Wednesday, August 31, 2016
Film clip
So I don't know much about Burden of Dreams (directed by the same guy who did a film about garlic) but I did watch one clip and to me it seemed like a woman was interviewing W.H. and it also seemed like I started laughing at the exact moment she did (adult woman's laughter from the early 80s and mine in 2016 coinciding briefly):
Burden of Dreams: The birds don't sing... Except I just watched it again and I now don't know why I thought that? I didn't hear the laugh, and I didn't laugh. The first time it was like a quiet involuntary reaction and some noise in the film seemed to echo it...I don't know. It seemed that way the first time I saw it, which startled me.
Tuesday, August 30, 2016
transitional
After the castor oil pack (oh the tormenting worries about pangs and health), attended a function then felt a bit drained & almost turned down but actually accepted an invite for a beer (ha, accidentally typed mirror, why?) & was surprised to meet a woman my age and the same horoscope sign who said she first loved Biology but went in another direction "because of philosophical differences" so got a degree in English and has managed to find a satisfying library paraprofessional job without an advanced degree and now there's some plans to go rollerskating (is that actual fun). Also this was recommended to me: Burden of Dreams. Was that a normal pleasant evening? How did it happen? It just did. The cat purrs aggressively and takes every opportunity to dominate the mouse and the keyboard. I seek some quiet time now.
Lighter
I have to kind of...breathe in and think of light sometimes so I can get more clear on how to address certain health issues.
Breathe
Light
Needed to...
Look up a favorite artist and she has a new song coming out soon for a documentary.
Audrie & Daisy
Monday, August 29, 2016
Calyxes in the night...
Calyxes...(I prefer the visuals of the singular, because for some reason the plural brings up a lot of marijuana pictures...) Willie Nelson & Julio Iglesias...To all the calyxes I've loved before....
Thank you for taking out the trash!
I have to go try to heal my mouth now.
Thank you for taking out the trash!
I have to go try to heal my mouth now.
Living a life...
I have a toothache on the upper back right side of my mouth...I looked at The Second Mrs. Giaconda. It's interesting. It's fiction. I could believe it has some truths...It's the work of E.L. Konisburg. She wrote The Mixed Up Files... That book! I liked two pictures in the back of The Second Mrs...I could finally see the little hands holding the handkerchief on the bust of Beatrice D'Este. And now I can see them online, here... Click on the picture. Click again. Then click on 100%. Those are the hands...the handkerchief...the pollen or grain...because the way it is...is...attention to details is beautiful. It's almost like when you eat something you love and you are enjoying all the flavor and texture. I can feel like that when finally seeing the details in a sculpture that I wanted to see...I also wanted to look at Thoreau on the UU website. Click, it got bigger. Two large pictures on the internet. I went back and forth between them. The other I liked was the Leonardo sketch of the Star of Bethlehem flower. And now I have to attend to the toothache. I got a package of essences in the mail. I haven't used them yet. I still need to unwrap them. They cost a lot. But after I bought them, I also got an offer of some petsitting jobs. Those might eventually cover the costs.
Sunday, August 28, 2016
Ballet & Ukulele
Unloading dishwasher accompaniment...
Since, for whatever reason, the music was sort of meandering through my mind again, I looked up Swan Lake finale (there are lots of alternate endings) and also remembered it was at the end of Black Swan (ballerina bleeding to death "I was perfect...")
But I had forgotten another Swan Lake finale at the end of Billy Elliot!
I also found a rather eerie version of Purple People. A ukulele can be eerie.
Since, for whatever reason, the music was sort of meandering through my mind again, I looked up Swan Lake finale (there are lots of alternate endings) and also remembered it was at the end of Black Swan (ballerina bleeding to death "I was perfect...")
But I had forgotten another Swan Lake finale at the end of Billy Elliot!
I also found a rather eerie version of Purple People. A ukulele can be eerie.
This is...fun?
http://www.calorieking.com/calories-in-grapes.html
You can select your grapes and get an estimate of how much you need to walk or bike or swim or whatever...
144 minutes of walking for a Panera bearclaw
And even for peanut marzipan...
That's based on the average metabolism or whatever that means...
You can select your grapes and get an estimate of how much you need to walk or bike or swim or whatever...
144 minutes of walking for a Panera bearclaw
And even for peanut marzipan...
That's based on the average metabolism or whatever that means...
Olympians
I liked reading about the Olympic maestros of two sports I don't know much about: WRESTLING and JUDO.
This story about Helen Maroulis was almost funny, as it talked about how she tried a lot of different sports before finding the best one for her:
https://www.pressboxonline.com/2016/08/26/helen-maroulis-from-timid-and-shy-to-olympic-gold-medalist
Also she had to diet very strictly to qualify for the weight class at the Olympic level :
"Every night, she would dread the final six hours of the day before she went to sleep, because she was so hungry."
http://www.freep.com/story/sports/columnists/jeff-seidel/2016/08/18/rio-olympics-wrestling-helen-maroulis/88980316/
There is also Kayla Harrison...And for whatever combination of reasons, she did better in a higher weight class.
I thought it was interesting. I might not really understand exactly how that works in competitive sports. But it's interesting...
This stood out to me, and so did this:
"That was so powerful to me, that my speaking out or sharing my story can affect someone that much and give them hope. To me, that's bigger and better than any gold medal will ever be."
http://www.espn.com/espnw/voices/article/16998379/the-conversation-kayla-harrison-first-american-win-gold-olympic-judo
I don't think it detracts from her excellence. It's how she felt and it doesn't detract because she still wants to succeed, and clearly she can still appreciate her medal.
Gold medals for both US athletes.
This story about Helen Maroulis was almost funny, as it talked about how she tried a lot of different sports before finding the best one for her:
https://www.pressboxonline.com/2016/08/26/helen-maroulis-from-timid-and-shy-to-olympic-gold-medalist
Also she had to diet very strictly to qualify for the weight class at the Olympic level :
"Every night, she would dread the final six hours of the day before she went to sleep, because she was so hungry."
http://www.freep.com/story/sports/columnists/jeff-seidel/2016/08/18/rio-olympics-wrestling-helen-maroulis/88980316/
~~~~~
There is also Kayla Harrison...And for whatever combination of reasons, she did better in a higher weight class.
KH: I think growing up, especially for young girls in judo or in weight-cutting sports, it's really difficult. You're told the lighter you are, the better you'll fight.
AG: But you don't agree with that.
KH: No I don't. When I teach clinics, when I talk to young girls anywhere, I tell them, "Look, I don't cut weight anymore. I eat like 6,000 calories a day. What I truly believe is that if you're going to win, you'll win at whatever weight you fight." I always preach that strong is beautiful, strong is powerful and you shouldn't change your body for sport, for society, for anything.
http://www.espn.com/espnw/voices/article/16998379/the-conversation-kayla-harrison-first-american-win-gold-olympic-judoI thought it was interesting. I might not really understand exactly how that works in competitive sports. But it's interesting...
This stood out to me, and so did this:
"That was so powerful to me, that my speaking out or sharing my story can affect someone that much and give them hope. To me, that's bigger and better than any gold medal will ever be."
http://www.espn.com/espnw/voices/article/16998379/the-conversation-kayla-harrison-first-american-win-gold-olympic-judo
I don't think it detracts from her excellence. It's how she felt and it doesn't detract because she still wants to succeed, and clearly she can still appreciate her medal.
Gold medals for both US athletes.
Beauty...
I feel beauty if I am more tapped into healing energies. Tonight I had been very low, but then I realized I didn't want anyone to feel that way, including myself. And I began noticing very kind and pleasant people in the store. At the checkout though, a woman who clearly felt unwell and was losing her voice wanted to go home. I hoped she could get the rest she needed.
I enjoyed pleasant company and watched a beautiful movie. I also felt the reoccurence of twinges of discomfort in an area that I dreamed about, and that stirred up some fear, but I reminded myself that this can show me how important it is to tap into healing energies. I don't know why it's easy to get off track but I want to remind myself there's a lot of healing energy in the universe. There is. People can tsp into it more. Even if you lose the way and get off the path, you can find your way back.
I enjoyed pleasant company and watched a beautiful movie. I also felt the reoccurence of twinges of discomfort in an area that I dreamed about, and that stirred up some fear, but I reminded myself that this can show me how important it is to tap into healing energies. I don't know why it's easy to get off track but I want to remind myself there's a lot of healing energy in the universe. There is. People can tsp into it more. Even if you lose the way and get off the path, you can find your way back.
Saturday, August 27, 2016
but there are spoons
in this
http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/
and also this...which is sort of more of a ramble...but there's a big flower in the background
I just finished eating a plum and for a minute something smelled like the cleanser they might use at a daycare or school for little kids...my senses may have been confused...
http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/
and also this...which is sort of more of a ramble...but there's a big flower in the background
I just finished eating a plum and for a minute something smelled like the cleanser they might use at a daycare or school for little kids...my senses may have been confused...
People can be helpful
People who are not you and who have their own problems that aren't yours can be helpful.
Really. If you haven't lived my life, had my experiences, or lived in my body, then how exactly do you know how well or not well I am handling things at the moment?
Nevertheless, people can be helpful.
Really. If you haven't lived my life, had my experiences, or lived in my body, then how exactly do you know how well or not well I am handling things at the moment?
Nevertheless, people can be helpful.
Not the happiest scenario
If I ever hear any one who works with pesticides at all making fun of people with fertility issues, it definitely can make ne feel like I am not in wise company.
Others may spread pesticides as much as they think fit but even if they have kids and they think this is proof they don't harm people, what about their own kids or other people's? Have they thought of that?
I have a personal issue if I hear that sort of thing...dx'd with PCOS. Why, well. Do my parents have that issue? Not to my knowledge. But I have it anyway. Why?
That's why it's better not to make fun of people with health issues you don't have. It's especially hurtful if your livelihood involves chemically altering the environment.
Others may spread pesticides as much as they think fit but even if they have kids and they think this is proof they don't harm people, what about their own kids or other people's? Have they thought of that?
I have a personal issue if I hear that sort of thing...dx'd with PCOS. Why, well. Do my parents have that issue? Not to my knowledge. But I have it anyway. Why?
That's why it's better not to make fun of people with health issues you don't have. It's especially hurtful if your livelihood involves chemically altering the environment.
The difficult
I like this Ida Maria song: Boogie With The Devil's Soul
She's being difficult.
A while ago, I saw some people online bitching that she'd gained a bit of weight (gaspity gasp!)
Oh...difficult.
The cat I live with likes to eat but only small portions. She remains tiny. She likes to jump on the desk. She likes to lick my hand. I'd rather she not do that. She knows. She tries to anyway.
Difficult.
DIFFICULT!!!!!
She's being difficult.
A while ago, I saw some people online bitching that she'd gained a bit of weight (gaspity gasp!)
Oh...difficult.
The cat I live with likes to eat but only small portions. She remains tiny. She likes to jump on the desk. She likes to lick my hand. I'd rather she not do that. She knows. She tries to anyway.
Difficult.
DIFFICULT!!!!!
I have a wish/want
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
Basically, I want the car to be nice to me until next Saturday.
But it's okay if it's nice on Saturday too.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
I want my car to run well this week.
Basically, I want the car to be nice to me until next Saturday.
But it's okay if it's nice on Saturday too.
alternative activity
I couldn't get into the library because the power went out so maybe I'll poke around here....
Hmmm.
https://hopejahrensurecanwrite.com/2015/01/23/in-defense-of-the-trigger-warning/
Hmmm.
https://hopejahrensurecanwrite.com/2013/11/22/marie-curie-was-a-difficult-woman/
Hmmm.
https://hopejahrensurecanwrite.com/2015/01/23/in-defense-of-the-trigger-warning/
Hmmm.
https://hopejahrensurecanwrite.com/2013/11/22/marie-curie-was-a-difficult-woman/
~~~~~
Oh oh oh oh oh
That poem!
I met the poet when I was younger and I asked her to sign that poem and she did give me a weird look but she did it and I do not regret it.
How to have a medical dream and then wake up
Dream that you have to tell someone you have a medical issue and you don't know what it is or what to do about it, and then feel some kind of lump or something almost sharp that you can poke like a piece of bone in your abdomen and make someone else touch it...someone else kind of freaks out: what is that??? You don't know. But it's proof that something is happening...then wake up...poke the same spot...that is not real life, at the moment...
Oh, power
I went to turn in Valley of the Moon and pick up Lab Girl, but I couldn't do the latter because the power went out. Then my car, which has the check engine light on again (and it's always the same thing, and the mechanic resets it, so I haven't gone back yet) almost didn't start again...
Oh, life.
I liked Valley...
Oh, life.
I liked Valley...
Not really a game show
"If your modus operandi included showering us with lots of compliments and reassurances all the time, perhaps we would have been more receptive to your ideas.
That's how we like women to act.
Moreover, we expect women to give 5x more emotional support than we expect of men.
Women are supposed to smile indulgently on us in all things.
No offense, but you're not a man and we will always have this expectation of you, even if we are unconcious of it."
Sometimes that kind of sentiment can come through the mouth of a woman, too...
Oh, dreams
I had dreams of being in a place affected by earthquake...oh...
"Earthquake scientist Lucy Jones said central Italy is the California of Europe..."
http://abcnews.go.com/International/amatrice-town-hard-hit-italys-earthquake/story?id=41616175
Also I had been reading Valley of the Moon which is partly about earthquakes.
https://www.kirkusreviews.com/book-reviews/melanie-gideon/valley-of-the-moon/
One time just recently I was listening to the end of Swan Lake in a parking lot and noticed I was unusually affected and felt a pang... when I got out of the car, two people were hugging and seemed to be crying... maybe some of that was what I was feeling...
"Earthquake scientist Lucy Jones said central Italy is the California of Europe..."
http://abcnews.go.com/International/amatrice-town-hard-hit-italys-earthquake/story?id=41616175
Also I had been reading Valley of the Moon which is partly about earthquakes.
https://www.kirkusreviews.com/book-reviews/melanie-gideon/valley-of-the-moon/
One time just recently I was listening to the end of Swan Lake in a parking lot and noticed I was unusually affected and felt a pang... when I got out of the car, two people were hugging and seemed to be crying... maybe some of that was what I was feeling...
Friday, August 26, 2016
Erm
EYES
"Eyes that had been looking at me affectionately all evening became fearful and he asked, “Do you think you’ll ever gain it back?”
&
EARS
"...I hear about it in one form or another almost every day."
Thursday, August 25, 2016
dinner
++++++++++++++++++++++made a very simple causa de atun...
maybe this would be interesting to try sometime
if wanting to be more fancy...
https://dulceandsalado.com/tag/causa/
maybe this would be interesting to try sometime
if wanting to be more fancy...
https://dulceandsalado.com/tag/causa/
por otra mano...
It really does make me feel like I have inherited some kind of history, genetic makeup, body, etc. that will not let me just go along with old bad practices just because they make some people money, and it makes me feel both sad and angry that people let money dictate how they conduct themselves when it could be much, much better...not to mention various instances of old-fashioned "benevolent sexism" and not-so-benevolent sexism...well, it will not do to get overly angry, since that will probably just make me feel worse in a number of ways including physical ones, and I will "only be hurting myself..." but poisoning the environment and creating problems for people and being sexist just to preserve some old-fashioned way of life is not something that I can be in support of right now...it's as if I"m not allowed. Literally. As if, even if I wanted to just "go along" I am simply not allowed. And yet, apparently others are allowed. And want things to be that way.
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
Hey now...
Pretty crappy morning...
Pretty much improved end of the day!!!
Cooked steak for the first time (it was alright...)
THE ALL PINK JOKE
http://thelaughbutton.com/features/creators-airplane-pulled-off-one-funniest-jokes-weve-ever-heard/ My steak definitely was not.
I am grateful because I love feeling better!!!! I'm going to watch...
Made In Dagenham
Hiii Rupert!!!
Freddie's nonsense song in A Room With A View
Cooked steak for the first time (it was alright...)
THE ALL PINK JOKE
http://thelaughbutton.com/features/creators-airplane-pulled-off-one-funniest-jokes-weve-ever-heard/ My steak definitely was not.
I am grateful because I love feeling better!!!! I'm going to watch...
Made In Dagenham
Hiii Rupert!!!
Freddie's nonsense song in A Room With A View
Monday, August 22, 2016
I
I'm in pain.
I deserve healing.
I deserve to never have cramps this severe ever ever ever again.
It's a thing I have endured for too long.
I am wanting peace and relief
After that I threw up 3x. This is not food poisoning (I guess I can be grateful.) I am feeling like the cramps are subsiding. Still not a good feeling.
I am grateful.
I don't usually get sick. Pain is the worst. If there is anything about throwing up that makes the pain leave sooner then that's good but thank God for bedside wastebaskets.
But this is not a way I want to live.
This is what says, "You must focus on peace and healing above all other things."
Sunday, August 21, 2016
TTs
Penelope Jagessar Chaffer and Tyrone Hayes Ted Talk: "...chemicals in our body that our grandparents didn't have..."(1:00)
Miranda Bonds Ted Talk: "It's not just endometriosis...these illnesses...are massively on the rise..."(2-3:00)
Please enjoy...
What? Please enjoy what?? I think you have me confused for the person I was at my teenage weight! You pay attention to outside messages too much. That is true.
Sigh
Why did you click on Its Important To Stay Skinny...
I certainly hope neither of them ever gets a serious health problem, at least not one that would jeopardize skinniness and marathons. I also hope they stay far away from anything that might contribute to hormone imbalances, and therefore to FAT.
"Marshall, I am sorry you were dx'd with (insert name of disappointing disease here). I must file those papers now. I am leaving you for my personal trainer. The skinny one..."
"Did you know your grandmother was sizest?" "Oh well. It was very common back then. It was a different time..."
I certainly hope neither of them ever gets a serious health problem, at least not one that would jeopardize skinniness and marathons. I also hope they stay far away from anything that might contribute to hormone imbalances, and therefore to FAT.
"Marshall, I am sorry you were dx'd with (insert name of disappointing disease here). I must file those papers now. I am leaving you for my personal trainer. The skinny one..."
"Did you know your grandmother was sizest?" "Oh well. It was very common back then. It was a different time..."
Stuff she thinks about
I got there because of looking up Palma Christi.
http://www.myendocoach.com/castor-oil-packs/
Pain can motivate a person to investigate some things...
http://www.myendocoach.com/dangers-of-atrazine/
http://www.myendocoach.com/pesticides-are-a-major-cause-of-infertility/
This made me smile:
"We must take care about the language we use because that affects us way more than we realise."
"In my house my daughter is like the language police, if I start saying something negative she will call me on it straight away."
http://www.myendocoach.com/dealing-with-endometriosis/
http://www.myendocoach.com/castor-oil-packs/
~~~
Pain can motivate a person to investigate some things...
http://www.myendocoach.com/dangers-of-atrazine/
http://www.myendocoach.com/pesticides-are-a-major-cause-of-infertility/
~~~
This made me smile:
"We must take care about the language we use because that affects us way more than we realise."
"In my house my daughter is like the language police, if I start saying something negative she will call me on it straight away."
http://www.myendocoach.com/dealing-with-endometriosis/
Saturday, August 20, 2016
Medical news
This is horrible:
"The rate of Texas women who died from complications related to pregnancy doubled from 2010 to 2014, a new study has found, for an estimated maternal mortality rate that is unmatched in any other state and the rest of the developed world."
"...they noted that starting in 2011, Texas drastically reduced the number of women’s health clinics within its borders."
~ https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2016/aug/20/texas-maternal-mortality-rate-health-clinics-funding
It could improve...
"Wendy Davis, the woman whose 11-hour filibuster focused national attention on Texas’ efforts to restrict abortion access in 2013, celebrated Monday when the Supreme Court ruled that the state law was unconstitutional."
~ http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/wendy-davis-abortion-filibuster_us_5771371de4b017b379f677a2
"The rate of Texas women who died from complications related to pregnancy doubled from 2010 to 2014, a new study has found, for an estimated maternal mortality rate that is unmatched in any other state and the rest of the developed world."
"...they noted that starting in 2011, Texas drastically reduced the number of women’s health clinics within its borders."
~ https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2016/aug/20/texas-maternal-mortality-rate-health-clinics-funding
It could improve...
"Wendy Davis, the woman whose 11-hour filibuster focused national attention on Texas’ efforts to restrict abortion access in 2013, celebrated Monday when the Supreme Court ruled that the state law was unconstitutional."
~ http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/wendy-davis-abortion-filibuster_us_5771371de4b017b379f677a2
well again
I was trying to find the scene of the Portuguese travelers being shipwrecked on the beach but I just realized Jesus of TBL was in Being Human?
This is a review. It is part of the slo review movement.
Some are good...
She seems like...
http://variety.com/2016/biz/news/amber-heard-divorce-settlement-johnny-depp-charity-1201840577/
Commendable.
http://variety.com/2016/biz/news/amber-heard-divorce-settlement-johnny-depp-charity-1201840577/
Commendable.
Golly
This is far more detailed than those signs that say things like "beer colder than your ex-girlfriend's heart"
There's a red one too!
"Angry Wife White 2015
After years of repeated requests, Claudio Ponte released his Owner’s Reserve: The Angry Wife. Every harvest Claudio and friends get together to make wine from our best grapes. The blend changes from year to year and is never disclosed. Named for the ex-wife of one of Claudio's friends, The Angry Wife White is a favorite of Wine Club Members for its refreshing flavor and entertaining history. The Angry Wife asked her husband to choose between her and the wine... We are sure going to miss her!"
I guess the years pass and the joke never grows old...There's a red one too!
Funny idea
This morning it occurred to me that sometimes I would like to create an alter ego named Wanda (Why Wanda? Why not?) who can go out and get stuff done for me if I need to lie under a pack and chew ginger for a little while. Even if I made unwise eating choices (oh no! wheat products and unhealthy processed meats were involved!) Wanda will not be all "I told you so." Wanda will not lecture, "See this is what happens when you irresponsibly fantasize about throwing a gushy uterus at some fit dude's 'No Excuses; t-shirt and then running away and laughing with Frida Kahlo." "You just focus on getting better," she'll say. "Wanda will take care of this!" I hope it was Wise Wanda sitting on my shoulder last night when I decided to order some flower essences...
Palma Christi
"Many, many illnesses were healed by Cayce's recommendations to apply castor oil packs. I don't know what to think of his psychic abilities, all I can say is that his treatments were and are effective and he gave all the glory to God. But castor oil's healing history began long before Cayce's time..."
http://www.woodwifesjournal.com/2010/11/castor-oil-packs.html?m=1
I believe...
http://www.woodwifesjournal.com/2010/11/castor-oil-packs.html?m=1
I believe...
Feelings
A sore throat
A cramping body
A cold heating pad (hurry, warm up)
Tired eyes.
I have been in places where women were nicer to men with money and charisma even if those men were ethically irresponsible with women.
It happens on both coasts and in the middle too.
If I became a smaller person physically...
That is not and will never be fair.
A cramping body
A cold heating pad (hurry, warm up)
Tired eyes.
I have been in places where women were nicer to men with money and charisma even if those men were ethically irresponsible with women.
It happens on both coasts and in the middle too.
If I became a smaller person physically...
That is not and will never be fair.
Friday, August 19, 2016
A switch
I thought I was tired or frustrated because of a story and then I was upset and then I was baffled and a little bit comforted. Unexpectedly.
It was really strange because there's an older man and a younger woman in this story and she was plainer than others yet something was lovely.
I mean what was truly strange is that when I have...I don't know... visions...it's mostly her pov and how things looked through her eyes...and this time, the pov switched and I was looking at her through his (older man character) eyes...I didn't know that would happen but I could see what it was...
They had some kind of light between them. I could see it happening between the two...she could bring light energy down and show and he could see it...that's what was happening...
I didn't know I would see it in quite that way.
It was really strange because there's an older man and a younger woman in this story and she was plainer than others yet something was lovely.
I mean what was truly strange is that when I have...I don't know... visions...it's mostly her pov and how things looked through her eyes...and this time, the pov switched and I was looking at her through his (older man character) eyes...I didn't know that would happen but I could see what it was...
They had some kind of light between them. I could see it happening between the two...she could bring light energy down and show and he could see it...that's what was happening...
I didn't know I would see it in quite that way.
Today's non-triumph
I have read so much about how women who are open and feminist on the internet get barraged with harassment and it is beyond what I am comfortable opening myself to.
Who knows, maybe tomorrow will be different.
So Really
That time on vacation:
"What a ridiculous name for a restaurant."
"Uh...that's not a restaurant..."
Juxtapose green freshness with animal horn...OH, I GET IT!!!
Imagined some people might say, "I don't know what she's complaining about. It's not like we forced her to accompany us to Spearmint Rhino."
Imagined some people might say, "I don't know what she's complaining about. It's not like we forced her to accompany us to Spearmint Rhino."
returns, returns
Amelie *not really* is coming back! Women are passionate creatures, and storytellers et. al. are very dedicated to showing you that...
Thursday, August 18, 2016
And Thebes
From Bird Relics by Arsic:"
"Seven Against Thebes is precisely the tragedy that Thoreau began translating in 1842, either immediately or soon after John died. In it Aeschylus rethinks what it means to mourn dead brothers by suggesting a complex understanding of the paean that blurs the divide between dead and living..." (Page numbers? not listed)
Several pages later: "...in the letter to Emerson, Thoreau identifies perpetual grief as the coincidence of lamenting paean and wind--that will function as the whirlpool of life, capable of catching the "black sailed bark" that ferries the dead--and move it against the rivers's current, back onto the land where the dead can be seen again. This then is the precise ontological operation of grief in Thoreaus Aeschylus: it transforms the dead from invisible waste into the daylight of creaturely life." (page??)
Later... "Not then death as the end (telos) of strife, but strife as the end of death."
ALSO HERE: "Enjoying 'The Seven Against Thebes'"
Background
"There are many things that are worse than war. They all begin with defeat."
The chorus of women comes in. They are very frightened by the sound of the attacking army. They talk about running off to pray to save them from slavery. (A victorious army would kill the men and take the younger women as sex slaves.) As they call on the various gods, they also hear the battle progressing.
Eteocles comes in and is very angry with the chorus. Etiocles turns out to be quite the misogynist. He talks about not liking to live with women, since when things go well they are bossy, and when things go badly they go hysterical. Their agitation is bad for morale, and he tells them to get off the street and be quiet.
~ http://www.pathguy.com/7thebes.htm
"Seven Against Thebes is precisely the tragedy that Thoreau began translating in 1842, either immediately or soon after John died. In it Aeschylus rethinks what it means to mourn dead brothers by suggesting a complex understanding of the paean that blurs the divide between dead and living..." (Page numbers? not listed)
Several pages later: "...in the letter to Emerson, Thoreau identifies perpetual grief as the coincidence of lamenting paean and wind--that will function as the whirlpool of life, capable of catching the "black sailed bark" that ferries the dead--and move it against the rivers's current, back onto the land where the dead can be seen again. This then is the precise ontological operation of grief in Thoreaus Aeschylus: it transforms the dead from invisible waste into the daylight of creaturely life." (page??)
Later... "Not then death as the end (telos) of strife, but strife as the end of death."
ALSO HERE: "Enjoying 'The Seven Against Thebes'"
Before we had reliable birth control, population pressures made war between neighboring communities inevitable. Whole towns would be enslaved or exterminated so that the conquerors could expand. The chorus in "The Seven Against Thebes" describes, in vivid detail, what happened to the conquered people.
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The chorus of women comes in. They are very frightened by the sound of the attacking army. They talk about running off to pray to save them from slavery. (A victorious army would kill the men and take the younger women as sex slaves.) As they call on the various gods, they also hear the battle progressing.
Eteocles comes in and is very angry with the chorus. Etiocles turns out to be quite the misogynist. He talks about not liking to live with women, since when things go well they are bossy, and when things go badly they go hysterical. Their agitation is bad for morale, and he tells them to get off the street and be quiet.
The chorus says they're just afraid. Eteocles makes pious talk about the gods, but urges them to honor "Obedience, the mother of Success and wife of Rescue." In other words, it's more important for you to due your part as citizens, even if it just means keeping your mouth shut. Eteocles says the sacrificial bloodletting is being done by the soldiers -- killing the enemy. The chorus agrees to quiet down, and Eteocles goes to prepare defensive positions.
- I became interested in Greek tragedy during the era of Vietnam war protests. The similarities and differences between the two situations are obvious.
The chorus continues to pray to the various gods. They mention vividly what will happen to young unmarried girls -- they will be raped and dragged off. The city and surroundings will be looted and people slaughtered.
Next we are treated to a catalogue of "The Seven Against Thebes."
~ http://www.pathguy.com/7thebes.htm
food was tossed
MEDIUM soda (no)
small burger (no)
small partially consumed hotdog (yes)
small partially consumed fries (yes)
Saw some little people
The little girl who used to always ask me about "dads" asked me earnestly "Are you going swimming tomorrow."
Ha ha.
Ha ha.
Whee
I ate a cheap, unhealthy dinner and I threw it out when I got full. Should I thank the Berberine? I haven't taken Metformin all summer. I've rarely taken Berberine but maybe there will be a regular schedule of taking one or the other or both again in the near future. Then I went on the internet...
Sweet hobbies
These were fun to read about.
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/men/11898415/Are-these-the-23-dullest-men-in-Great-Britain-.html?image=4
I liked that measuring mountains one, and also the ones about visiting bandstands and follies.
It reminded me of a hobby I invented to get over my post vacation withdrawal. I live near many wine regions and I am going to look them up and investigate the price ranges of their wines. I will date and record this information. Then, next time I have a day to visit a region, I will know what to expect.
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/men/11898415/Are-these-the-23-dullest-men-in-Great-Britain-.html?image=4
I liked that measuring mountains one, and also the ones about visiting bandstands and follies.
It reminded me of a hobby I invented to get over my post vacation withdrawal. I live near many wine regions and I am going to look them up and investigate the price ranges of their wines. I will date and record this information. Then, next time I have a day to visit a region, I will know what to expect.
Why did you do it.
I looked up an article about M. Shkreli.
What if he's not so bad.
Well what's he up to now?
Within the past hour:
"I love my two beautiful T girlfriends although I definitely favor one over the other." "Ask me anything about my girls."
Then a bunch of periscope videos.
:-/
Wouldn't have been charming if he was fooling the public and just talking about his two pussy cats?
*Hacking cat noise.*
Unfortunately, no.
He's got skills and philanthropic ambitions.
What if he got put in charge of doling out funds to support woman-owned biotech start-ups?
Which ones would he pick?
Only M.Shkreli knows.
He was a shy kid.
The son of hardworking parents.
Then he went on to become M. Shkreli.
What if he's not so bad.
Well what's he up to now?
Within the past hour:
"I love my two beautiful T girlfriends although I definitely favor one over the other." "Ask me anything about my girls."
Then a bunch of periscope videos.
:-/
Wouldn't have been charming if he was fooling the public and just talking about his two pussy cats?
*Hacking cat noise.*
Unfortunately, no.
He's got skills and philanthropic ambitions.
What if he got put in charge of doling out funds to support woman-owned biotech start-ups?
Which ones would he pick?
Only M.Shkreli knows.
He was a shy kid.
The son of hardworking parents.
Then he went on to become M. Shkreli.
Tree book to read!
I will read these reviews and also get hold of the book as soon as I finish some other stuff.
!!!!!!!
https://www.theguardian.com/books/2016/apr/24/lab-girl-hope-jahren-review-story-of-trees-science-and-love
http://www.nytimes.com/2016/03/29/books/review-lab-girl-hope-jahrens-road-map-to-the-secret-life-of-plants.html?_r=0
http://www.npr.org/2016/04/22/475228342/lab-girl-an-homage-to-the-wonders-of-all-things-green
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/the-national-book-review/review-lab-girl-is-the-st_b_9781566.html
!!!!!!!
https://www.theguardian.com/books/2016/apr/24/lab-girl-hope-jahren-review-story-of-trees-science-and-love
http://www.nytimes.com/2016/03/29/books/review-lab-girl-hope-jahrens-road-map-to-the-secret-life-of-plants.html?_r=0
http://www.npr.org/2016/04/22/475228342/lab-girl-an-homage-to-the-wonders-of-all-things-green
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/the-national-book-review/review-lab-girl-is-the-st_b_9781566.html
This is almost TOO
"What I learned from the internet is that nothing upsets my male colleagues more than the pernicious sexual harassment that has been happening right under their noses for years. “What kind of world are we living in?” they wail, “And what can I do about it?”
~ https://hopejahrensurecanwrite.com/2013/10/23/3-ways-to-be-an-ally/
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA insert peanuts comic HA HA HA HA HA
"1. Calm the F*ck Down. If you walk up to me and say, 'OH YOU CUT YOUR HAIR,' I’m not going to have you up on Judge Judy within 48 hours. The sorry pathetic reality is that you can say a lot of stupid shit and not get in any real trouble..."
~ https://hopejahrensurecanwrite.com/2013/10/23/3-ways-to-be-an-ally/
"2. Step the F*ck Up. I read some study (or I made it up) about how when a child has one abusive parent and one non-abusive parent, it is the non-abusive parent that is perceived as more hurtful. The abusive one doesn’t let you down, you know what to expect from them. It’s when the non-abusive one doesn’t and doesn’t and doesn’t step up that you really start to question your worth. I’ve painted myself into an unfortunate rhetorical corner where women are metaphoric children and men are metaphoric parents, but let’s soldier on for the sake of argument. Dear Mr. Ally, you are hurting me when you stand by and say nothing..."
https://hopejahrensurecanwrite.com/2013/10/23/3-ways-to-be-an-ally/
HOW GOT THERE:
https://hopejahrensurecanwrite.com/2014/07/01/six-things-you-can-do-when-people-say-stupid-sexist-shit-to-you/
~ https://hopejahrensurecanwrite.com/2013/10/23/3-ways-to-be-an-ally/
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA insert peanuts comic HA HA HA HA HA
"1. Calm the F*ck Down. If you walk up to me and say, 'OH YOU CUT YOUR HAIR,' I’m not going to have you up on Judge Judy within 48 hours. The sorry pathetic reality is that you can say a lot of stupid shit and not get in any real trouble..."
~ https://hopejahrensurecanwrite.com/2013/10/23/3-ways-to-be-an-ally/
"2. Step the F*ck Up. I read some study (or I made it up) about how when a child has one abusive parent and one non-abusive parent, it is the non-abusive parent that is perceived as more hurtful. The abusive one doesn’t let you down, you know what to expect from them. It’s when the non-abusive one doesn’t and doesn’t and doesn’t step up that you really start to question your worth. I’ve painted myself into an unfortunate rhetorical corner where women are metaphoric children and men are metaphoric parents, but let’s soldier on for the sake of argument. Dear Mr. Ally, you are hurting me when you stand by and say nothing..."
https://hopejahrensurecanwrite.com/2013/10/23/3-ways-to-be-an-ally/
HOW GOT THERE:
https://hopejahrensurecanwrite.com/2014/07/01/six-things-you-can-do-when-people-say-stupid-sexist-shit-to-you/
Wednesday, August 17, 2016
de la imaginacion
pretend letter draft from a dad
dear daughter
sometimes dads have friends that are vaguely and serially irresponsible in their treatment of women for reasons they'd probably rather not go into...if when you are older you would like to have higher standards for how men treat women than you might have noticed dad having with some of his friends that would be ok
dear daughter
sometimes dads have friends that are vaguely and serially irresponsible in their treatment of women for reasons they'd probably rather not go into...if when you are older you would like to have higher standards for how men treat women than you might have noticed dad having with some of his friends that would be ok
Roles
From
http://blogs.wsj.com/speakeasy/2015/03/05/showtime-documentary-explores-women-in-hollywood/
"Hicks ticks off her roles in order: “Floozy. Floozy. Doctor. Doctor. Lawyer. Floozy. Floozy. Lonely Blonde. Lonely Blonde. Doctor. Lawyer. Lawyer. Lonely Blonde. Lonely Blonde. Doctor. Doctor. Lawyer. Lawyer. Mother. Mom. Mom. Crazy Person. Crazy Person. That’s where I am now.”
http://blogs.wsj.com/speakeasy/2015/03/05/showtime-documentary-explores-women-in-hollywood/
"Hicks ticks off her roles in order: “Floozy. Floozy. Doctor. Doctor. Lawyer. Floozy. Floozy. Lonely Blonde. Lonely Blonde. Doctor. Lawyer. Lawyer. Lonely Blonde. Lonely Blonde. Doctor. Doctor. Lawyer. Lawyer. Mother. Mom. Mom. Crazy Person. Crazy Person. That’s where I am now.”
old story stuff
Vacation had been nice. Cute farmers markets! Beaches! Walks! Then the body got interesting.
Sigh. Duties of reporting. Once again...
The body was in pain (Why? This is vacation. Everything was fine. Why?) and then a story started coming. It was about teenage girl being lectured by a woman who might have been her mother because a man was sad and it was her fault for not being friendly enough.
Mediterranean, white walls, bed, sad older man, mother lecturing girl about not being friendly enough to him.
Can you imagine being in a certain kind of story...a teenager married to a much older guy who gets sad about your behavior and then your mother actually gives you a lecture on how you're not being good enough at doing your wifely duty...really???
Wow. PAIN. Way to not get nostalgic about other times.
So the backwards order was like this:
Girl walks in garden, stumbles on older man / husband with mistress, feels betrayed.
Girl is annoyed and gets lectured by mother for not being friendly enough with husband.
Older man makes elaborate wedding preparations and sits at a table looking nervous.
(All the money and elaborate preparations in the world could not quite kill the nervousness.)
And somewhere in that order (but where? maybe at the end, maybe at the beginning, who knows)
Girl on horseback and older man on horseback, in an arrangement he made, because he wants them to get to know each other and hopefully get along with each other, and he knows she likes to go riding. Well, that was a nice gesture.
Sigh. Duties of reporting. Once again...
The body was in pain (Why? This is vacation. Everything was fine. Why?) and then a story started coming. It was about teenage girl being lectured by a woman who might have been her mother because a man was sad and it was her fault for not being friendly enough.
Mediterranean, white walls, bed, sad older man, mother lecturing girl about not being friendly enough to him.
Can you imagine being in a certain kind of story...a teenager married to a much older guy who gets sad about your behavior and then your mother actually gives you a lecture on how you're not being good enough at doing your wifely duty...really???
Wow. PAIN. Way to not get nostalgic about other times.
So the backwards order was like this:
Girl walks in garden, stumbles on older man / husband with mistress, feels betrayed.
Girl is annoyed and gets lectured by mother for not being friendly enough with husband.
Older man makes elaborate wedding preparations and sits at a table looking nervous.
(All the money and elaborate preparations in the world could not quite kill the nervousness.)
And somewhere in that order (but where? maybe at the end, maybe at the beginning, who knows)
Girl on horseback and older man on horseback, in an arrangement he made, because he wants them to get to know each other and hopefully get along with each other, and he knows she likes to go riding. Well, that was a nice gesture.
why
Maybe it's because they are thinking of themselves as products to sell...
http://www.medicalwebtimes.com/read/well_for_teenage_girls_swimsuit_season_never_ends/
"...the swimsuit study effectively demonstrated “the psychological costs of raising girls in a culture that persistently objectifies the female body.”
http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2016/08/10/for-teenage-girls-swimsuit-season-never-ends/?partner=rss&emc=rss&_r=0
http://www.medicalwebtimes.com/read/well_for_teenage_girls_swimsuit_season_never_ends/
"...the swimsuit study effectively demonstrated “the psychological costs of raising girls in a culture that persistently objectifies the female body.”
http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2016/08/10/for-teenage-girls-swimsuit-season-never-ends/?partner=rss&emc=rss&_r=0
Tuesday, August 16, 2016
Found
An article about "adipose":
How I Fell In Love With Fat
It was written by someone who gives rather unusual workshops...
http://www.gilhedley.com/ghschedule.php
Also the issue had some information about raw incense....
This is by the raw incense author.
I also found another issue of Seventeen addressed to a previous occupant. It costs $181 worth of beauty products to survive first-period P.E. according to page 86 of the Sept. 2016 issue.
However, interesting brown bag lunch tips on page 92.
How I Fell In Love With Fat
It was written by someone who gives rather unusual workshops...
http://www.gilhedley.com/ghschedule.php
Also the issue had some information about raw incense....
This is by the raw incense author.
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I also found another issue of Seventeen addressed to a previous occupant. It costs $181 worth of beauty products to survive first-period P.E. according to page 86 of the Sept. 2016 issue.
However, interesting brown bag lunch tips on page 92.
3 remembered from a drive
by the ocean have official or unofficial videos...
1) Lisa Hannigan ~ Sea Song
2) Rage Against The Machine ~ Sleep Now In The Fire
3) Cake ~ Comfort Eagle
1) Lisa Hannigan ~ Sea Song
2) Rage Against The Machine ~ Sleep Now In The Fire
3) Cake ~ Comfort Eagle
Huh
Olympic athletes and periods...
http://www.cnn.com/2016/08/16/sport/china-swimmer-fu-yuanhui-period/index.html
and emperors and virgins and...
Post ---
Vacation!
"You're the only person I know who starts cleaning immediately after she gets back from vacation." Well, I wanted to and I had the energy!
So, what's on the internet. I think I need new jeans.
How to look...
http://www.goodhousekeeping.com/beauty/fashion/tips/g162/jeans-for-body-type/
Or maybe you should just get more fit...
https://fitfatandfeminist.wordpress.com/2016/08/16/day-1-new-gym-membership/
Oh.....
"would rather hire someone who looks “fit” than someone who is fat because..."
~ https://fitfatandfeminist.wordpress.com/2014/10/09/more-on-weight-discrimination-assumptions-about-weight/
"...individual women can be concerned that their career path may be stunted if they are primarily seen as just a woman and therefore not a good fit for leadership..."
"This kind of response is not even unique to women. It’s actually an approach used by many marginalized groups to overcome damaging views held about their group. For example, research has found that some gay men try to distance themselves from stereotypes about gays being effeminate by emphasizing hyper-masculine traits..."
~ http://www.theatlantic.com/business/archive/2016/06/queen-bee/488144/
ACK, "sissyphobia"???
Anti-sissy = Good Fit.
http://www.primermagazine.com/2012/learn/the-philosophy-of-a-good-fit
Speaking of fitness, I LOVE HOW THIS POST FINALLY HAS A PICTURE OF THE MUSCLE STRUCTURE ON A FEMALE BODY!!!!
~ http://kotaku.com/5854826/im-tired-of-being-a-woman-in-games-im-a-person
I got to it when I looked at this:
http://www.unwinnable.com/2012/07/13/i-was-a-teenage-sexist/
Wait, go back to health stuff....
"Even if you take two people with the same illness they are not going to have the exact same experiences...Heck, remember that good days and bad days part? That means you can take the same person and they will not have the same experience and problems with an illness on different days.
~ https://fitfatandfeminist.wordpress.com/2014/11/26/spoons-the-fallacy-of-if-i-can-do-it-then-you-can-do-it/
SPOONS
http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/
Okay, I'm done.
I'm ready to go back to the beach now.
"You're the only person I know who starts cleaning immediately after she gets back from vacation." Well, I wanted to and I had the energy!
So, what's on the internet. I think I need new jeans.
How to look...
http://www.goodhousekeeping.com/beauty/fashion/tips/g162/jeans-for-body-type/
Or maybe you should just get more fit...
https://fitfatandfeminist.wordpress.com/2016/08/16/day-1-new-gym-membership/
Oh.....
"would rather hire someone who looks “fit” than someone who is fat because..."
~ https://fitfatandfeminist.wordpress.com/2014/10/09/more-on-weight-discrimination-assumptions-about-weight/
"...individual women can be concerned that their career path may be stunted if they are primarily seen as just a woman and therefore not a good fit for leadership..."
"This kind of response is not even unique to women. It’s actually an approach used by many marginalized groups to overcome damaging views held about their group. For example, research has found that some gay men try to distance themselves from stereotypes about gays being effeminate by emphasizing hyper-masculine traits..."
~ http://www.theatlantic.com/business/archive/2016/06/queen-bee/488144/
ACK, "sissyphobia"???
Anti-sissy = Good Fit.
http://www.primermagazine.com/2012/learn/the-philosophy-of-a-good-fit
Speaking of fitness, I LOVE HOW THIS POST FINALLY HAS A PICTURE OF THE MUSCLE STRUCTURE ON A FEMALE BODY!!!!
~ http://kotaku.com/5854826/im-tired-of-being-a-woman-in-games-im-a-person
I got to it when I looked at this:
http://www.unwinnable.com/2012/07/13/i-was-a-teenage-sexist/
Wait, go back to health stuff....
"Even if you take two people with the same illness they are not going to have the exact same experiences...Heck, remember that good days and bad days part? That means you can take the same person and they will not have the same experience and problems with an illness on different days.
~ https://fitfatandfeminist.wordpress.com/2014/11/26/spoons-the-fallacy-of-if-i-can-do-it-then-you-can-do-it/
SPOONS
http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/
Okay, I'm done.
I'm ready to go back to the beach now.
Friday, August 12, 2016
there will be
beach beach beach beach
breathe breathe breathe
B R E A T H E
gotta go digest the bites of plain tamale and drink ginger tea and get in the calm place of peace which is the best thing there is sometimes and probably do anything else rescue remedy etc.
OM
breathe breathe breathe
B R E A T H E
gotta go digest the bites of plain tamale and drink ginger tea and get in the calm place of peace which is the best thing there is sometimes and probably do anything else rescue remedy etc.
OM
O
Ow. Back. Anxiety about leaving a cat with roommate.
Supposed to go on a short little vacation. Ow, back.
Tea with ginger...all the things to take on this
teeny tiny little supposed to be relaxing trip....
Thursday, August 11, 2016
sometimes I feel
a responsibility
to relay things....
RELAY
really
“Sometimes, it’s not violence, but the threat of violence that makes life so hard,” I was told by a wise woman."
~ https://lacymacauley.wordpress.com/2016/07/17/trapped-in-turkey/
"She would say to me- 'All of you are sleeping so peacefully, at the expense of my sanity and sleep.' And after all, where was she wrong?"
~ https://theworldwontletmesleep.wordpress.com/2016/07/14/i-was-mentally-abused-and-it-is-not-okay/
"What behaviors do children who witness domestic violence exhibit? The emotional responses of children who witness domestic violence may include fear, guilt, shame, sleep disturbances, sadness, depression, and anger (at both the abuser for the violence and at the mother for being unable to prevent the violence)....The behavioral responses of children who witness domestic violence may include acting out, withdrawal, or anxiousness to please..."
~ http://www.domesticviolenceroundtable.org/effect-on-children.html
to relay things....
RELAY
really
“Sometimes, it’s not violence, but the threat of violence that makes life so hard,” I was told by a wise woman."
~ https://lacymacauley.wordpress.com/2016/07/17/trapped-in-turkey/
*****
"She would say to me- 'All of you are sleeping so peacefully, at the expense of my sanity and sleep.' And after all, where was she wrong?"
~ https://theworldwontletmesleep.wordpress.com/2016/07/14/i-was-mentally-abused-and-it-is-not-okay/
*****
"What behaviors do children who witness domestic violence exhibit? The emotional responses of children who witness domestic violence may include fear, guilt, shame, sleep disturbances, sadness, depression, and anger (at both the abuser for the violence and at the mother for being unable to prevent the violence)....The behavioral responses of children who witness domestic violence may include acting out, withdrawal, or anxiousness to please..."
~ http://www.domesticviolenceroundtable.org/effect-on-children.html
Arty &
OLD &
I've been to this museum...
Elisabetta Sirani, Holy Family... , Virgin and Child
are at the National Museum of Women in the Arts in DC.
Also Melpomene is there in a large hallway.
OLDER &
I have never been to these museums...
~ Hieronymus Francken II, Brueghel the Elder: The Archdukes Albert and Isabella Visiting... Walters Art Museum, Baltimore
~ Rubens (Person) and Brueghel the Elder (Landscape): Isabella Clara Eugenia... Museo del Prado in Madrid, Spain
~ Rubens and Workshop: Portrait of Isabella... (at Norton Simon Museum in Pasadena...she's "a little old lady from Pasadena...")
OLDEST (page 124 Leonardo da Vinci Vol. 1 by Eugene Muntz) "a fertilizing dust falls on the calyx" on the bust of Beatrice (by Giovanni Romano) at the Louvre in Paris (I have never been there.)
I've been to this museum...
Elisabetta Sirani, Holy Family... , Virgin and Child
are at the National Museum of Women in the Arts in DC.
Also Melpomene is there in a large hallway.
*****
OLDER &
I have never been to these museums...
~ Hieronymus Francken II, Brueghel the Elder: The Archdukes Albert and Isabella Visiting... Walters Art Museum, Baltimore
~ Rubens (Person) and Brueghel the Elder (Landscape): Isabella Clara Eugenia... Museo del Prado in Madrid, Spain
~ Rubens and Workshop: Portrait of Isabella... (at Norton Simon Museum in Pasadena...she's "a little old lady from Pasadena...")
*****
OLDEST (page 124 Leonardo da Vinci Vol. 1 by Eugene Muntz) "a fertilizing dust falls on the calyx" on the bust of Beatrice (by Giovanni Romano) at the Louvre in Paris (I have never been there.)
Tuesday, August 09, 2016
Monday, August 08, 2016
For creativity
Some things just came to me...Everyone was born with a different kind of body and it seems worthwhile to explore whatever it is your body has to teach you. I am sure there are higher sources of power and energy that want you to be able to learn about your body at any age. Your body is not just worth something as a product to sell to someone else. There is more to it than that. You have toe ligaments. You have muscles. You have fat and flesh and skin. How would an angel have you be with your body? Can you be with an adult body as a child can be before bring taught to be self critical? What if you have been in many types of bodies and have different things to learn from each one...
Present
"“As a straight male living in this particular neighborhood, which I
love,” said Choe, “it’s kind of hard for me to imagine that it would
happen to a straight guy. So there was a big doubt in my mind.”
"Carey said he hopes to get the strips down from 30 cents to 10 cents with a bulk order from multiple bars. He said every owner he has talked to has been in support of the strips."
~ http://q13fox.com/2016/08/05/police-looking-into-reports-of-possibly-spiked-drinks-at-capitol-hill-bars/
Rather than getting depressed by thinking about a woman saying another woman is "stupid" for getting her drink spiked, it's better to read that...
"Jessica Kerlin says, "You hear a lot of stories - friends, family members - it goes on way more than people think it does. It's not just women; it's men also."
Jessica Kerlin has witnessed some of those stories firsthand, working as a bartender in the past. Kerlin says, "We had two cases within one week where a girl was drugged and taken into a room. We were afraid business was going to go down."
Shortly after, her boss took matters into their own hands by ordering special coasters made to test your drink for potential date rape drugs and it turned out a success.
Kerlin says, "That bar filled and people left all the rest of the bars, because they felt safer."
~ http://www.blackhillsfox.com/content/news/Sturgis-woman-brings-about-way-to-test-date-rape-drugs-388194432.html
"Carey said he hopes to get the strips down from 30 cents to 10 cents with a bulk order from multiple bars. He said every owner he has talked to has been in support of the strips."
~ http://q13fox.com/2016/08/05/police-looking-into-reports-of-possibly-spiked-drinks-at-capitol-hill-bars/
Rather than getting depressed by thinking about a woman saying another woman is "stupid" for getting her drink spiked, it's better to read that...
&&&&&&&
"Jessica Kerlin says, "You hear a lot of stories - friends, family members - it goes on way more than people think it does. It's not just women; it's men also."
Jessica Kerlin has witnessed some of those stories firsthand, working as a bartender in the past. Kerlin says, "We had two cases within one week where a girl was drugged and taken into a room. We were afraid business was going to go down."
Shortly after, her boss took matters into their own hands by ordering special coasters made to test your drink for potential date rape drugs and it turned out a success.
Kerlin says, "That bar filled and people left all the rest of the bars, because they felt safer."
~ http://www.blackhillsfox.com/content/news/Sturgis-woman-brings-about-way-to-test-date-rape-drugs-388194432.html
Want vs. Actual
I wanted to find this old post about teenage mutant ninja turtles (of all things) for some reason...it was weird because I remember it appearing on my phone months ago and not knowing how I got to it...it may been something I tapped before drifting off to sleep....it could have mentioned splinter and zen... believe it also had to do with mentoring and trust and role models and daughters...and I had an idea that it would be so nice to read again....but, OH WELL. Couldn't find it. So... INSTEAD... ACTUAL exasperation from these other things I did find.
"Out of 200 sales job queries, the woman wearing a low-cut top attracted 62 more interview offers than their more conservatively dressed counterpart. And just in case you’re thinking, Well, maybe that kiiiiiiinda makes sense for sales jobs, since a lower cut top might come across as more youthful and fun and stylish, guess what? The same thing happened with accounting jobs, which you would think would be more conservative: there were 68 more interview offers for the woman in the low-cut top."
~ https://www.yahoo.com/style/happens-wear-low-cut-top-150506053.html
"If a recent Yahoo News article is any indication, a great many men have yet to discover that sexism is wrong, but have determined that it is simply unfashionable, and must therefore be exercised judiciously.
"Sometimes it seems we haven't come a long way at all."
~ http://www.itjungle.com/tfh/tfh080816-story04.html
"Look, ladies: nobody likes a feminist killjoy!"
Men Bond Over Sexism
vs.
"We live in very different times now."
Do Men Really...
"Out of 200 sales job queries, the woman wearing a low-cut top attracted 62 more interview offers than their more conservatively dressed counterpart. And just in case you’re thinking, Well, maybe that kiiiiiiinda makes sense for sales jobs, since a lower cut top might come across as more youthful and fun and stylish, guess what? The same thing happened with accounting jobs, which you would think would be more conservative: there were 68 more interview offers for the woman in the low-cut top."
~ https://www.yahoo.com/style/happens-wear-low-cut-top-150506053.html
"If a recent Yahoo News article is any indication, a great many men have yet to discover that sexism is wrong, but have determined that it is simply unfashionable, and must therefore be exercised judiciously.
"Sometimes it seems we haven't come a long way at all."
~ http://www.itjungle.com/tfh/tfh080816-story04.html
**********
"Look, ladies: nobody likes a feminist killjoy!"
Men Bond Over Sexism
vs.
"We live in very different times now."
Do Men Really...
Oh again
It was all so interesting and then it was interrupted by an anxious female running up hills and capturing Pokemon or whatever that is while on a mission to distribute drug test kits to every bar in the city...one day maybe she could relax in a pool, swim leisurely...
Sunday, August 07, 2016
Modernly
made tea after dinner... some happy times ... the cat was better... she was ill but not because of food ... maybe she just needed a gel ... dinner was late but nice and then made my tea for respiratory issues and added ginger ... I will have to care for my little chest ailment ... maybe it's a heart chakra issue ... well, maybe so.
Well, modern era
“I hate the fact there are predators out there going around and drugging people, “ said Ian Carey, owner of Bar Sue.
On Monday, Carey began handing out the simple kits to his customers after the area began to see a rise in people getting their drinks spiked, including Carey himself.
'Two months ago, I had a friend I was with and I left a drink with her, went outside and came back,' said Carey. 'I assume someone thought it was her drink, because 30 minutes later I just blacked out.'”
~ http://komonews.com/news/local/capital-hill-bar-handing-out-date-rape-drug-testing-kits-to-customers
On Monday, Carey began handing out the simple kits to his customers after the area began to see a rise in people getting their drinks spiked, including Carey himself.
'Two months ago, I had a friend I was with and I left a drink with her, went outside and came back,' said Carey. 'I assume someone thought it was her drink, because 30 minutes later I just blacked out.'”
~ http://komonews.com/news/local/capital-hill-bar-handing-out-date-rape-drug-testing-kits-to-customers
dream exercise
 |
| Leonardo da Vinci ~ The Annuciaton |
Look at a a picture and then see what you dream about...(visiting a church type of place and then sitting on a hill with some people at night and being extremely close to celestial bodies...)
not only wheat, but also...
"Rice is easy to market, easier than other grains. All those meats sound so appetizing paired with rice: "Tender Turkey Tuscany in a Savory Sauce with Long Grain Rice and Garden Greens."¹ Sounds like something I would eat for dinner. Now, if my cat could read labels, this is more like what he would find appealing: "Raw Brains and Heart in Fresh Blood with a Crunchy Chopped Grasshopper Garnish."
~http://feline-nutrition.org/the-blogs/rice-isnt-nice
Read more at http://feline-nutrition.org/the-blogs/rice-isnt-nice
Follow us on Twitter: @FelineNutrition
~http://feline-nutrition.org/the-blogs/rice-isnt-nice
Read more at http://feline-nutrition.org/the-blogs/rice-isnt-nice
Follow us on Twitter: @FelineNutrition
Saturday, August 06, 2016
quiescently repetitive evening
I used to be right by them...
F.F. ~ Blue Ridge Mts again
green pea and salmon dry food okay and not ill after some chicken wetfood, so maybe she's a grain-free kitty incense is burning so calming
F.F. ~ Blue Ridge Mts again
green pea and salmon dry food okay and not ill after some chicken wetfood, so maybe she's a grain-free kitty incense is burning so calming
Mykonos
again
again
O day
You went by... Happy news of better health... Then the cat threw up... again and again... Finally switched to "limited ingredient diet" and cat seemed a bit better... Suddenly exhausted, as if deficient of a vitamin or something...
I thought the horse race names were a joke / You are sad... / Vitavetavegamin / COQ10
I thought the horse race names were a joke / You are sad... / Vitavetavegamin / COQ10
Friday, August 05, 2016
sometimes I feel
the fact that I've heard more than one story of a woman who lost a lot of weight also paradoxically getting "sad" because she was still the same person but society treated her so much better on when she changed on the outside...and the idea that if I weighed closer to what I did in high school that I would somehow be "valuable" as a person to some people...
that's offensive
get it through
the brain cells
!!!!!
"In our culture there is also a deeply mistaken notion that all women should care about whether men find us attractive"
what a pleasing conversation
~ with the woman at the hospital gift shop who says on the phone,
"I love this part of my job!" ~
wretched juxtaposition
it was kind of unfortunate that
http://www.salon.com/2016/08/04/bret_easton_ellis_takes_on_social_justice_warriors_these_women_are_so_deluded_they_border_on_insanity/
was positioned so perilously close to
http://www.salon.com/2016/03/27/my_body_doesnt_need_a_cure_sizeism_classism_and_the_big_business_hustle_of_the_clean_eating_industry/
but hey, at least it makes me wanna get out and GO FOR A WALK THAT'S OBVIOUSLY A GOOD THING
I mean as soon as I get over the urge to throw up. I will be having a nice little walk.
http://www.salon.com/2016/08/04/bret_easton_ellis_takes_on_social_justice_warriors_these_women_are_so_deluded_they_border_on_insanity/
was positioned so perilously close to
http://www.salon.com/2016/03/27/my_body_doesnt_need_a_cure_sizeism_classism_and_the_big_business_hustle_of_the_clean_eating_industry/
but hey, at least it makes me wanna get out and GO FOR A WALK THAT'S OBVIOUSLY A GOOD THING
I mean as soon as I get over the urge to throw up. I will be having a nice little walk.
old peppermint brings joy to cat
cat is fascinated with batting an unwanted wrapped candy around on the floor and running after it
why buy anything expensive for a cat ever
why buy anything expensive for a cat ever
Thursday, August 04, 2016
A fun song umbrella
Canopy:
F.F. ~ Mykonos
Shaft: Space Dog (Live)
Other parts
Ribs: Purple People (Live)
Top Spring: Sugar (Live)
Bottom Spring: Waitress (Live ~ Hang Ten)
(or vice versa)
Crook Handle: Daisy Dead Petals (Live . . .)
F.F. ~ Mykonos
Shaft: Space Dog (Live)
Other parts
Ribs: Purple People (Live)
Top Spring: Sugar (Live)
Bottom Spring: Waitress (Live ~ Hang Ten)
(or vice versa)
Crook Handle: Daisy Dead Petals (Live . . .)
girls...
thank you for taking the time
to write these little details
!!!!!
because sometimes I am that person who just roams, roams, roams the internet in search of I know not what
the outside world
beckons
~~~???~~~
http://www.asherworldturns.com/zorbing-new-zealand/
that's a detour
because the actual research is
http://www.asherworldturns.com/socal-local/central-coast/
!!!!!!
that's a detour
because the actual research is
http://www.asherworldturns.com/socal-local/central-coast/
!!!!!!
Still...
I don't know if I want to see 1972 Solaris, but it hasn't been sent back yet, and this sounded tempting...
"The set design of Solaris features paintings by the Old Masters. The interior of the space station is decorated with full reproductions of the 1565 painting cycle of The Months (The Hunters in the Snow, The Gloomy Day, The Hay Harvest, The Harvesters, and The Return of the Herd), by Pieter Brueghel the Elder, and details of Landscape with the Fall of Icarus and The Hunters in the Snow (1565). The scene of Kelvin kneeling before his father and the father embracing him alludes to The Return of the Prodigal Son (1669), by Rembrandt. The references and allusions are Tarkovsky's efforts to give the young art of cinema a historic perspective of centuries..."
~ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solaris_(1972_film)
"The set design of Solaris features paintings by the Old Masters. The interior of the space station is decorated with full reproductions of the 1565 painting cycle of The Months (The Hunters in the Snow, The Gloomy Day, The Hay Harvest, The Harvesters, and The Return of the Herd), by Pieter Brueghel the Elder, and details of Landscape with the Fall of Icarus and The Hunters in the Snow (1565). The scene of Kelvin kneeling before his father and the father embracing him alludes to The Return of the Prodigal Son (1669), by Rembrandt. The references and allusions are Tarkovsky's efforts to give the young art of cinema a historic perspective of centuries..."
~ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solaris_(1972_film)
layers n' layers
LAYERS
cat lies on tile
LAYERS
cat turns nose up at food she liked LAYERS Four out of five of these CEOs are the opposite of the name of the group of people in the What's Up video
who dress like teenagers did in 1992
LAYERS
what if you learned a lot about tile
LAYERS
and molding
LAYERS
then whenever you cleaned
LAYERS
you could just think about
LAYERS
all that aesthetic information LAYERS They are having fun with reactions to standard life situations LAYERS
LAYERS maybe its too cold (wear socks)
LAYERS for the cat's finicky palate
LAYERS (maybe) this tile could be
LAYERS (too cold) in another place
LAYERS (for uterus) or another time
LAYERS (cover feet) and also the cat
Time to made a phone call.
Did you hover around your parents before coming to the planet/
LAYERS maybe its too cold (wear socks)
LAYERS for the cat's finicky palate
LAYERS (maybe) this tile could be
LAYERS (too cold) in another place
LAYERS (for uterus) or another time
LAYERS (cover feet) and also the cat
Time to made a phone call.
Did you hover around your parents before coming to the planet/
early a.m. territoires
the faux mediterranea of side streets at rush hour...hi bumpy roofs and climate specific vegetation...chilly new englandia sewn into tealsyswirlyfishytadpoley rice pack... plus there's a barn out in the country somewhere that wants to get visited sometime...
manana
it's going to be a flurry of activity and inquiries about diet and healing remedies will be involved
x can be
a whimper in
the void of summer
finished the end of unbreakable k season 2 and also had the idea that i would watch 1972 solaris not because i planned on it but because it's here and i caught the end of it and there's nature imagery and a sort of interesting-sounding story and while i hear its slow in parts i am so the person who can watch a slow film but i also feel like i might not watch it because who knows could be my artistic side's going on strike or something but also heard of this slow t.v. thing today, wonder if it'd be good for those who are convalescing...
Wednesday, August 03, 2016
cross-eyed bear
If you look at two images side by side and go cross-eyed you're supposed to see a third and it looks 3-D. First I stared at the protein structures...stared and stared....nothing...I looked at Double Mona Lisa and got cross-eyed and saw the third image within 5 seconds.
http://www.newstatesman.com/2016/08/da-vinci-genome-how-science-drives-art-and-art-drives-science
Hmm. Not so easy the second time. The one on the left seems to be floating over the one on the right...
Ooo, got it again...she floated from the right to the left...that's funny...
http://www.newstatesman.com/2016/08/da-vinci-genome-how-science-drives-art-and-art-drives-science
Hmm. Not so easy the second time. The one on the left seems to be floating over the one on the right...
Ooo, got it again...she floated from the right to the left...that's funny...
Occurences
My car climbed onto an almost completely empty freeway this morning. It was eerie...have never seen it so empty...in the rearview mirror I could see all the traffic being held back but I don't know why...
Healing is good for humans...if you ever need a reminder, news of illness will bring that right back to your attention...
Healing is good for humans...if you ever need a reminder, news of illness will bring that right back to your attention...