Existe

It's almost tomorrow.

That's cute

Those sarcastic political comments you make to cover up the yawning chasm of agonizing pain
Tune in tom0rrow for dealing with death meditations

I wish everyone

would just go to a spa and get a massage.
It doesn't have to be fancy. It doesn't have to involve steaming your nether regions with herbs or sitting in a sauna and getting whipped by birch branches.
Just go somewhere, to a capable, trained professional. Let him or her pour oil on your back and get a good, old-fashioned massage.
Hmmm.

Gone

Black sea salt caramel
Salt & pepper potato chip

igh

Beck

Where It's At

Can I be like him in my next life?

"that was a good drum break..."

Walk. Chocolate.

http://castleblake.blogspot.com/2014/01/chocolate-tasting.html

Pretty music

Beck ~ Heart Is A Drum
Tori ~ Weatherman

I think these guys make the kind of music they want to make, not just sounds-like-what-made-them-popular-when-they-were-younger types of songs.

Beck has a thing for the Grim Reaper???

Ha ha...never heard about the "looks like Torrey Pine" anecdote before today...

http://motivationbychocolate.blogspot.com/2010/10/california-and-chocolate.html

Bjork's new album

So far, I have heard Stonemilker and Quicksand.

That's an interesting torso there, Bjork.

http://pitchfork.com/features/interviews/9582-the-invisible-woman-a-conversation-with-bjork/

http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2015/jan/31/sophie-heawood-bjork-men-stealing-spotlight

http://www.rollingstone.com/music/news/bjork-likens-making-emotional-vulnicura-to-open-heart-surgery-20150130

Walking Day

4 Walks!

Maybe I should get a Fitbit.

such confusion

words ;-(
eating, playing, fingerpainting, exploring (basically childhood regression to a time before school) :-)
sorry to be so tediously ingenue...

What's this about?

It's got Joshua Trees.



Morcheeba ~ Blood Like Lemonade

Dear Msr. Moralsy Morale

I hope you have a lackluster day.
P.S. Jethro Tull winning a Grammy for eyeing little girls with bad intent is the awesomeness.
Except, in real life...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Crest_of_a_Knave
"The flute is a heavy, metal instrument."
~~~
OH weird, there's an album called Lackluster by a guy who went to my first high school maybe?

Like a double feature

Film reviews: Incendies & Le Quattro Volte

Song lyrics can stick

"hey coyote
you know something i don't"
(concrete blonde)

bothersome

one ridiculous q. when I reported my story about creepy guy with kids in the park: "were they all the same color?" yes. should have said, yes they were all pale, so what? what diff. does that make if they were all the same color or not? what diff.  does it make if they were genetically-related or not? and ppl can be genetically-related and not be the same color....

frivolous celeb thought

http://www.thecinemasource.com/blog/interviews/george-clooney-interview-for-good-night-and-good-luck/

a) I like him better than I used to
b) not bad-looking, yet not better-looking than the guy I live with
(this girl at the door the other day, trying to sell him magazines and compliment him on his looks in his raggedy just-got-out-of-bed attire, lol...)

riddle me this

who goes to school outside the top of the mitten?

tonight's possibility(s)

too much wine/sugar maybe pass out while catching up on downton abbey wake up slightly less introverted take a shower in the new shower or less

Mira

http://whatanart.com/2014/07/24/artist-interacts-with-paintings-of-swimmers/

So cute

http://icecreamjournal.turkeyhill.com/index.php/2010/07/07/if-i-opened-an-ice-cream-stand/

http://www.bruning.com/humor/cat_macros/feed_me_your_delicious_icecream.php

Weirdly

Channing Tatum's neck is attached to a face/jaw/mouth.
C.T. on Q.T.

Waiting

http://www.mnn.com/family/pets/stories/caught-on-camera-pets-eating-people-food

for gelato to defrost, and why have I never googled cat/ice cream combinations before? I just did, with these Hey Coyote & Mojave songs on in the background, after this story song about a shipwreck: The Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald...

I feel

this small scrap of enlightenment descending...advice to parents from a childfree person: Be happy. Figure out what makes you happy. Do that. Your kids want you to be happy more than they want themselves to be happy, even if they don't say that. (I mean, truly happy. Not self-indulgence drinking-too-much-whiskey fake happy.) Because, when kids see their parents are happy, it is good role modeling. It teaches them how to take care of themselves. Wow. I feel so wise??? I have to take a shower, to wash off the slightly creepy feeling I get when so much enlightenment comes over me.

Adulthood

It's amazing to me how great adults cope with adulthood. What do I wanna bet, that if I were to ever be sucked into a strange situation, that I would have to feel compelled to be the wise older sister about all of it.

Nice needlework...

https://www.pinterest.com/valerie2115/the-tree-of-life/

Predicament

today i spoke with one who thanked me but said something probably was not something harmful going on...but i am unconvinced...mmmm...universe....

77

Thoreau Hawthorne Emerson
Three idiots iceskating

www.afanews.com

Driving home thoughts

Consider absolutes. Marriage monogamy motherhood paternity seclusion inclusion exclusion...There's a lot of possibility for freaking out about stuff simply by being born...No wonder it is tempting to choose a simpler option...Who doesn't heart the simple life...

Reminder to self

The Renaissance Pleasure Faire is coming soon.

http://forum.worldoftanks.com/index.php?/topic/291044-how-does-the-mm-make-you-feel/

small a.m. communications

Outdoors: observed 1-4 guys who appeared disheveled. A pale guy with a cane type accessory shouted "see a doctor!" at another pale guy in an army jacket, then he ambled over to two brown guys and the smiling threesome gave each other affirmative high fives & hand gestures. Indoors: called # to report Saturday's creepy incident; general feelings of skeeviness will probably not count for much, but there it is...

Fairy

That is a deep thoughts fairy.

http://www.ebsqart.com/Artist/Meredith-Estes/

signs

so, maybe this incident was orchestrated (finding a big wad of cash and a receipt for diapers on the way back to your car, and on the way out of the pharmacy after driving to another shopping center to take it back a guy seems to yell out "sorry you have to wait") but what about going by a woman and a baby right at the trail marker, and also the words "thank you" on a children's program that flashed on the screen right when you walked back into the house to get a book you forgot...

Oiseaux

http://www.galeriaquetzal.com/

http://www.chinesepaintings.com/

Etc. 

songy so

Actually, maybe i will look at healing things and watch a movie later.

Some people i know have been having illness issues.

http://gemstone.rocksrevealed.com/rockshop/blue-healing-room

so

came home and
tonight's the night to watch django unchained i guess
mournful "whyyy" as movie automatically restarted to the beginning
because it wants me to watch the whole thing
do you want to watch the whole thing?
oh why not
~~~
and also
so what's in that burrito you made
a hot dog and some cheese
why didn't you put the chicken i made into it
forever and ever and ever...

how fun would it be

to make something like this


Amy Schumer ~ Magic Man

scry

I see a distant relative

http://the-toast.net/2015/01/26/gleeful-mobs-women-murdering-men-western-art-history/

Excited

about Skinvigorate



and


Whistling At Your Mom (from Peru!)

Gosh

A curious juxtaposition of Taylor Swift & Bach



J. S. Bach : CANTATA -- BWV 54 "Widerstehe doch der Sünde" (Gustav Leonhardt)

Life's gentle dagger dance

"Walk me to my car."
"Ha ha ha, no."
Dear blurred lines antics please be off the balcony by the time I am out of the laundry room.
(A car speeds away. Hopefully the driver is off to watch age-appropriate porn in his own basement, by himself.)

Oh Amy. Will you please stop being so insecure around that slender, genetically gifted supermodel therapist. Don't you know you are beautiful on the inside? Don't you know that universe wants you to pay attention to other things? Like whether or not some wolf pimp is running a pup slave ring in the nice forest behind your house, maybe.

How you doin'
Lounging around in a pair of wet jeans that got sent to the dryer last week.

http://fineartamerica.com/featured/jesus-in-blue-jeans-matt-konar.html

$$$

I just found 3 twenties on my bedside table.
I didn't realize until I looked at my phone that it was left for me for grocery shopping. It is an image I won't forget.

The walk

The walk/hike I went on today started out disgusting, hot, and strenuous, and after I went on a new trail it ended up being fun and joyful. When I got to the place where I saw the creepy guy and the kids, I was at trail marker #1. I hadn't noticed it. I was full of "love, peace, healing" kinds of thoughts, and I remembered that I went back to the Taco Place, after my dual #77 receipt experience. I went back a third time, and my receipt was #1. Such is the superstitious life. Before I got to that spot, I came around the trail another way and I was surprised to see a lot of brush in front of a bench-in-a-tree that I like. Blocking it off, just as that "film crew" or whatever was blocking the trail I tried to find yesterday.

Headache

http://www.lamag.com/

http://www.lamag.com/longform/gone-girls/

Supermarvelous hike!

Glad I have to run off to another engagement. It's EIGHTY DEGREES in January.

Little nitpicky impulse(s)

"The New Yorker"?

https://twitter.com/PiecesofMargo/status/555545623009574913
&
http://rackjite.com/ayn-rand-reviews-childrens-movies-new-yorker/

A writer who wrote for The New Yorker:

http://www.newyorker.com/humor/daily-shouts/ayn-rand-reviews-childrens-movies

~~~

I am tired of watching the Turbo Tax marriage commercial as I cook and eat my breakfast.

~~~

This made me lol; the guy in the theater is so happy at the end...

Beck ~ Deadweight

eye pond

www.pinterest.com/

Hard things

I have had a few whiskey sours. Bf (who doesn't usually drink them) was making some in a silver Rose Bowl thermos. The thermos is good because it lets you shake and then strain the drink at the same time, through the top nozzle. I told him I was disturbed today on the trail and why. He says, "Well, you don't know." And "Context is everything." But later I stood by him as he was on the computer and said "I am going back to that part of the trail where I encountered them, and put out some very specific vibes." He said, "You do that." And then he tipped back his head and gave a very cute and serious look. For a second, I could have almost cried. I said, "I will." If I met a predator on the trail today, that is not something I am going to ignore. I am going to tell other people about it. That guy, if he did something harmful, is not going to get away with it. That girl was old enough to talk and know if it was bad. And there were other kids there. I am going to keep an eye out, in case I see him/them there again. I didn't get a very close look. But I generally remember his appearance. He was taller than I am. His face was square-ish and narrowish and blondish-grizzly, and I think he wore glasses. It was not a friendly face. It was cynical, sarcastic, and bitter. I know because when I was creeped out by what he said, I tried to look at him a little bit, to smile a bit as if to laugh it off and he was not laughing as if it were all just a joke. He did not want to look at me. He did not want someone like me to get in his way. People cannot take their bitterness at life out on children.
~~~~~
I went to the mirror and tried to see what my face might have looked like. My "I'm trying to smile even though I think what you said is creepy" face does not look very smiley. It looks more like a frown. I'm trying to laugh but I'm frowning is what it looks like. Or maybe, I'm trying to swallow something but I'm not swallowing it.

New what?

Beck ~ New Pollution

Hmmm

That time you and your S.O. got into a G.O.T. argument, even though you don't technically watch the show...

Nature saves not

This was a disturbing day. :-(

I went to a park to walk on some trails and brought a book. It was leisurely. Just, walk, rest, read, repeat. But at some point, when I went to use the restroom, I encountered an adult male authority figure with several children tagging along behind him.

 "They especially like little girls," he was saying.
A girl tagging on his heels: "Why do they especially like little girls?"
"'Cause they're easy pickin's. And they taste sweet."

The adult was walking quite fast. About 10 feet behind them, a little boy was running, trying to keep up with them, and criticizing the girl. "Why do you keep slapping his butt? I swear, she's like always slapping everybody's butt."

After they were gone, I thought, Hmmm. That was a little unsavory. I told myself, well, maybe the guy is just being really sarcastic. He's telling a story to warn the kids away from bears, or predators.

About 10 minutes later, after I was back from the restroom, mingled in with various other sounds, I began to hear a particular sound like that of a child screaming and crying. It was not very close and it was also not very loud. It sounded like it was coming from an upper part of the trail. I felt very suspicious. Maybe a kid fell and skinned a knee or something, but still. I started walking towards a place where I could connect to the upper trail. In order to do this, I had to walk away from the sounds. As they got fainter, I was getting disoriented. I could not find the place to connect to the upper part of the trail. Also, there was a lot equipment around and stuff, as if people were filming. Most of those people were not on the "set." The chairs were not occupied. One or two people were hanging out by the equipment. At this point, I could not even hear the screaming/crying anymore. I walked back towards where I had first heard the sounds, but they had stopped.

I think it was the last part that bothered me: "And they taste sweet." Food and drink tastes sweet. Honeysuckle flowers can taste sweet. If you want to say your lover tastes sweet, go right on ahead. But "little girls" that are "easy pickin's" "taste sweet?"

I don't like that guy.

A lot of people were in the park. It was a weekend. There were rangers guiding big groups, looking busy. I kept looking towards the upper trail on the way out but I didn't see them. I kind of wished I had gone with a small group of friends so I could get their "read" on the situation. But in a small group of friends, if we were busy talking to each other, would we notice?

Wave foam birds

http://www.metafilter.com/115958/Sometimes-we-dont-know-how-important-some-research-could-be

Chamomile tea

http://iheartteas.teatra.de/2013/05/can-tea-spark-certain-moods/

I mean, it is something.

Some thoughts

Shock does not look like what you think it might. It is not always some great screaming obvious performance, although it is sometimes. Something as small as a drop of water hitting a leaflet, that can shock a person. And that is even more shocking, because, what? It's just that? Shock is never forever. But it can last a long time. Shock can be gentle but persistent. That is very possible.

And it's weird that life can = shock, sometimes. I think I am a little bit shocked. I don't exactly know why. A personality that is still in control is in shock. Perhaps I/it will be unshocked soon. Maybe I'm not as shocked as I think I am. But still. It's not gone. Yet. Also, this is ridiculous. But that's how shock can work on a person. I am going to get out of it, though. And it is possible that shock is too strong of a word. However, it probably is accurate.

Spooky wintry repeat

Claptone ~ Ghost

Plant ID software

This looks kinda cool...

http://www.fengshui-magazine.com/garden/gscreen.htm

Expensive

"Glittering amidst the economic doom..."

"a gift from God"  "a blessing"  "our heritage"  "the future"

For the New Year

http://www.fengshui-magazine.com/garden/gscreen.htm

This place needs interior design help. Pretty landscape scenes in a box still haven't been hung on the wall. Almost-new TV has a crack and green and black lines going up and down the screen. Tendencies to let mail accumulate. Throwing blankets over small piles of disorganization to hide them.

It is January. Don't forget to write the right date on checks.

Writing something in English then Google translating it into another language and then back into English is SO silly. Ja, ja, ja.

(En la mañana, procedió a la casa de un curandero de entregar efectivo . " ¿Quieres venir y cumplir con el bebé? " Ok . El bebé es muy simpático y se arrastra hacia mí. "Creo que él quiere que lo recoja ! "Recoge bebé. mira en mis ojos y sonríe y parece viejo y sabio . " le gustas ! él no siempre quiere que la gente que lo recogiera . " " él es lindo . Es muy inteligente. " " Siéntate . " " ? de acuerdo, puedo ponerlo abajo" Después de una transición difícil , el bebé es feliz de jugar en el suelo Algo sobre la dentición haciéndole infeliz, pero él está bien hoy Y entonces una pregunta : . . " ? ¿Habla cualquier palabra todavía " de repente , el bebé comienza a llorar madre lo levanta ; bebé es feliz de nuevo es hora de ir a casa En casa : . . . . " Así que tuve que ir a pagar el sanador , y había un bebé allí ... " Respuesta : Sí ronquido , que es lo que pensé .)

Click

http://www.theguardian.com/books/2012/dec/02/lorna-byrne-angels-interview-supernatural

I bet Thoreau would have too

A Room With a View ~ Bathing

I lied!

It happens.


Johnny Cash ~ One Piece At A Time

Oh my god

I'm throwing up songs. Two more. That's it. Done for the night.

Blur -- Parklife
Stanley Bros -- Little Glass of Wine

Now I'm s'posed to watch this one

Hurray for the Riff Raff ~ The Body Electric

I did.
Wow.

someone just came home

told me to look up this song


Drive-By Truckers ~ Three Great Alabama Icons

eeesh...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lurleen_Wallace

suddenly feeling tortuga

The entire known universe
Floats suspended in a thin silver bowl
Which rocks gently on the back
Of an immense blue-green tortuga

http://coyotestrangerdanger.tumblr.com/post/57089601948/the-lyrics-make-me-want-to-draw-bahamut-hazmat

https://drawception.com/viewgame/49pGf2xnZh/its-turtles-all-the-way-down/

Very well

I bet all male artists made these paintings.

http://the-toast.net/2015/01/22/death-art/

~~~~~~~~~

Two, by themselves, each other, love and fear,

Slain, cruel friends, by parting have join'd here. 

http://www.inspirationalstories.com/poems/pyramus-and-thisbe-john-donne-poems/

delicate flower meowy cat ABC embroidery

http://cafecartolina.blogspot.com/

http://www.craftster.org/

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/126382333268637062/

Well

sometimes I fall into fits of admiring different types of embroidery...

http://www.emblibrary.com/

http://landauerpub.com/

http://www.embroidables.com/

http://www.needlenthread.com/

http://www.needlenthread.com/

This is YIKES

http://www.npr.org/blogs/health/2015/01/22/379072061/disneyland-measles-outbreak-hits-59-cases-and-counting

Avoiding

Giant Inca Corn kernels.
Heartburn and a severe coughing / choking fit.
No more of those right now.

Sayings

NEVER
well maybe...
NO
perhaps...
ABSOLUTELY NOT
unless...
Sleep on it.

choices

these all have the foot pic
have a feeling it came from somewhere else...
oh wait
maybe the middle one

http://marylelle.com/what-mary-saw-during-the-august-28-2013-distance-group-healing

http://nakedyogasf.com/2014/09/how-to-slow-down-to-the-speed-of-life/

http://trailsmittenmom.blogspot.com/2010/11/ashland-or-bust.html

I wish

I could remember where I got this.
I will try to figure it out.

Stuck

Beck ~ Devil's Haircut

Maybe I have to explore his lesser known stuff.
He cried about Johnny Cash.

what's the word

There is meanness here:

http://the-toast.net/2015/01/21/texts-fanny-dashwood/
http://the-toast.net/2014/10/28/women-terrible-time-parties-western-art-history/

I hope the neighbors came home for the cat.

m

the cat is in
she's getting put out again soon
it's a forlorn world
cat

so much

guilt
after the not necessary shopping trip
baked chips and layer dip
ginger brew
cat meows
outside
can't
eat
this
food
so
sad
it's not that cold
(55 degrees tho)

Meooooow

cat
cat
cat

MMMM. Driving today

Menstrual cramps

Mama have

Mercy on

Me

~~~

There are people who walk this earth and pray for a hysterectomy, although I am not one of them.

This was interesting! I had never seen the topic addressed before. Ever.

http://the-toast.net/2015/01/20/breastfeeding-sexual-assault-survivors/

Cute cat

I wish the upstairs neighbors would come home and let the cute cat in. I mean, I know winters in this part of the world are mild, but still.
"She looks pregnant," said roommate.
OF COURSE
~~~~~~
GUILT
MEOW
~~~~~~
Don't get a cat unless you're gonna be home at 8 p.m. Seriously.

not terrible dreams

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cheshire_Cat

Yesterday morning: My cat came back
This morning:
I drove up a hill in the San Francisco area that was so ridiculously steep, I literally thought I would not survive. But other cars were doing it. I guessed if other cars did it, I could too. It was like driving up a T. Or an I. Like a 90 degree incline.  Later, I was on the passenger side in the car with an Ellen Page / Juno type driving and some other people were in the backseat.  A spirit wrote "Hello" on the foggy windshield in front of me/us.

Commentary

http://hqwallbase.com/93174-moon-dreams/

(internal)

Lucille Ball you're not.

when regular ppl guilt trip, it's the symptom of an unevolved solar plexus, but if u do it with a phd, ur an awesome academic

(external)

Y: Hi.
X: Hi. I got up because I have cramps. That's how I'm feeling. I'm making Ginger Tea.

X: I do not want to eat this at 2 a.m. I am putting it back. Why didn't you eat the BBQ I made?
Y: Don't you know me by now?
X: NO. I keep expecting you to be the way I want you to be, and instead you are the way you are.

SWEET PAINLESS DREAMS

http://www.wildlife-fantasy.com/artwork/sweet_dreams_in_the_witch_house.php

http://o.canada.com/entertainment/movies/movie-review-sweet-dreams-shows-rwandan-healing-through-ice-cream

Sigh

https://www.pinterest.com/jrandal/poppy-love-3/

Impulse II

Tori Amos ~ The Beekeeper

gotta impulse

Tori Amos ~ The Big Picture

On the way home

https://www.flickr.com/photos/brittgomez/34726284/

I passed by a girl giving an eloquent speech to a wall about shame.

She was quite good. As I walked away, she was segwaying into guilt.

https://theuglytruth.wordpress.com/2010/09/18/talking-to-the-wall-an-old-jewish-joke/

eye something

http://intimesoftrouble.com/cover-art/

lightworkerenergyart.com

https://www.pinterest.com

http://www.rurallyscrewed.com

http://www.pixmule.com/about-this-artwork/

http://juliedillon.deviantart.com/art/Cancer-Llewellyn-Worldwide-349736961

http://bodypainting-2012.blogspot.com/2012/05/healing-art-paintings.html

http://www.mauriceleavitt.com/category/pacha-mama/

Re:

Pop N Taco 1980s

Kento Mori / Pop N Taco ~ I Can Make You Dance / Billie Jean

I feel

like I may have figured out some things

how peaceful

I can go meditate on a mountain now

thank you, Del Taco

http://more-shatner.livejournal.com/124291.html

http://www.sluniverse.com/php/vb/general-sl-discussion/65541-what-has-happened-taco.html

groupthink.jezebel.com