other environments?

Some kind of support group idea?

One for gossipy flake-aholism.

How to

Be the exact opposite of...well, you know.
So many opportunities.

Maybe it was just the pre-election year

 Please join our group.

We like gossiping, putting people down, telling sexist jokes and making fun of infertile people. As a bonus, we care a lot more about our bank accounts today than about helping the environment tomorrow. If you don't go along with us, then of course we will cut you from our herd. Why do we need someone like you around? None of it matters as long as we get our money.

You're welcome.

Apples/Oranges

One place is more like:
Come in. We're the pool you want to swim in.We love having you here! We are truly interested in hearing what you have to say. You can contribute here and make a difference.

The other is sometimes like:
You might be able to swim and have fun here sometimes but it's gonna take a lot more work on your part. Also we do not want to hear you complaining about anything because this is the way we do things around here, you got that?

And of course, sometimes there still is...

"In the past there were evolutionary advantages..."

I guess it is because

Sometimes the possible, almost-there change is just that...almost there. Almost.

It's hard to say

Why is one group of people so good at making you feel appreciated, so much better at being inclusive, and so much, more sensitive and open, and the other, even though it had potential, is just not as good at doing this for some reason....????

The other had potential to be. It was something on a soul level that could have been implemented on a personality level, too. It was so possible. It was...

All the best

Ha ha. That review by Richard H. at the top. http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/8533
52.One_Eyed_Cat

And also
Jeremy reviews One-Eyed Cat

Ohm-ish thoughts

I will him. I will ohm. I will. I will. Life is very short...

Poor otro mano

Beginner learner anxiety can be kinda fun....

Sigh

Disappointing tribalistic behavior and disdain of the guys in one environment just emphasized how amazing and awesome the guys in the other environment are by comparison.

Post-election

Do you still aim to be comfortably accommodated just as long as you are continuously propping up male egos...

"HARI SREENIVASAN: And so how does the town respond when they see these women picketing policies of the Trump administration?

ELIZABETH FLOCK: Not well. They have gotten a lot of pushback from the town, from everyone from the local fraternity brothers at the nearby college, to their husbands, to their neighbors, to people at the high school.

Some of their kids have been made fun of for the women protesting. Other women go home at night and their husbands get after them for appearing on the front page with a protest sign. So, for them, I think it’s a constant struggle to keep protesting, in light of the reaction that they are getting."

~ http://www.pbs.org/newshour/bb/meet-women-taking-stand-trump-country/

Rationale

I am not sexist because I get women to like me, and I reward women who prefer men and put them first, above other women. Just like my dad's bible said they should.

Strange messages

Did something float around them and whisper instructions on how to give someone an unnecessarily ugly experience?

Did it tell them to be:
Self-centered
Sexist
Self-congratulatory

You are the wet blanket of my life.

Apparently even if I want arrive with a bouquet of forgiveness cherry blossoms, some external force will detect that the disappointing pattern of irresponsibility has not shifted enough yet and will topple a tree across the path.

Sing...to the cat....

When you play....good YouTube music...

Feelings....

LET'S

https://hitberry.com/singer-linda-ronstadt-age-69-opens-up-about-why-she-never-married-and-what-her-ideal-husband-would-be-like/

READ

http://www.salon.com/2013/10/07/linda_ronstadt_there_are_always_predators_around_and_you_have_to_keep_an_eye_out_for_them/

THEM



Linda Ronstadt on The Tonight Show - March 3rd, 1983

Life can be beautiful.

I believe I should do a good amount of yoga and swimming this summer. Studying about plants on a blanket in a park is fun...

Oh, strong arms...

Upon a second reading, it really is sort of amazing how this guy manages to happily hold on to ye olde patriarchal beliefs...

"Robledo, 64, also struggled with the clash of American culture and the patriarchal traditions he brought from Mexico.

'When we first made a sauvignon blanc, I told the family I wanted to call it Seven Brothers for my sons. That was a mistake,' he says with a laugh. 'My two daughters were very angry.' 

Another wine was less contentious. Los Braceros is a blend of cabernet sauvignon, syrah and merlot. 'Braceros means strong arms,' Robledo explained. 'A worker could bring his wife and one son. These grapes represent the family: father, mother and son.'"

~ http://www.washingtonpost.com/sf/style/2017/05/30/mexican-migrant-workers-came-to-california-to-pick-grapes-now-they-own-wineries/?utm_term=.82c0727f0888

Where's the daughter? (Again!?) Maybe dancing to the beat of a different drum. Like....

http://www.newyorker.com/culture/culture-desk/different-drum-the-power-of-linda-ronstadts-voice

Or

https://genius.com/Linda-ronstadt-poor-poor-pitiful-me-lyrics

Andreas-Salome & Rilke

Sometimes you read something and think, these people were ahead of their time.

https://www.brainpickings.org/2016/05/12/lou-andreas-salome-creative-block-rilke/

It is too funny

When the cat just goes where she's not supposed to and you catch her but she's all languid cause she was sleepy too and it's easy and you pick her up with one hand and she goes rooooowr.

Wine stories

Sleep

http://www.washingtonpost.com/sf/style/2017/05/30/mexican-migrant-workers-came-to-california-to-pick-grapes-now-they-own-wineries/?utm_term=.e96fb04bb4a7

To

http://www.northbaybusinessjournal.com/industrynews/law/7047963-181/california-federal-agriculture-budget-labor-law?artslide=0

Read

Sunday Sleep Day

Wake

https://www.reddit.com/r/funny/comments/6f5491/man_casually_mowing_the_lawn_with_a_tornado/

Up

https://www.forbes.com/sites/kathycaprino/2016/05/12/how-decision-making-is-different-between-men-and-women-and-why-it-matters-in-business/#603b4b514dcd

Parent or not--

https://notalwaysright.com/acting-like-child/88003/

Sidewalk scene

A man.
A toothbrush.
A lot of ivy leaves to scrub clean.

Jubilation

I love Jesus again...
Another great meeting...
Even though the room was hot...
Got luckeee...

In a gentle state of shock

Called my stepfather.
Time passes swiftly.

Before and after coffee

Saw a young man with a shaved head sitting on a sidewalk, painstakingly cleaning ivy leaves with a toothbrush?
Sad for him? Happy for him?

Inspired to help veterans?

Natural kitty

Nutty kitty.

Coffee

With awesome people.

You need meditation

I know and women who mistreat women to suck up to insecure male egos are just there to help you learn more about yourself.

Happily

Today I get to have a fourth and final meeting with two really great intelligent guys who haved treated me well and made time to hear me and shared their insights with me and I LOVE IT.

And that, too

Remember when I didn't used to think you would have treated me better if I had been born a different gender, or at least had been more "the type of female behavior" you prefer?

Oh, that

Remember when I used to think you were trustworthy?

Dreamy food coma thing

Oh. I ate too much poke (with salad though.) I had to take a nap. Today's dream message from the beyond: Grandma loves you.

Should be stimulating...

http://billmoyers.com/story/trump-made-2020-election-referendum-climate-change/

Well

I have a feeling...I'm going to watch more...

http://www.bostonglobe.com/arts/television/2017/05/30/master-none-creating-classic-episodes-right-before-our-eyes/sNnuwWypJQOSL6ARFIkByN/story.html

His owls...

Painter's fertility prayers...

Joshua Yeldham
Owls & Trees

I read some more

What

http://theweek.com/articles/702599/why-leftovers-gently-suicidal-mood-perfect-age-american-decline

T.V.

http://variety.com/2017/tv/columns/leftovers-hbo-damon-lindelof-justin-theroux-life-death-time-travel-1202449486/

Is

https://www.nytimes.com/2017/06/01/arts/television/the-leftovers-soundtrack.html

This

Esta noche...

I drank a beer

I watched Plan B & Parents

I sorted mail (oops, benefit card to old occupant)

I wondered about Single Payer

I ate pistachios

I went on Pinterest
Thursday night is my party night
I like it but why

So expensive

Someone told me about a wish for a longarm quilting machine.

To be continued...

Ep. 1 - looking at duvet covers and thinking about buying one...

Ep. 2 - looking up pools and thinking about going to one...

Ep. 3 - completing one round of stitches on a circle hat loom...

More peaceful feelings

Change can be peaceful too.