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Saturday, June 30, 2012

Funny

Friend sent this...maybe because of the storm....

you know you're an English major when

Netflix is acting up and you think of Howards End and yell at the tv "Only connect!"

On the list

help with the participle/gerund thing

Was thinking about

experiences in academia while watching more things about the military.
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Experience 1: Honors mothers and sings "This Love Will Carry..."
http://bcove.me/67p2aca8
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Experience 2: Public metal stripping shame
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qsnZ1BFchfE&feature=plcp
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Experience 3: Young people during a training exercise
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ae8TO8Vb4N8&feature=related
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Academia is not better than the military.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

GOD only knows

why I watched this...
Recruits Bad Day
god...just look at them...
who would even want to go to college...
i think maybe i need an ice cream

something to do

think I'll take a walk
then chop up some vegetables
chop up a salad
sometimes it seems as if my life got chopped up somehow
how did that happen?

And then what

a whole bunch of miscellaneous military videos... snippets here and there fastforwarding through stuff... I don't know why... must amuse me for some reason...

Today--a picture on a random girl's binder

Kurt Cobain, before the age of digital zombies

I wonder if the writer is right about Teen Spirit, because I'm pretty sure I saw it in the 99 cent store last night.

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

a little weird

the need to engage in fits of late-night housecleaning....

what is this


















"We talked and I sat waiting for the question.
It came before the olives and celery."
(page 11)
What is that? Is it just straight up celery and olives?
Or this?
Black and Green Olives with Celery
This one?
Celery and Olive Salad
I don't know what....

soldier...

soldier
soldier
soldier soldier soldier
WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel funny...

Tucumcari


That seems? seemed? like? a good place? to go write something
when it was in the
thing we live in

Things I did not know

Nora Ephron was sick and has died. Also, she wrote Silkwood?
(I never saw it. I only learned about it after reading some lyrics...)

"You showed me the meadow
and Milkwood
and Silkwood
and you would if I would
but you never would"

Horses

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Here's something else to consider...
What does it say that the last thing I remember about her (partly because of finding this book laying around that restaurant I used to be chained to near Washington, D.C.) is that she wrote a book called I Feel Bad About My Neck?


And you know...

if you continue

to eat greasy

potato chips...




Masterpiece A Day tumblr

Dalai Lama quote

One time, a while back, when I was feeling quite bad, looking at this Dalai Lama quote was really helpful. I found it here.


NEVER GIVE UP

no matter what is going on

Never give up

Develop the heart

Too much energy in your country

is spent developing the mind

instead of the heart

Develop the heart

Be compassionate

Not just to your friends

but to everyone

Be compassionate

Work for peace

in your heart and in the world

Work for peace

and I say again

Never give up

No matter what is happening

No matter what is going on around you

Never give up


H.H. The XIV Dalai Lama



I wonder if I'll ever see the Dalai Lama.

Life is mysterious.

Monday, June 25, 2012

for some reason, good mood

maybe it was the walk, or the lemon balm tincture, or loving an old tree by a library box bookdrop, or the glorious prospect of the wicked roommate leaving soon (!!!!)...but for some reason this silly 80s song playing in the 99 cent store tonight was quite soothingly alright...

Something to read

Wise Woman Ways To  Boost Your Energy

"Almost every woman has, at one time or another, felt so fatigued she wanted to cry. But for some women, and for a variety of reasons -- including menopause, caring for a new-born, working odd hours, chronic anxiety, and poverty, to name only a few -- fatigue is a constant, not an occasional, problem. "

Oh yes, chronic anxiety and poverty can be very fatiguing.
One needs to find ways to get one's energy boosted in such times...

Patriotic song dream

Dreamt about some people on a bus getting stuff confiscated by a relatively good-natured female security officer. A man who was close to crying started singing "My Country Tis of Thee" in protest.  Then the bus turned into a symphony hall with multiple female voices singing in four part harmony and the sound was very majestic.

The first thing that came up for "my country tis of thee four part":

http://www.loc.gov/jukebox/recordings/detail/id/5736/

The first thing that came up for "four part harmony" on it's own:

The Taffetas

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Hmmm. They did Istanbul and Volare.

this is either funny or sick

The Continental
Ha ha! Filmed off a TV in the Fayetteville/Raleigh/Durham area
Sometimes I almost wonder if the East Coast has disappeared like a ghost

Tonight/tomorrow?

Backache and hot face.

It was an up-and-down, see-sawing kind of day, which included bouts of weeping that would've made Margery Kempe proud. I guess that's how it goes sometimes when the present life and the lives of the dead decide to tap dance on your soul? Man...

Don't Fear The Reaper, Christopher Walken...bring on the cowbell, guys

I am currently reading this article: Why Women Still Can't Have It All, and what I feel could be described as a mixture of gratitude and like I'm getting beaten with a frying pan, simultaneously.

GREAT writing!!!!

Outdoor excursion

Today I decided that if I'm going to sink so much money into an automobile, I should at least let it take me somewhere nice. I had another free day, so after doing some reading, I decided to go on an excursion.

I'd just been reading some essays about parenting, and I noticed that I did not really feel like being around kids. Almost as soon as I got there, a quiet moment of reverie was unpleasantly interrupted by the sounds of a large group of children chanting something that sounded horrifically similar to a group of college boys yelling "Chug! Chug! Chug!" at a fraternity party, but the voices belonged to grade school students of both genders. Whenever I saw this group in their matching red t-shirts, I made sure to avoid them.

I even noticed myself getting annoyed on a walk when a mother right behind me talked incessantly to her kids about what they should see next. What is wrong with you? I asked myself. They are not a loud group of chanting schoolchildren. She's teaching them about nature. That's good! Nevertheless, I was relieved to get away from them.

It was hot. Even though I'd eaten a salad for lunch I got hungry while I was there, but subscribed to the "sometimes when you think you're hungry, you're really just thirsty" philosophy, and drank water.

tadpoles eating a leaf

At one point I noticed some kids running through sprinklers and thought that was kind of cute. I didn't have any more annoying encounters. I lost myself in my own meanderings and took pictures. And then came the baby peacocks. How hard-hearted would you have to be to not think that baby peacocks are adorable?


peacock and babies

It was a very satisfying excursion. At the end of it, I rested on a bench and looked through my photos. A short distance away, a peacock with impressive plumage pecked at something in a flower pot.

a peacock showing off it's feathers

Some parents and little kids admired the peacock, and then wandered off to see other things.

Then two adults and a little girl came along.

"Mommy, stop. I want to see the peacock!"

Mommy didn't lock back. Daddy(?) looked back for just a second, but then he followed Mommy.

"I want to see the peacock, Mommy."

"You can SEE the peacock," Mommy said, and kept walking.

"But, I don't want you to leave me!" the little girl wailed, running after the two adults. "I want to see the peacock, Mommy..." They kept walking and she ran after them, crying about not being able to see it.

They really made me sad, and kind of mad. I mean, who knows. Maybe they had important stuff to talk about. Funeral arrangements, perhaps?

Why not take five seconds to spend time with your kid and look at a peacock?

I wondered if I was being too judgemental. Maybe it was just because of the contrast between them and those kids with the other parents, who had actually taken the time to admire the peacock with their children...

When I exited through the gift shop, a woman and four children (boys and girls) were in front of me, speaking in a mixture of English and Spanish. The children started to make noises about wanting to go in the gift shop, but they were on the verge of leaving because the woman said they couldn't spend any money.

But she hesitated in the doorway. Did they want to look? They could look, they just couldn't spend any money.

I'd fully expected her to push them all out of there--at once! But they came back into the store, just to look around.

"I like your idea. It sounds very scientific," she said to one of the little girls, as the other kids calmly wandered around the store. They looked around briefly, and then left. It definitely seemed like she was in the gifted and talented category for parenting at that moment....

Chapter 9, "Heat"

"A few mothers seem happy with their children all the time, as if they're sailing through motherhood, entranced. But up close and personal, you find that these moms tend to have little unresolved issues: they exercise three hours a day, or they check their husbands' pockets every night, looking for motel receipts. Because moms get very mad; and they also get bored. This is a closely guarded secret; the myth of maternal bliss is evidently so sacrosanct that we can't even admit these feelings to ourselves. But when you mention the feelings to other mothers, they all say, "Yes, yes!" You ask, "Are you ever mean to your children?" "Yes!" "Do you ever yell so meanly that it scares you?" "Yes, yes!" "Do you ever want to throw yourself down the stairs because you're so bored with your child that you can hardly see straight?" "Yes, Lord, yes..."

I Love It

"This is how Sam started telling me about one ten-minute patch of a school day, while I was trying to watch the news: "So Alex says she didn't draw it, and then she goes like she did draw the picture herself, and then he goes like, 'Oh yeah,' and then she goes like, 'Yeah, I asked her to but she said I had to,' and then he goes like, 'Oh, yeah, riiiight,' then I go..."



Bret You Got It Goin' On

"I am not an ageist: If, while I was watching the news, Jesus wanted to tell me in great detail how he runs the fifty-yard dash, I'd be annoyed with him, too: "See, most kids start out like this--the first step is a big one, like this--no, watch--and then the second is smaller, like this, and the next--no, watch, my child, I'm almost done--so see, what I do is, I start like everyone else--watch--but then my third step is like small, and the next one is bigger, so like, this P.E. teacher who sees me do it goes, 'Whoa, Lord, cool,' and then she goes..."

--Plan B by A. Lamott

P.S. -- Karma?

maybe it's happening

the folks with friends that steal stuff decided to come back and watch a movie instead...perhaps that's an improvement over hanging out with those people?  whatever.
hopefully they'll find another place to improve themselves soon

I get it

An abundance of citrus fruit is part of why living in So Cal is so cool
Lemon Stealing Whores
But even when it's not there's still music
HEYYEYAAEYAAAEYAEYAA

one time

this girl and her b.f. w/ a criminal record walked by
to go out and meet some more of their wonderful friends
'cause they don't do that going in and out through the window thing anymore
but they still didn't pay for the damn broken screen
(life lesson learned: ALWAYS REQUIRE A DEPOSIT)
as they passed, another person living in that household not-so-nicely thought:
"vile roommate creature"
at least the month of June only has 30 days
have a great life
feel free to work on developing/improving a sense of integrity

day off

absolutely nothing to do today (on purpose) except evolving beyond thinking bitter and cynical thoughts about roommate who still lives here and let "friends" steal stuff and then was too cowardly to give up names or talk to the police...no cable, but watched 5 mins of an espisode on youtube about the judds...keep on doing that??? or attack pile of library books???

truth be told...

kind of feeling in a good mood about summer...
and also felt like listening to Cats
Gus, The Theatre Cat
Growltiger's Last Stand I
Growltiger's Last Stand II
Old Deuteronomy
happy Summer Solstice
CAT
that's supposed to be picture #6

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

order of listening to or watching some things

while water dripped off my hair onto my big toe
Blood Roses
Aleph
Mujhe Teri Muhabbat Ka
really, the world was a smaller place before youtube

dinner!

Need the Omega-3s.
What's Good at TJ's?
Got a lukewarm review, but whatever.
"it comes out much better if you do it in the microwave."

but on the other hand

This article could perk things right up!
Silenced Michigan Lawmaker...
(with accompanying Jon Stewart clip)
Sometimes I wish I had cable.

trending, meh


 Maybe today wasn't the most splendid day.

Monday, June 18, 2012

Finally watched this movie...

Billy Elliot
That's the trailer, but I wanted to post that clip where the dance instructor gives her little cynical synopsis of Swan Lake.

who can say why

there has been some stealing, but on the other hand, there have also been numerous gracious offers of help...maybe there has been a certain amount graciousness with regard to not kicking some people out on the street, but instead letting them stay 'til the end of the month to find a new place or make some kind of plans...cost: some tears and resentment and fears...more horrid bills to pay for the car, which is necessary for the job...so as they say, when it rains it pours, or, when it sledgehammers, it sledgehammers... who can say why this money thing has become such a sledgehammer with some people?
Sledgehammer - Invincible
Sledgehammer - Peter Gabriel

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Sunday morning dream

on Father's Day...weird dream about some kind of altar-ish thing. Also, being shown a "receipt," which was actually a list of the names of the people who built the altar etched on rectangular stone slabs.
I think it was about General Patton's Altar.
Possible roadtrip.
(Right up there with the date garden and lamp and genie....)

Gallagher

Someone was asked if an aversion to watermelon stemmed from a traumatic childhood experience.

SLEDGE-O-MATIC!!!

Interesting background and place of birth too.

today

total waterworks day
crying about trust issues, afraid of retaliation from "friend" who probably stole stuff, no place to go, etc.
honestly, what a pain

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

hey, headphones on now

The Beatles anthology has some interesting renditions of songs...
Hey You've Got To Hide Your Love Away
Hey

Beatles song

She Came In Through The Bathroom Window
Assuming that there's sound on that.
Headphones were in the stolen backpack.
Hmmm, in-tryst-ing song background info...

to consider

live with people with a well-established rental history
this may exclude those who are moving out on their own for the first time
also, living with people who know how to keep their windows screened/ locked is a benefit, and also, living with people who don't have criminals for friends...

Very educational

a trip to a courthouse
a penal code poem

484(A) PC MISD; 666 PC MISD; 487 (D) (1) PC FEL; 10851(A) VC FEL; 11364(A) H&S MISD; 11377(A) H&S FEL; 11550(A) H&S MISD; 594(A) PC MISD; 4600(A) PC MISD; 245(A)(1) PC FEL
(includes grand theft auto)

Ix-nay

on purchasing a computer of one's own until some security stuff gets resolved... : (

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

zen-ish moment: first time making a dahl recipe

as some people watch My Left Foot
slowly cooking and stirring the coconut oil, onion, black mustard seed, fennel seed, and little curry leaves...

Monday, June 11, 2012

this is funny

composing a mature little speech in my head
dear roommate, yes you are very nice
unfortunately, we've found out your friends have criminal backgrounds
the cop recognized you
even nice people can have problems, bad childhoods, etc?
bleah, I know I can do better than that

computer rowr

my very nice under $400 computer apparently got almost 6 hours of battery life, not that I got a chance to test it out...

songs enjoyed prior

Chantilly Lace
looking for mung beans in the grocery stole
(while someone was maybe stealing stuff)
Diamonds On The Soles...
in the car on the way to the Indian market
(while someone was prolly stealing stuff)
I'm Writing A Novel
on the way home from 99 cent store with pineapples
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Hmmm...he's going off about an eyeball but eventually he sings....

blurry people

enjoying beverages
after being burglarized



further proof Ray was awesome

One of my friends sent me this quote from an article about Ray Bradbury

In 2009, at a lecture celebrating the first anniversary of a small library in Southern California's San Gabriel Valley, he exhorted his listeners to live their lives as he said he had lived his: "Do what you love and love what you do."

"If someone tells you to do something for money, tell them to go to hell," he shouted to raucous applause.    


AND

Go To Hell!!!!! Burglars who stole stuff from the livingroom and kitchen!!!!!

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Hoy dia

Sad and entertaining.
Burglaries are bad.
Off the record comments from the investigating officer are enlightening.

Saturday, June 09, 2012

Saturday Artistic Film Matinee Day

Was considering watching The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel, but now I think the choice will be Moonrise Kingdom because the Francoise Hardy song in the trailer won me over.

Listening to Stevie Nicks again

Rhiannon first ('cause I looked at some Tarot cards)

and Sara
a red haired babysitter of mine loved her, and also David Lee Roth
and loved to sing
and encouraged me to sing, too...
White Winged Dove
and blew on a paper towel to show us how brown her breath got from smoking cigarettes and told us that we kids should never, ever smoke...

This is sad.



Something I just saw and thought was interesting...

This tweet: "More folks would support gov't social programs if they experienced the pain of being a poor child."
 - http://twitter.com/Sherman_Alexie/status/211487391221944320.
I think that this is generally true...however, I also think there are some people who were poor or disadvantaged in some way while growing up, and the way they react to it is by throwing off their childhood and rushing into a better life, and then some of them might say, "If I did it this way, others should too. And if they didn't, it's their own fault for being lazy. I earned my money. And I'm not giving it away to the government."  And another thing, "If those people need help, they can just go to a church." So, although I do think that experiencing poverty as a kid can = more compassion for impoverished kids and more support for government social programs, it is not always a guarantee.
And kids who were poor and grew up in foster care and went into the army right out of high school may do that or kind of waver towards having that sort of attitude...'cause they're tough...

      

Friday, June 08, 2012

There was also this weird thing

Being in a hotel room in Lima for a few hours after spending a good deal of time in places with very limited technology, and this just happened to be what was on TV when I switched it on:

SM remembers Congresswoman Bella

More celebrity

Really, this person is a large part of the reason I went to Peru, and, by coincidence/accident, I even briefly encountered a guy who had been her tour guide, and the person who took us there had also met her, and said SM was a very warm person with beautiful eyes, or some such thing. Is there any good reason not to pay attention to her? SM earns AFI honor

SM childhood or preteen flick

Steel Magnolias and Shirley MacLaine = introduction to that southern concoction, red velvet cake.
It is surprisingly hard to find a clip of the armadillo cake scene.
There's a clip of Drum and "Weeza" (Ouiser) arguing...but no cake...

Thursday, June 07, 2012