Saturday, December 31, 2016
Friday, December 30, 2016
Something like
Peaceful feelings.
That's what I need.
Safe travels to others.
I am in bed today with quietly nauseating anxiety and clunky earmuffs.
Sa...Ta...Na...Ma...
Ear muffs
I have conservative family members, but they are conservative in different ways...(Pulling on the ear muffs again...) My father doesn't care for political radio and would rather listen to Christian music. He was here for a short visit and bought me the earmuffs! This house is lively with dogs and lovely when they play Christmas music or HGTV or Dog TV but that peace is often ruined by other stuff. It would be so easy to enjoy this visit if they made other choices but it is what it is, and unfortunately when they insist on playing their political stuff aloud so much it makes me look forward to leaving.
Thursday, December 29, 2016
This vs. that
That: $Auuugh$ but maybe in the future
https://www.cnet.com/topics/headphones/best-headphones/noise-canceling/
This: Clunky shooter earmuffs
http://www.americanlegacyfishing.com/champion-hearing-protection-ear-muffs-passive.html
https://www.cnet.com/topics/headphones/best-headphones/noise-canceling/
This: Clunky shooter earmuffs
http://www.americanlegacyfishing.com/champion-hearing-protection-ear-muffs-passive.html
Radio killed the special interest movie star
Certificates in "Undereducated About Gender Inequality, Self-imposed Sexism, and Internalized Misogyny" have been awarded to Cash Heave and Coin Hiccup in lieu of the "Asheville is Full of Trust Fund Hippies" Award. Special achievements include exceptional narcissism and expecting compliments for extraordinarily self-serving behavior. Proud beneficiaries of willful cluelessness also have the honor of earning "The Brass Teapot" Award. (In this case, that would indicate reaping financial rewards in ways eerily reminiscent of the movie The Brass Teapot.)
Oh hello a.m. sounds
I am sorry noise- cancelling headphones are so expensive. Feel sorry for one who has to listen to negative conservative radio first thing in the morning to make himself feel more secure in the world and also for the one who has to go along with him and change her beliefs to accommodate him in order to feel secure in her own house. I feel sorry they have such low expectations of life but it is beyond my capabilities to talk to them when I get nausea and headaches. Maybe God will rain an army of peppy friendly liberal college students with tons of energy and higher expectations of life on them. I will never come back for this long of a stay again. Or if I do, maybe air b n b is in the future.
Wednesday, December 28, 2016
Links before sleep
Dear Sprint
https://www.engadget.com/2016/12/28/trump-isnt-responsible-for-sprint-bringing-5-000-jobs-to-the-us/
Consider
https://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/global-opinions/i-watched-a-populist-leader-rise-in-my-country-and-that-is-why-i-am-genuinely-worried-for-america/2016/12/27/6b4cf632-cc65-11e6-b8a2-8c2a61b0436f_story.html?tid=pm_opinions_pop&utm_term=.8c2cb9fbdead
https://www.engadget.com/2016/12/28/trump-isnt-responsible-for-sprint-bringing-5-000-jobs-to-the-us/
Consider
https://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/global-opinions/i-watched-a-populist-leader-rise-in-my-country-and-that-is-why-i-am-genuinely-worried-for-america/2016/12/27/6b4cf632-cc65-11e6-b8a2-8c2a61b0436f_story.html?tid=pm_opinions_pop&utm_term=.8c2cb9fbdead
My brain was able to check out
Much of the second half of this:
http://echoes.org/2016/12/28/wednesday-december-28th-2016-echoes-program-1652c/
http://echoes.org/2016/12/28/wednesday-december-28th-2016-echoes-program-1652c/
I hear a schooner
It is so regional.
It is so nice to hear instead of someone playing political radio junk.
Later... Unfortunately...It might be back.
I dunno why some people like that stuff.
Live in a nice place, fill airways with negative crap. Why do that?
Maybe it resonates with some old-fashioned sense of rightness and power and control, some childish belief system from "the good old days."
Laughable...
Thanks to some people's habits, I cannot wait to leave.
It is so nice to hear instead of someone playing political radio junk.
Later... Unfortunately...It might be back.
I dunno why some people like that stuff.
Live in a nice place, fill airways with negative crap. Why do that?
Maybe it resonates with some old-fashioned sense of rightness and power and control, some childish belief system from "the good old days."
Laughable...
Thanks to some people's habits, I cannot wait to leave.
Tuesday, December 27, 2016
Hi ceiling
Too much. Too much. Just enough too much.
Not a vacation...
Stories... Too many drinkers. Too much harassment. Illnesses, medications, tardive dyskinesia.
Songs for praying and strength and balance. And healing...
Who would be the same, who would be the same...
Not a vacation...
Stories... Too many drinkers. Too much harassment. Illnesses, medications, tardive dyskinesia.
Songs for praying and strength and balance. And healing...
Who would be the same, who would be the same...
Saturday, December 24, 2016
Grow
While I am glad that things are relatively peaceful here for now, I cannot believe anyone actually thinks these folks embody good leadership qualities. Really. How low the standards can be. Looking forward to people growing as human beings at some point in the future.
http://www.politico.com/story/2016/12/donald-trump-favorability-232950
http://www.politico.com/story/2016/12/donald-trump-favorability-232950
Friday, December 23, 2016
Good Things
I think in this house we were a lot better today about having good vibes in the atmosphere. Improvement Improvement Improvement Improvement. And tomorrow we'll be better about what we put in our bodies.
Not a good fit
Don't let politics ruin things but blare Fox TV constantly so that others are forced to listen to it. Tell me I am like "a good mommy" in the morning when I am trying to be helpful but in the evening, under the influence of poison TV, it all changes. Everything bad about Trump is "fake news" but everything bad about Clinton is real. And there was this: "You lost! Well, you did!" "Trump is not a rapist, Bill Clinton is a rapist!" "Trump will bring back jobs!" Run away from the incurious childish adults who value superficiality, money.
Thursday, December 22, 2016
Someone else
Hmmm. Different perspective.
http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/us_582f33c6e4b0d28e55214df6
Sad, sad, sad, sad, sad.
I don't think I will argue again. My sister said very nicely to me that she knows I am kind of stranded here and she would try to give me a little money if I needed to leave. That was a nice gesture. Meanwhile even upstairs with the door closed I hear icky stuff. Oh well. Too bad. Today I got told I am better at helping when someone is sick but it makes no difference in the evening when the political television dominates the house.
http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/us_582f33c6e4b0d28e55214df6
Sad, sad, sad, sad, sad.
I don't think I will argue again. My sister said very nicely to me that she knows I am kind of stranded here and she would try to give me a little money if I needed to leave. That was a nice gesture. Meanwhile even upstairs with the door closed I hear icky stuff. Oh well. Too bad. Today I got told I am better at helping when someone is sick but it makes no difference in the evening when the political television dominates the house.
I am guessing some people could probably pray for this guy?
I mean, if they get a chance? Because beyond Trump U., taxes, sexual discrimination, etc., surely there are better ways to communicate love of one's country than randomly calling for more nukes...
"Although my father claimed that Vietnam did not influence his vote, I still believe that everyone who voted for Trump likely has that something, that painful reason that compelled them to vote for him, that makes them need this country and its xenophobia in order to excuse a different pain. Protect America to make fallen soldiers matter. Protect America to make my mother’s job loss matter. Protect America to protect the excuse for killing more people — by continuing war, or by ignoring human rights issues. But these responses to pain — these Trump votes — have inflicted a new pain. For many of us, we are mourning as we would a national tragedy. At the end of our conversation, my father said, “The older I get, the more I realize I don’t know. More than ever before, I work now to really understand what is behind the actions of people. The one thing I will never be able to accept is negativity.” Perhaps I, too, had not been thinking enough about what I don’t know. Believing that the majority of our country had been thinking the way most of Boston had been was naive. After my conversation with my father, I realized that my own bubble might have prevented me from understanding other parts of the country, just as their bubbles might have stopped them from understanding me."
~ http://www.vox.com/first-person/2016/11/15/13623694/trump-voters-understanding
Sounds civilized.
"Although my father claimed that Vietnam did not influence his vote, I still believe that everyone who voted for Trump likely has that something, that painful reason that compelled them to vote for him, that makes them need this country and its xenophobia in order to excuse a different pain. Protect America to make fallen soldiers matter. Protect America to make my mother’s job loss matter. Protect America to protect the excuse for killing more people — by continuing war, or by ignoring human rights issues. But these responses to pain — these Trump votes — have inflicted a new pain. For many of us, we are mourning as we would a national tragedy. At the end of our conversation, my father said, “The older I get, the more I realize I don’t know. More than ever before, I work now to really understand what is behind the actions of people. The one thing I will never be able to accept is negativity.” Perhaps I, too, had not been thinking enough about what I don’t know. Believing that the majority of our country had been thinking the way most of Boston had been was naive. After my conversation with my father, I realized that my own bubble might have prevented me from understanding other parts of the country, just as their bubbles might have stopped them from understanding me."
~ http://www.vox.com/first-person/2016/11/15/13623694/trump-voters-understanding
Sounds civilized.
Uncivilized
Fight about politics. Almost got thrown out of the house. May not be staying here again. Not leaving for now, tho. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
Wednesday, December 21, 2016
Conversation beauté
I find this to be a beautiful conversation (interview mostly in English.)
http://femmesansenfant.com/entrevue-avec-melanie-holmes-auteure-du-livre-the-female-assumption/
I want to learn more French!
http://femmesansenfant.com/entrevue-avec-melanie-holmes-auteure-du-livre-the-female-assumption/
I want to learn more French!
Reading & Musical FUN
"On this occasion, we turn to
Colonel George Chicken’s 1725 embassy to the Cherokee to assist in the explanation of
Cherokee reaction to Cumming’s action." (pg 41)
~ Alexander Cumming - King or Pawn? An Englishman on the Colonial Chessboard of the Eighteenth-centuryAmerican Southeast by Ian David Chambers
T.A. ~ Amazing Grace / Til the Chicken
T.A. (and David Byrne)~ You'll Be Taken Care Of
T.A. ~ Take Me With You
~ Alexander Cumming - King or Pawn? An Englishman on the Colonial Chessboard of the Eighteenth-centuryAmerican Southeast by Ian David Chambers
T.A. ~ Amazing Grace / Til the Chicken
T.A. (and David Byrne)~ You'll Be Taken Care Of
T.A. ~ Take Me With You
A soup recipe
Alas, today a DX of pneumonia has come to the household...
Soup Recipe:
Miso broth
Certain chicken dumplings
Bok Choy
Extra fresh ginger
Soup Recipe:
Miso broth
Certain chicken dumplings
Bok Choy
Extra fresh ginger
shocked or not shocked
"Would it shock you to learn that about a week after Mayer’s headline-grabbing corporate policy shift, the chief executive of Best Buy, Hubert Joly, made the same change? And that it attracted only a fraction of the attention? Although one can argue about the merits of telecommuting, the responses to the two executive orders were telling. “For making the same judgment call,” Huston writes, “a male C.E.O. drew some sidelong glances for a few months, but a female C.E.O. drew extensive scrutiny and censure for years.”
http://www.nytimes.com/2016/05/15/books/review/how-women-decide-by-therese-huston.html?_r=0
http://www.nytimes.com/2016/05/15/books/review/how-women-decide-by-therese-huston.html?_r=0
Lapse in judgement
"But when the female police chief made the same mistake, her ratings dropped by almost 30 percent. A lapse in judgement cost her almost three times as much as it cost him."
~ How Women Decide by Therese Huston (page 131)
~ How Women Decide by Therese Huston (page 131)
Why would you not...
...behold his materialistic earning power and accordingly construct your personality to reflect what he wants you to do and say?
This will pay off for you socially and professionally (and if you don't there will be very real consequences!)
Don't bother him with your own experiences, because you know this won't make him feel good enough about himself, and that is your unspoken job.
He will feel slighted and there will be consequences if you aren't taking care of his feelings.
Do shower him with lots and lots of compliments, even if he treats you like a second-guess citizen.
He won't see it that way!
He's been given license to expect lots of praise for that kind of behavior.
Consider the consequences of ignoring this advice...
This will pay off for you socially and professionally (and if you don't there will be very real consequences!)
Don't bother him with your own experiences, because you know this won't make him feel good enough about himself, and that is your unspoken job.
He will feel slighted and there will be consequences if you aren't taking care of his feelings.
Do shower him with lots and lots of compliments, even if he treats you like a second-guess citizen.
He won't see it that way!
He's been given license to expect lots of praise for that kind of behavior.
Consider the consequences of ignoring this advice...
Tuesday, December 20, 2016
Thoughts on shifting...
Perhaps my younger self's way is to feel betrayed, rail, and get ill with despair...
Perhaps my wiser self's way is to try to understand what leads people to make those particular choices...
Witch ancestry
They have discovered...
http://jezebel.com/mitt-romney-and-zach-braff-are-related-to-the-same-acc-1790321901
http://jezebel.com/mitt-romney-and-zach-braff-are-related-to-the-same-acc-1790321901
just another quote
Wow hard to sleep wow hard to sleep wow hard to sleep...I AM SO TIRED.
"And by the way, that’s another reason why when people say now, “Would you advise young women now to come forward?” I have to stop and say, “Let’s be careful about this.” Because as much as I, Megyn Kelly, with my contract and generous salary and my life all set could look back and start lecturing 23-year-old women on how they must take a stand, it would be disingenuous. Because if there’s a 23-year-old woman or a 32-year-old woman who is in the position I was in at that time, it would be career suicide for her to do more."
~ https://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/erik-wemple/wp/2016/12/19/megyn-kelly-fox-was-not-without-sin-in-2016-campaign-coverage/?tid=pm_opinions_pop&utm_term=.6f830a6926eb
"And by the way, that’s another reason why when people say now, “Would you advise young women now to come forward?” I have to stop and say, “Let’s be careful about this.” Because as much as I, Megyn Kelly, with my contract and generous salary and my life all set could look back and start lecturing 23-year-old women on how they must take a stand, it would be disingenuous. Because if there’s a 23-year-old woman or a 32-year-old woman who is in the position I was in at that time, it would be career suicide for her to do more."
~ https://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/erik-wemple/wp/2016/12/19/megyn-kelly-fox-was-not-without-sin-in-2016-campaign-coverage/?tid=pm_opinions_pop&utm_term=.6f830a6926eb
Monday, December 19, 2016
So much travel weirdness
The moment you look up from your beef jerky and crackers and see a woman sitting across the airport terminal who resembles an old college friend so much that you walk over and ask and she's very nice but of course it's not her and come to think of it she is probably too young and and the old friend has a different last name now so are you just connecting this stranger with who she once was? But still the resemblance was uncanny... You migrate to another seat...
The moment you are eating fruit snacks and look up to see that a small boy is crawling towards you and smiling, and then you notice his parents appear to be enjoying two large glasses of Chardonnay and you want to laugh because it seems so incongruous, the big glasses half full as you would expect to see at a fancy dinner table instead of in a crowded airport seating area... You almost want to take a picture...
The moment when you think you see your old bookstore manager... A college roommate...
Another former co-worker...
 |
| And all the pretty little electrical houses |
Probably once upon a time...
There was a girl from two different cultures and she went along with her husband's cultural values to be a good wife and maybe even just to survive...
Hmmm, I have found this...
http://www.elle.com/culture/music/a41425/women-political-songs/
Hmmm, I have found this...
http://www.elle.com/culture/music/a41425/women-political-songs/
After dinner
I am listening to music.
It's electoral college day and I don't want to hear the news from a certain channel and it's there even though I am on a different floor and shut the door.
I have flown across the country.
I have had the "He got a bad rap from the mainstream media" conversation.
Nice people believe nicely.
Nice people change to please others.
Nice people go along with their husbands to make a happier household.
Thoughts on liquid crystal display
Moytoy and Alexander Cumming
http://libjournal.uncg.edu/jbc/article/view/925
Domestic violence
http://motto.time.com/4596668/trumps-new-administration-domestic-abusers/
http://libjournal.uncg.edu/jbc/article/view/925
Domestic violence
http://motto.time.com/4596668/trumps-new-administration-domestic-abusers/
OK then...
In today's episode of my so-called political life, I am trying to get wifi to work, suddenly have an impulse to type the word "turkey" and get "Russian ambassador to Turkey shot in Ankara" breaking 6-12 minutes ago...
Sunday, December 18, 2016
Philosophically...
This day could use more peaceful, lighter, healing thoughts.
May all beings get the support, rehabilitation and compassion they need and deserve.
May all beings get the support, rehabilitation and compassion they need and deserve.
some other
things could have been more joyful and fun
and you were supposed to be helpful
instead of corrupt, bullying, and discriminatory
you had the capacity to be better
so maybe you should figure out why
you found that unbalanced way of being so alluring
did you see that kind of behavior somewhere
and feel the need to copy it?
a part of you is different from that
but you made choices and chose to ignore it
did society encourage you to drive it away?
where is that part of you that is more trustworthy?
Friday, December 16, 2016
Onion rings!
Onion rings are here.
A stranger paid for them!
"Your order is paid for you! Happy Holidays!"
I should do that sometime.
кольца лука
kol'tsa luka
Also, tacos.
тако
tako
How to say
2) The third poem in this post made me laugh
3) Baby succulents
detskiye sukkulenty
детские суккуленты
детские суккуленты
A small reflection on biology
Sometimes I honestly wonder if there are people have a biological or chemical thing in their brains that makes them less empathetic, more narcissistic, and more self-absorbed than other people. Anyway...
Twitter...did not give him what he wanted.
~ http://www.alternet.org/election-2016/report-donald-trump-denied-twitter-spot-tech-meeting-because-they-didnt-give-him
This professor...left the state.
~ http://www.alternet.org/election-2016/professor-who-criticized-trump-hiding-after-death-threats
Music!
"'Creative people tend to reject bigotry and hate,' Legend said."
~ http://www.alternet.org/election-2016/desperate-trump-offers-ambassadorships-anyone-who-can-bring-famous-musicians-his
Time to give the computer some space again, I guess?
Twitter...did not give him what he wanted.
~ http://www.alternet.org/election-2016/report-donald-trump-denied-twitter-spot-tech-meeting-because-they-didnt-give-him
This professor...left the state.
~ http://www.alternet.org/election-2016/professor-who-criticized-trump-hiding-after-death-threats
Music!
"'Creative people tend to reject bigotry and hate,' Legend said."
~ http://www.alternet.org/election-2016/desperate-trump-offers-ambassadorships-anyone-who-can-bring-famous-musicians-his
Time to give the computer some space again, I guess?
Mixed reviews for a film
Last night The Awakening (the movie, not the Kate Chopin story!) was on, so I watched it. Mixed reviews for The Awakening. Yet it seemed somehow appropriate to watch at this time...
"The real mystery is, what were the English thinking of when they built these scary stately homes and actually went to live in them?"
"It's not exactly rare for a female character to be the lead of a horror film, but it's rare to have a character as interesting as Florence Cathcart at the center."
And who is this good for?
Military families can have a stimulating discussion about this one:
"But the man chosen by Trump to lead the Department of Homeland Security holds a more somber distinction. The battle-hardened veteran, who served three tours in Iraq, is the highest-ranking officer to lose a child in combat in Iraq or Afghanistan.
That status, as part of what the military calls a Gold Star family, puts him in the Cabinet of a presidential candidate who verbally attacked a Gold Star family: the Khans, Muslim-American immigrants who lost a son in Iraq and had criticized Trump at the Democratic National Convention."
~ http://www.cnbc.com/2016/12/12/trump-nominates-retired-general-john-kelly-as-secretary-of-the-department-of-homeland-security.html
"Trump listened to a speech by the bereaved father of a fallen Muslim soldier and used it to slander the fallen soldier’s family. That was his response. That is his character."
~ http://www.vox.com/2016/7/30/12332922/donald-trump-khan-muslim
"But the man chosen by Trump to lead the Department of Homeland Security holds a more somber distinction. The battle-hardened veteran, who served three tours in Iraq, is the highest-ranking officer to lose a child in combat in Iraq or Afghanistan.
That status, as part of what the military calls a Gold Star family, puts him in the Cabinet of a presidential candidate who verbally attacked a Gold Star family: the Khans, Muslim-American immigrants who lost a son in Iraq and had criticized Trump at the Democratic National Convention."
~ http://www.cnbc.com/2016/12/12/trump-nominates-retired-general-john-kelly-as-secretary-of-the-department-of-homeland-security.html
"Trump listened to a speech by the bereaved father of a fallen Muslim soldier and used it to slander the fallen soldier’s family. That was his response. That is his character."
~ http://www.vox.com/2016/7/30/12332922/donald-trump-khan-muslim
"Cultural change"
I don't think that this type of cultural change is particularly good for girls....Or for boys either, for that matter...
“When we talk about online radicalization we always talk about Muslims. But the radicalization of white men online is at astronomical levels,” she wrote. “That's why I never got one strategy of Clinton's campaign: highlighting Trump's sexism. Trump supporters love him BECAUSE of his sexism.”
The alt-right’s vernacular is full of sexist language. “Weak” moderates or liberals who buy into the feminist agenda are deemed “cucks,” a term derived from “cuckold,” the arcane Old English word for a man whose wife cheats on him. Many of the movement’s various subcommunities have insisted that the word is (warning: the following two links contain hate speech) strictly racist and that its origins center on white men being disempowered by miscegenation and other forms of interaction with members of other races. But in its practical use by the alt-right at large — most frequently to harass women online — the common implication is that progressive men are sexually disempowered by manipulative women.
This ideology inevitably has political ramifications."
Cultural personalities
So, one day you are a TV star savoring power as the "ultimate revenge," and the next day you are "in the middle of the drama"....I mean, on the transition team?
That's if you are Omarosa, who is not especially interested in what she did not do...
https://www.bloomberg.com/politics/videos/2016-10-11/omarosa-to-abuse-victim-i-didn-t-do-that-to-you
And will there be any others...
http://motto.time.com/4596668/trumps-new-administration-domestic-abusers/
That's if you are Omarosa, who is not especially interested in what she did not do...
https://www.bloomberg.com/politics/videos/2016-10-11/omarosa-to-abuse-victim-i-didn-t-do-that-to-you
And will there be any others...
http://motto.time.com/4596668/trumps-new-administration-domestic-abusers/
At the conference, Nooyi congratulated Trump on the election win, but acknowledged that many Pepsi employees were in mourning following the results.
"Our employees were all crying," Nooyi said. "And the question that they're asking, especially those who are not white, 'Are we safe?' Women are asking, 'Are we safe?' LGBT people are asking, 'Are we safe?' I never thought I would have to answer those questions."
However, Nooyi, who supported Hillary Clinton in the presidential race, has maintained that Americans need to unite and accept the outcome of the election.
"The process of democracy happened," she said. "We just need to let life go on."
Wednesday, December 14, 2016
Running and taxes
Two things I do not excel at, and worth reading about.
"I am frightened for my country. I am terrified for my fellow female runners. America was already unsafe for us before Donald Trump. But I will continue to run around town in my I’M WITH HER shirt, smiling at every person I see. Even if you call me a pig. Even if you spit in my face. Even if you tell me I lost."
~ What happened when I went for a run in my I’M WITH HER shirt after the election
"Three days a week I sat there, quietly mutinous, until very suddenly in class one morning I realized I was shirking a challenge. If everyone like me, everyone with a liberal arts bent and what my father called bleeding heart tendencies, avoided learning about tax law, only those on the other side would understand it."
~ Pigs, Hogs, Unwanted Tax Expertise, and Trump
Two plus two
More
P.R. "Lofticries" & Claptone "Ghost"
P.R. "Fine Shrine" & T.A. "Caught A Light Sneeze"
(Song outlet)
Information management
This has been a really weird and challenging time.
Hopefully in the future, things will get better.
If I can accept myself as an unconventional person...
If I can accept that certain stories have come to me, and they come in waves, and they are triggered by certain situations, or even seem connected with body/health things...
Maybe I can start to do something with them...
Tuesday, December 13, 2016
1-2-3-OFF BUTTON
So Gross.
http://www.nytimes.com/2016/12/13/us/politics/russia-hack-election-dnc.html?_r=1&mtrref=t.co&gwh=CD725615FF670969BE1B41BB2774C122&gwt=pay
Don't Trust These Guys At All
http://www.militarytimes.com/articles/kelly-official-nominated-dhs-trump
"Complicated"
http://www.sciencemag.org/news/2016/12/reaction-rick-perry-leading-department-energy-it-s-complicated
Turn off the computer now.
http://www.nytimes.com/2016/12/13/us/politics/russia-hack-election-dnc.html?_r=1&mtrref=t.co&gwh=CD725615FF670969BE1B41BB2774C122&gwt=pay
Don't Trust These Guys At All
http://www.militarytimes.com/articles/kelly-official-nominated-dhs-trump
"Complicated"
http://www.sciencemag.org/news/2016/12/reaction-rick-perry-leading-department-energy-it-s-complicated
Turn off the computer now.
Monday, December 12, 2016
out-of-the-way drive-by
I had to drive past a place where there was a fatal fire to make sure it wasn't in one of the homes where I used to cat-sit. (It wasn't). But it was next to the guest parking spaces, and I remember those people looking at me sometimes when I parked there. Now they are gone...This has been a strange year...
Well, next year could be better.
BETTER
Well, next year could be better.
BETTER
Photo-essay! plus...
http://www.teenvogue.com/story/teen-photo-series-donald-trump-comments-women-aria-watson
Plus...
https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/morning-mix/wp/2016/12/12/in-scorched-earth-op-ed-a-teen-vogue-writer-says-trump-is-gaslighting-america/?utm_term=.310e0606d109
But honestly my heart hurts and maybe it's just heartburn from too many won-tons in my miso soup but it could be more...
Plus...
https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/morning-mix/wp/2016/12/12/in-scorched-earth-op-ed-a-teen-vogue-writer-says-trump-is-gaslighting-america/?utm_term=.310e0606d109
But honestly my heart hurts and maybe it's just heartburn from too many won-tons in my miso soup but it could be more...
Interesting read...
Hillary’s "trust problem" is what Daniel Boorstin, back in the 1960s,
called a "pseudo-event." A pseudo-event is something that acquires its
reality not because it is accurate, but because the media has reported
it, repeated it, exaggerated it, replayed it and made an indelible
mantra of it. In the process, like a piece of trashy gossip that has
made the rounds of the high school cafeteria, the pseudo-event becomes
stamped in viewers' or readers' minds as true.
~ http://www.zeit.de/kultur/2016-11/hillary-clinton-image-deconstruction-susan-bordo/komplettansicht
Some people didn't "trust" her but wouldn't have preferred what we got.
~ http://www.zeit.de/kultur/2016-11/hillary-clinton-image-deconstruction-susan-bordo/komplettansicht
Some people didn't "trust" her but wouldn't have preferred what we got.
Dream poems and lines (4)
Hold fast to dreams
Dreams ~ Langston Hughes
Energy birds swarmed from my brain
I Might Have Dreamed This ~ Kirsten Dierking
Their hindquarters still trees
Downstairs in Dreams ~ Chase Twichell
bee in the clover fumbling to find its dirt-damp home
The Street of Broken Dreams ~ Minnie Bruce Pratt
Sunday, December 11, 2016
Little life event
Was actually looking for a story about how the election has affected Christian moderates, but instead read and watched this other clip (sigh...why...I guess, because???) and then received splinter from a stair banister. A DEEP one. Right in the middle of my thumb.
After passing a needle through a stove top burner and attempting unsuccessfully to remove it, I felt more compassion for the babysitter who dug a splinter out of my index finger with a needle when I was six. It was very painful and left a scar which is still there today.
Looked up some other techniques...
http://thesecretyumiverse.wonderhowto.com/how-to/9-diy-ways-painlessly-remove-splinters-from-your-skin-0139135/
I dunno about absolutely "painless," but perhaps the baking soda trick will work.
After passing a needle through a stove top burner and attempting unsuccessfully to remove it, I felt more compassion for the babysitter who dug a splinter out of my index finger with a needle when I was six. It was very painful and left a scar which is still there today.
Looked up some other techniques...
http://thesecretyumiverse.wonderhowto.com/how-to/9-diy-ways-painlessly-remove-splinters-from-your-skin-0139135/
I dunno about absolutely "painless," but perhaps the baking soda trick will work.
New one(s)
"Is voting for a guy who won't listen to intelligence reports a great way to make the world a better place according to Gen. Flynn and T. Boone Pickens?" ~ My Brain. But anyway. Go Mike (?)
Also...when My Brain gets cynical...
"I'm a real mom and such a good wife and I love my Bible and I have daughters but for some reason I voted for a guy who oogled teenagers, harassed women, and bullied an 18-year-girl who gets rape and death threats but why would I use my brain to worry about things like that when I have My Loving Church Community and Tha Scripture???"
Oops.
Dyke & Fats Save Christmas
The Kitty Cat Dance
Also...when My Brain gets cynical...
"I'm a real mom and such a good wife and I love my Bible and I have daughters but for some reason I voted for a guy who oogled teenagers, harassed women, and bullied an 18-year-girl who gets rape and death threats but why would I use my brain to worry about things like that when I have My Loving Church Community and Tha Scripture???"
Oops.
Dyke & Fats Save Christmas
The Kitty Cat Dance
Cheer Up.
That was an old thought
"Many people who didn't vote should have voted." ~ My Brain
I guess Mr. Cleverly Switching Tactics chose to ignore SNL this weekend. On the bright side, at least railing against news doesn't result in more death threats and sexual harrassment against an 18-year-old, or something of that nature.
He also indicated that as president, he would not take the daily intelligence briefing that President Obama and his predecessors have received. Mr. Trump, who has received the briefing sparingly as president-elect, said that it was often repetitive and that he would take it “when I need it.” He said his vice president, Mike Pence, would receive the daily briefing.
“You know, I’m, like, a smart person,” he said. “I don’t have to be told the same thing in the same words every single day for the next eight years.”
~ http://www.nytimes.com/2016/12/11/us/politics/trump-russia-democrats.html?_r=0
Go Mike.
I guess Mr. Cleverly Switching Tactics chose to ignore SNL this weekend. On the bright side, at least railing against news doesn't result in more death threats and sexual harrassment against an 18-year-old, or something of that nature.
He also indicated that as president, he would not take the daily intelligence briefing that President Obama and his predecessors have received. Mr. Trump, who has received the briefing sparingly as president-elect, said that it was often repetitive and that he would take it “when I need it.” He said his vice president, Mike Pence, would receive the daily briefing.
“You know, I’m, like, a smart person,” he said. “I don’t have to be told the same thing in the same words every single day for the next eight years.”
~ http://www.nytimes.com/2016/12/11/us/politics/trump-russia-democrats.html?_r=0
Go Mike.
What is it called
SIGH,
It is not going away...
So I had a pretty nice day and I ate a very healthy salad for lunch and as I did that I was reading something that said the equivalent of: Men make more money so usually they are better to market towards because they will spend more money on your product! Just sayin'...natch for business owners... I finished my lunch and decided to go for a walk on a certain trail because it's a nice way to get into nature quickly but the access point is on a street that now requires permit parking and I wondered (since those signs weren't there before) did I do something wrong? Did I offend any residents (they are in a wealthier area) when I was parking there? Wracking my brain. Will I ever be able to walk on that trail again? And the thing I read about how marketing towards men will usually pay off better because they make more $$ was still circling around...then I came back to a certain question. What is is called...
If men devalue women when they don't fit certain standards?
If men devalue women's contributions unless they are expressed in a certain way?
If women devalue and do not help other women because they don't feel it's important or because they perceive it could hurt their reputation or that it could impact them negatively to do so?
If women devalue certain ideas when they come out of a woman's mouth, but suddenly act like those ideas are much more worthy of attention if a man says them or says that they are?
I think that is called a culture of discrimination against women.
Sometimes this discriminatory culture is perpetuated by both sexes.
It is here, and it seems like it's getting even worse because the people that are being elected to political power are definitely a part of it.
But they are also a symptom.
But they are also a symptom.
Love the earth and fix your health
Me in high school around the time I was diagnosed with PCOS.
~ http://fusion.net/story/318926/pesticides-injured-generations/
Saturday, December 10, 2016
Currently of interest
I think this guy is following his purpose and that's what people need to do in a time of crisis...where much suffering is being revealed...but I think if he gets overly willing "to die" it helps attract negative feedback.
https://www.bustle.com/articles/199496-dyke-fats-sketch-returns-to-snl-to-show-women-deserve-respect-in-the-workplace-at
http://www.thewrap.com/snl-john-cena-shows-us-how-donald-trump-sees-himself/
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/There's_No_One_as_Irish_as_Barack_O'Bama
I had a nice time observing nature today. I'm trying to be more peace-seeking and less teeth-gnashing when I feel angry about "the injustice of life" in my particular circumstances and in the body I live in
.
~
And also
https://www.bustle.com/articles/199496-dyke-fats-sketch-returns-to-snl-to-show-women-deserve-respect-in-the-workplace-at
http://www.thewrap.com/snl-john-cena-shows-us-how-donald-trump-sees-himself/
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/There's_No_One_as_Irish_as_Barack_O'Bama
alimentary
xy: hey. how do you get an english major off your front porch.
xx: how.
xy: you pay for the pizza.
xx:
xx: fuck you.
xx: how.
xy: you pay for the pizza.
xx:
xx: fuck you.
When a story comes back...
I read a story years ago and I was like, gosh, such detail about the microwave meal; it sticks with me. I forgot the name of the story and I forgot the author but I remembered that meal.
And then, the story came back...
"FOR DINNER JADE MICROWAVES some Stars-n-Flags. They're addictive. They put sugar in the sauce and sugar in the meat nuggets. I think also caffeine. Someone told me the brown streaks in the Flags are caffeine. We have like five bowls each."
Sea Oak by George Saunders
And then, the story came back...
"FOR DINNER JADE MICROWAVES some Stars-n-Flags. They're addictive. They put sugar in the sauce and sugar in the meat nuggets. I think also caffeine. Someone told me the brown streaks in the Flags are caffeine. We have like five bowls each."
Sea Oak by George Saunders
environmental thoughts
The Trump administration is going to have to stock up on
scientists and administrators who are savvy to this game, and they are
going to be very hard to find, as there’s very little incentive to not
play along.
There’s going to have to be a massive effort
to pick apart failing climate models and questionably-adjusted data.
They’re going to have to find people willing to expose the current
regime’s blatant abuse of logic in generating inflated “costs” of global
warming, while largely ignoring the co-benefits of fossil fuel power,
like doubled life expectancy and undreamt-of wealth.
http://thehill.com/blogs/pundits-blog/energy-environment/309484-trumps-epa-pick-will-make-obama-regret-his
In a statement released Thursday from his transition team, Trump said:
"For
too long, the Environmental Protection Agency has spent taxpayer
dollars on an out-of-control anti-energy agenda that has destroyed
millions of jobs, while also undermining our incredible farmers and many
other businesses and industries at every turn."
In that same release, Pruitt claimed that:
"The American people are tired of seeing billions of dollars drained from our economy due to unnecessary EPA regulations."
Are the costs of reducing the global and national health burden due to unhealthy environments too great?
To the contrary: several studies show that environmental regulations save us far more than they cost. Not only do they prevent premature deaths, but such regulations help us avoid heart attacks, respiratory illness, hospital and emergency room visits and lost work days.
On top of that, these regulations often create jobs.
http://thehill.com/blogs/pundits-blog/energy-environment/309808-dismantling-epa-regulations-hurts-both-health-and
Then there's this.
Trump, Mocking Claim That Russia Hacked Election, at Odds with G.O.P.
Well, maybe things will improve.
People can change people can change people can change.
another type of tolerance
This year, some were so tolerant that they lowered the bar.
They showed they would tolerate immaturity and disrespectful behavior and discrimination, just as long as it behooved them to do so.
I guess you could say some of that was a disappointment.
They showed they would tolerate immaturity and disrespectful behavior and discrimination, just as long as it behooved them to do so.
I guess you could say some of that was a disappointment.
Buffet of topics
It's late...CIA...Russia...Oil....What Women Really Think of Men?
“Trump is a narcissist,” a middle-aged white woman in East Stroudsburg, Pa., told me in the early evening on Election Day. “I know,” she added, “because my husband is one, too.” She said she disliked both candidates, but she voted for Mr. Trump.
~ What Women Really Think of Men by Irin Carmon
Ah, this was an interesting phrase:
So what if Mr. Trump is known to have crassly assessed women based solely on whether he, Mr. Trump, found them attractive, or that he has shamed women for breast-feeding or gaining weight? That’s men. That’s your husband, your father, your brother, your son.
“I cherish women,” Mr. Trump has said. But this is not the same as recognizing women’s equal humanity. As Ruth Bader Ginsburg, quoting a California judicial opinion, told the Supreme Court in 1971, “the pedestal upon which women have been placed has all too often, upon closer inspection, been revealed as a cage.” When we declare that men will always be brutes and women can only shrug from on high, we engage in what President George W. Bush once called the soft bigotry of low expectations.
~ What Women Really Think of Men by Irin Carmon
“Trump is a narcissist,” a middle-aged white woman in East Stroudsburg, Pa., told me in the early evening on Election Day. “I know,” she added, “because my husband is one, too.” She said she disliked both candidates, but she voted for Mr. Trump.
~ What Women Really Think of Men by Irin Carmon
Ah, this was an interesting phrase:
"the soft bigotry of low expectations."
So what if Mr. Trump is known to have crassly assessed women based solely on whether he, Mr. Trump, found them attractive, or that he has shamed women for breast-feeding or gaining weight? That’s men. That’s your husband, your father, your brother, your son.
“I cherish women,” Mr. Trump has said. But this is not the same as recognizing women’s equal humanity. As Ruth Bader Ginsburg, quoting a California judicial opinion, told the Supreme Court in 1971, “the pedestal upon which women have been placed has all too often, upon closer inspection, been revealed as a cage.” When we declare that men will always be brutes and women can only shrug from on high, we engage in what President George W. Bush once called the soft bigotry of low expectations.
~ What Women Really Think of Men by Irin Carmon
Friday, December 09, 2016
les changements
The little device of information (the phone) died.
That could be a good thing, actually.
How did I find it?
It's something.
Good.
Thursday, December 08, 2016
Other advice
"WikiLeaks, Alex Jones, and the sub-Reddit sub-geniuses — and I mean this in the nicest way possible - grow the fuck up."
~ Pizzagate Is An Alt-Right Fever Dream (Colbert)
and maybe one day that can also include
Trump’s Labor Secretary Pick: ‘I Like Beautiful Women Eating Burgers In Bikinis’
~ Pizzagate Is An Alt-Right Fever Dream (Colbert)
and maybe one day that can also include
Trump’s Labor Secretary Pick: ‘I Like Beautiful Women Eating Burgers In Bikinis’
How does this end?
She is still being harrassed today.
"About a year ago, 18-year-old college student Lauren Batchelder stood up at a political forum in New Hampshire and told Donald Trump that she didn’t think he was 'a friend to women.'
The next morning, Trump fired back on Twitter — calling Batchelder an “arrogant young woman” and accusing her of being a “plant” from a rival campaign. Her phone began ringing with callers leaving threatening messages that were often sexual in nature. Her Facebook and email inboxes filled with similar messages. As her addresses circulated on social media and her photo flashed on the news, she fled home to hide."
The next morning, Trump fired back on Twitter — calling Batchelder an “arrogant young woman” and accusing her of being a “plant” from a rival campaign. Her phone began ringing with callers leaving threatening messages that were often sexual in nature. Her Facebook and email inboxes filled with similar messages. As her addresses circulated on social media and her photo flashed on the news, she fled home to hide."
"The fast-food industry is not known as a particularly good place for women. Yet a stunning 70 percent of the front-line, low-wage jobs in fast food are held by women. "
One can always
FANGIRL
MS. BLUMENSTEIN: I have to ask about WikiLeaks. You told NPR in August, “These emails were clearly leaked for a reason, and they were leaked, I believe, to achieve an effect.” What can you tell us?
ADM. ROGERS: There’s an ongoing investigation. I’m just not getting into the specifics. I still think there shouldn’t be any doubt in anybody’s mind. This was not something done casually. This was not something done by chance. This was not a target that was selected purely arbitrarily. This was a conscious effort by a nation-state to attempt to achieve a specific effect."
~ http://www.wsj.com/articles/nsa-chief-michael-rogers-talks-cybersecurity-1479784142
OVER
“'Second, when he was asked in the second or third debate about his views on cyber, I think it’s fair to say he displayed — he did not have a deep knowledge of the subject,' Mr. Hayden added, recalling that Mr. Trump instead responded from the debate stage by discussing his 10-year-old son’s interest in computers."
~ http://www.washingtontimes.com/news/2016/dec/8/former-cia-director-very-concerned-trumps-cybersec/
MR. ROBOT
Again again again?
Are we going back to any particular year when America was GREAT?
“'I do politely mention to them the question isn’t would you take the job, the male sitting across from me who’s going to take a big job in the White House. The question is would you want your wife to,' Conway said, describing conversations she’s had with male colleagues. 'Would you want the mother of children to? You really see their entire visage change. It’s like, oh, no, they wouldn’t want their wife to take that job.'”
~~~~~
JUST CURIOUS.
Because it's different from what she was saying month ago...
"It’s like, ‘Oh, no, they wouldn’t want their wife to take that job.’ But it’s, it’s all good.”
It’s not all good, Kellyanne!
They could have said: 'Kellyanne, if my wife had the opportunity to work in a powerful position in the White House, I’d scale back my career for a few years and support her and take on more of the burden at home. Maybe your husband can do that.'"
"Or, maybe they could say, 'Kellyanne, you’ve been a key member of the team. We will make sure you get the flexibility to make this work.'
Instead, their apparently uniform reaction makes it clear that in Trumpland, the burden of parenting always falls on the mother. She will always be the one to pull back at work. The idea that a mother could perhaps share parenting responsibilities with a partner or, god forbid, look to social policy for support is not on the table.
There is only one table. Men sit at it. The end."
Wednesday, December 07, 2016
Helpful people
They happened to be present this evening! NICE.
I have felt pangs as if wrong turns were taken,
but I also have gratitude for helpful people,
helpful energy, and
helpfulness.
I have felt pangs as if wrong turns were taken,
but I also have gratitude for helpful people,
helpful energy, and
helpfulness.
Tuesday, December 06, 2016
Surprised
This guy is going to be in the area tomorrow and I would be interested in hearing about his experiences but I will be presenting my group project and will not be going...I actually do feel kind of hopeful. I've certainly had moments of despondence recently and throughout this past year. I had kind of ignored it, but while I was driving I started remembering an image I woke up with. It was like a painting of a Native American woman with her eyes closed (as if in deep meditation) and there were about 17,000 soldiers or veterans or troops inside of her. (Why 17,000? I don't know. Why not?) "Counting the tears of ten thousand men..." It's making me try to look at things in a "bigger picture" kind of way. That song made me look up magpies and I found Magpie the Film. I think the image could have been a painting or it could have been like a large sheet of stained glass where you don't necessarily see all those troops but you just know that they are there.
Hoping for better future alternatives
It is painful to know that some people think it's okay to discriminate or alienate certain people just to preserve their own ego.
It's painful especially when they seemed capable of being so much better than that (and you wanted to convince yourself that they would choose to be better.)
However, I can guess why...
(It doesn't hurt them as much, for one.)
And I can guess why some women still tolerate sexist behavior...
(They find ways to make excuses for it,
They feel it's safer to make excuses for it
not all types of that kind of behavior impact people equally,
especially if it's of the "benevolent" variety)
But it's really incredible that it still occurs on the scale that it does.
It's painful especially when they seemed capable of being so much better than that (and you wanted to convince yourself that they would choose to be better.)
However, I can guess why...
(It doesn't hurt them as much, for one.)
And I can guess why some women still tolerate sexist behavior...
(They find ways to make excuses for it,
They feel it's safer to make excuses for it
not all types of that kind of behavior impact people equally,
especially if it's of the "benevolent" variety)
But it's really incredible that it still occurs on the scale that it does.
I know some things
Earlier I made a list.
Could call it "emo-greetings."
happy hello
optimistic bye
hopeful hello
wistful bye
worried hello
angry bye
sad hello
hurt bye
tired hello
And all the feelings of injustice (real! real!) also signify a feeling of loss, as if a wish for friendship got thwarted and instead the paltry replacement was abandonment.
Oh, oh, oh. Oh. Oh.
And now perhaps sleep will come...
Monday, December 05, 2016
How - how - how
How tired. How sad. How so.
Life's mysterious stories.
Go to bed and knit something.
Go curl up with a book.
And fall asleep.
sandwiches plus!
"A gregarious woman of fifty-six, Debra Bosolet wore an oversized T-shirt and fuzzy pink slippers. “I made some little turkey-and-cheese sandwiches,” she said, taking a plate out of the refrigerator. While Torres sat in a corner, checking his BlackBerry, she explained to me that she had named her son for Ritchie Valens, having seen the movie “La Bamba” when she was pregnant.
“She named me after a promising young man who died at seventeen,” Torres said.
“But he is remembered to this day,” Bosolet told him. “Lucky I didn’t name you Reuben, after the sandwich.” She gave that name to his brother, after discovering the sandwich at Roy Rogers during her pregnancy."
~http://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2016/12/12/fighting-for-the-poor-under-trump
...and then...
It was suggested I listen to a whimsical song by a band who will be playing on that singer's birthday...
“She named me after a promising young man who died at seventeen,” Torres said.
“But he is remembered to this day,” Bosolet told him. “Lucky I didn’t name you Reuben, after the sandwich.” She gave that name to his brother, after discovering the sandwich at Roy Rogers during her pregnancy."
~http://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2016/12/12/fighting-for-the-poor-under-trump
...and then...
It was suggested I listen to a whimsical song by a band who will be playing on that singer's birthday...
random reactions
"A team of 12 angels guides me every time I write a column..."
~http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/opinion/huppke/ct-trump-illegal-votes-huppke-20161205-story.html
(I dunno if he's being too facetious about the angels?)
"Meanwhile, Doner — who had 20 years of experience working for wine vendors, and was at “the top of [her] game” while working for Trump National — said managers slowly cut back her shifts until they stopped scheduling her at all, “effectively firing [her].”
“It did not appear to me that this reduction in shifts was happening to any of the younger, more attractive female food servers," Doner said. She added: “I chose not to fight to get my job back because by that point I was fed up with the toxic environment and the way that I was treated.”
~http://www.latimes.com/projects/la-na-pol-trump-women/
(Could you suggest to a person to cover oneself in paper, stare in the mirror, blast "Gold Digger" and "Rich Bitch" simultaneously, and eat oneself as a sandwich.)
~http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/opinion/huppke/ct-trump-illegal-votes-huppke-20161205-story.html
(I dunno if he's being too facetious about the angels?)
"Meanwhile, Doner — who had 20 years of experience working for wine vendors, and was at “the top of [her] game” while working for Trump National — said managers slowly cut back her shifts until they stopped scheduling her at all, “effectively firing [her].”
“It did not appear to me that this reduction in shifts was happening to any of the younger, more attractive female food servers," Doner said. She added: “I chose not to fight to get my job back because by that point I was fed up with the toxic environment and the way that I was treated.”
~http://www.latimes.com/projects/la-na-pol-trump-women/
(Could you suggest to a person to cover oneself in paper, stare in the mirror, blast "Gold Digger" and "Rich Bitch" simultaneously, and eat oneself as a sandwich.)
Oh well anything's possible
Maybe climate change deniers are right or something.
http://www.whitewolfpack.com/2015/04/earth-has-shifted-inuit-elders-issue.html
Maybe.
Maybe not.
Maybe.
Maybe not.
Maybe both.
Who knows.
http://www.whitewolfpack.com/2015/04/earth-has-shifted-inuit-elders-issue.html
Maybe.
Maybe not.
Maybe.
Maybe not.
Maybe both.
Who knows.
Parental guidance
Dads and moms who care for their offspring (one would assume) elect a disrespectful man who stirs up hateful behavior. And then he pisses off China before he even takes office. And "if she wasn't his own daughter, he would be dating her." And Nazis love him. But yay he will bring the jobs back.
Awesome judgement, Americans.
Awesome judgement, Americans.
Driving dream
I had a dream I was in a car with a good god-fearing Christian woman who drove us careening all over in traffic. I pleaded with her to pull over and offered to drive instead. She finally did pull over, but seemed to not get that it was unfair for her to put both our lives in danger. I told her I never even felt that way in high school when someone was driving. It felt she was being reckless and irresponsible. She seemed slow to understand why I might think this.
Interpretation: A belief that older women who subscribe to patriarchal values might not know when they are putting other lives in danger?
Interpretation: A belief that older women who subscribe to patriarchal values might not know when they are putting other lives in danger?
An experience in a time
Love of learning pulled you to explore more about new areas. It was good at first. Even if little things bothered you here and there.
Who wants to learn and grow?
What incentive do they have to do so?
What's in it for them?
Some people expect you to be fine with a culture of bias. It hurts. They don't want you to tell them that. Instead they want you to confirm a certain worldview back to them. When you won't do so, they send back a message. They won't look into your eyes. They seem insulted you expected more out of them.
Somehow, some grown up men act like children who get a twisted pleasure out of being crude and degrading. It was unnecessary.
Women who have to echo back a specific point of view in order to survive or thrive in a certain environment don't have incentive to help a person who gets disconnected due to not fitting in. They don't want to be that outcast one. They want to fit in to succeed.
Even today...in 2016...people electing a bully who degrades women with other women cheering him on..
A sick feeling occurs because of what gets communicated. Others chose to devalue you just because you were not buying what they were selling. You couldn't buy it. You didn't have the means to buy it. It wasn't healthy for you.
There were some who would not or could not or chose not to try to see... It just got warped somehow. What do you do after that?
Who wants to learn and grow?
What incentive do they have to do so?
What's in it for them?
Some people expect you to be fine with a culture of bias. It hurts. They don't want you to tell them that. Instead they want you to confirm a certain worldview back to them. When you won't do so, they send back a message. They won't look into your eyes. They seem insulted you expected more out of them.
Somehow, some grown up men act like children who get a twisted pleasure out of being crude and degrading. It was unnecessary.
Women who have to echo back a specific point of view in order to survive or thrive in a certain environment don't have incentive to help a person who gets disconnected due to not fitting in. They don't want to be that outcast one. They want to fit in to succeed.
Even today...in 2016...people electing a bully who degrades women with other women cheering him on..
A sick feeling occurs because of what gets communicated. Others chose to devalue you just because you were not buying what they were selling. You couldn't buy it. You didn't have the means to buy it. It wasn't healthy for you.
There were some who would not or could not or chose not to try to see... It just got warped somehow. What do you do after that?